Hope is here for us to stay,

Even if there is no solution to this day.

Arrogance lives in all the spaces

We cannot control these outward races.

It’s not our job to compete with masses or madness.

It’s only our job to look for the light.

When we ourselves cannot find it (hope), we must borrow it from others.

Hope is not a commodity. Hope is not faith in an outcome. It can be shared without being known, and it will never lose its supply.

Hope is a focus on light; it’s an end that creates a new beginning.

Hope can peer back at us from the abyss of darkness. When we wrap our whole heads in darkness: our imagination generates images.

This is the power to make your way through the darkness, to never let it win. Despair is the only real enemy.

Borrow hope from others.

Seek it out in your sleep.

Hello dear readers of my beloved heart,

You are family to me. Gonna speak to you straight from my heart.

I am slowly figuring out how to return to the chopping block without getting chopped! Wait— that’s my humor. But life has felt like being on a ninja challenge game show that I didn’t sign up for.

Since the beginning of the year, I wanted everything to fundamentally slow down. That’s what my ego wanted, that’s what my body wanted, and I’m pretty sure my soul was begging for a really deep moment to catch its soul breath.

How is everyone else doing, really?

For me, the energies of February knocked me sideways. It went right with the military war strikes. I felt the energy building. By March I started walking sidewise or slowly starting to move my crushed spidey legs—this is my energetic metaphor for a near full-squash. Also, I am still grieving for all the people involved in this ‘now’ global crisis— as we hope it resolves with a swift end, but most likely it won’t be. We who are the most removed from the day to day of war are still the most embedded in its psyche. We are part of the collective consciousness/unconsciousness.

I felt like this card was the main event/experience:

But now, something different is happening and there’s a turning point. I felt the energetic shift on Saturday. This full moon in Libra oppose the Sun/Saturn/Neptune conjunction in Aries. The fire is strong. Mars, Mercury and North Node are holding back with karmic queries in Pisces, but not for long. Change is to come for all. Pluto and Uranus will be holding an interesting trine and soon Uranus will move back into Gemini for its 7ish year stay: in April. Things will be slick.

April will be a *very* active month.

This full moon in Libra is really your chance to BREATHE. I’m not suggesting to breathe like the Virgo moon a couple of posts ago: as a strategy for calming the nervous system. This type of breath is the more spacious kind. There’s Libra’s quality of clarity and a momentary pause of balance. It’s like the double-breath called a physiological sigh. It will reopen the little air sacs in the alveoli.

I don’t know about you, but I wasn’t able to capitalize on the last Mercury retrograde in Pisces because I was too busy getting water flogged. Normally I get a lot more clear around any confusions with a Mercury nature. This can happen for me earlier in the retrograde transit (I thank my natal Mercury trine Uranus for keeping me ahead of the curve), or sometimes during, or at the end. I get more sorted during Mercury retrogrades because I naturally slow down or deepen, organize, or declutter. For me it’s only now beginning to happen with the energy of this Full Moon in Libra. I’m taking “inventory.” It’s a good time to take stock.

This is a good moon to get around to assessing. I think I’m also doing a personal “damage assessment,” it’s like the way the operating system turns on from a reboot. It’s a deeper scan. The system is doing a deeper check.

Being turned off was good for me. I was powered off. I’m not even sure if I was unplugged, but definitely powered off. It was just what I needed.

Take this special time to assess your alliances, your standards, your relationships and your inner relationship. Re-balancing is not a return to homeostasis (the old order), but an opening for a new dynamic of balance/ structure with this Full Moon in Libra it’s a new calling for relational systems. The scales have been tipping all over the place as we have been in some choppy waters that have been increasing in intensity.

We have so much opportunity here to navigate with our minds and the stars. Hands at the helm. But what is really required is to have those feet planted somewhere and a mind that’s guided by reason and with a return to steady-clarifying confidence: You can navigate this new fluctuating world. You have what it takes.

You can find your balance in your ‘new’ center.

The center connects us to all things and all people. The center is the axis of the wheel that connects us to all the radii outward and those points on the periphery.

This Libra full moon has me focused on this image:

I see a return to wholeness at a new level. I see a complete change of capacity and a whole new realm of discovery for an entirely new journey. The old one has ended.

Sending you all my deep love! May you all navigate this chapter’s end well. See you with the new beginnings in April!

This passage into the “new” will continue taking a while, but I can see the light through to the other side. It’s peeking through. It’s twinkling from the other end of the multiverse.

Swimming heart songs

delay my mind’s questions

I’ve been reading all our memoirs

from as many of us as I can ~

those of us, who,

I don’t see in my office for

a treatment plan: I meet you in the ethers

through sound and vibration.

What plan then does your Spirit

have for you?

Are the symbols in your carefully written words

tenderly and deliberated stitched

in a direction

for the fabric of your life to flow?

Reams of life stories etched in Akasha,

the sounds of lifetimes, lessons, and timelines…

they echo with ancestry…interwoven and bidirectional

We are each of us a golden thread, a tune, a seed,

a mystery that peels open,

more delicate than flowers,

but hardier than time.

We transcend time,

we transcend illusions,

we stand tall in the face of today:

accepting our electrical assemblage,

still looking at the stars and their massive fusion. Wondering..

Sure we are made of stars and have their energy….

Just a pinch

And I awake inside each extra dream layer.

looking at you, looking at me..

I have been considering the direction for this blog in general, and taking a bit of blogging break—not necessarily on purpose, but because it matches the flow of things to either slow down, or pause for a bit. Blogging has been one of my favorite activities so it’s not coming from a place where I actually ‘want’ to move away from it. Necessity is intending certain things for all of us during these very uncertain times, however. I will see as the days go by. The terrain of our current experiences are very “up in the air” and maybe even moreso when Uranus enters Gemini for a good 7ish years.

Regardless, this milestone message came through, and it’s blown my mind. I’ve been regularly blogging for 15 years! Considering that RIGHT NOW I feel like I’m at an unknown transition point with blogging, that’s still a whole decade and a half that I was committed to blogging here! As a result, there’s a lot to reflect on—it was a stabilizing force. The Uranus in Taurus years were surprisingly productive for me on this blog in terms of my continuing to provide content and connection here.

Thank you to everyone who has been here over the years! You all are best readers, and I have so sincerely enjoyed interacting with you! We have grown so much, together! 🌱💗🌱💗🌱 There are also bloggers who I don’t see anymore and you are missed!!

May you all continue to thrive in your creativity and spiritual lives as you continue to blog and make a difference!

So here we are at the next turn of the wheel. The New Moon in Pisces: ♓️

The Pisces energy will quickly transform into Aries energy through the passage of the Vernal Equinox and each parading planet entering Aries to join the Saturn/Neptune conjunction.

In lieu of doing an analytical analysis of this New Moon in Pisces, I’m just gonna note my own experience of feeling like I’ve been living in the twilight zone lately, and even reflecting back on the level of sheer challenge and (sometimes) triumph I’ve encountered in relatively the past 14 years of my life. I’ve been through a major back injury and disability, graduate school and doctorate, parenting journey, the pandemic and extreme isolation while being an early parent, complications and challenges around that followed by other personal matters that I will not publicize, and having business setup challenges galore.

As for Mercury retrograde, we have had several expensive disruptions of technical, mechanical, physical and financial in just the last 48-72 hours.

All that said, the world has gone crazy with wars that are upsetting. There needs to be peace. I have nothing eloquent nor especially intelligent to say about this. I have zero desire to lay out details and expound on all the ways these wars are devastating for us all . I’m just so exhausted with it both the personal and collective journey.

But hope.

Deep in my bones is actually not my own hope but the hopes of people who I love. Their hope keeps me alive and thriving when all seems to have gone dark.

This to me is the heart of Pisces: the transcendent love that defies all darkness, especially when it’s overwhelming darkness—especially when real hope seems so fragile and vulnerable, to be held only within a child’s whim.

But we must have hope.

This Pisces New Moon is about unexpected sources, hope in the magnitude of the energy of stars.

I wish you all well, with the diamond wishes of bodhisattva to free all beings from suffering. I love all your precious lives.

tasting fear on the tongue, lips,

knowing nothing next will come besides:

what is…

unknown.

Turning toward heart’s center, allowing grief to be.

I can still hold your hand from here.

Stay close to me.