Mixed bag of Wishes Freed

what’s in my little satchel?
freeing the ‘ever i was’ and
‘always will be,’ as are you.

updating, electrifying
characteristic of total love
i will read with excitement
and travel through all those
moments

of reciprocity
while i am busy,
and then scale up-down
into that once solid core of molten
awesomeness

that flows and roars
and sparks and lives, feisty-like
and friendly-like a happy
tail-wagging you know who.

Ka Malana ©2018

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When I was much younger than I am now (although I do feel like I am getting younger), I attended an undergraduate bachelor program and dual majored Anthropology & Art History and I got a film studies certificate. If I were to be doing ‘right now’ everything that I ever started (in order to finish it? – hopefully never), I wouldn’t be visiting your blogs, or etc., So – I learned over time that ‘little by little’ was the only way I could release the sharing valve in a way that didn’t tear up my own eyes and cloud my mind, so that I could continue to “allow in,” at the same time, more grace, as I try to release gradually all that energy that I’ve been consolidating within my being – and has been taking up space.

That said, I used to decorate some of my college notebooks.Then there are more sketches and forays…

 

I’ve needed to upgrade my own website for a while, but it keeps getting pushed to the bottom of the list, as I am in school/clinic now in a busy and rigorous graduate program, being an intern (trying to be that best one of me that I can be), and that is demanding pretty much all of my heart and soul (and body). I have understated that, or perhaps not. My blog is a tip of my proverbial iceberg, and I love what I do here. I use it to empty out what has been stored away, and is ready to transform.

Sometimes this arises in the form of poetry, sometimes it arises in the sharing of others’ work, or my photography, or the astrology that build Fiestaestrellas.com. Sometimes I just want to dazzle or delight, as I am receiving the same from so much Source at once! Thank you: Uranus moving into Taurus! Thank you New Moon! Thank you Mercury! Thank you Goddess/God/Spirit etc.

There’s a story about everything here, and some memories I have forgotten ~ for sure. But in every detail there is a whisper, a reminder, an impression, and a hint of a flavor or a smell, or an experience….

**The Gecko from the Temple at Lawaii International Center – where one can tour the 88 shrines, has made it to the page** He/she adds something very new…. and a warm welcome to all passers by… I met him/her and he/she is a gem. So that’s why the photo, I suppose.

**This and all published pages are subject to updates at any time, and may or may not become private at the author’s sole discretion.

Participating and playing vs. Observing quietly

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My title is a spin on my natal nodes and the current transiting nodes (at this point I’m looking forward to the Cancer N./Capricorn S. nodal transit).

The images above show the blur of engagement and activity, while the reflective, observant images are clear and crisp.

Having my 2nd nodal return in the  set of approx. 18 year cycles, it reminds me – again – of the “ping pong” and “intense” nature of the opposition (180Degrees) aspect generally, and then how the one in my natal chart Sun – Leo/ opposite Ascendant – Aquarius, gets emphasized, with nodes like this. Certainly this form/body cannot be everywhere and doing everything – so observing one thing at a time, has been the respite, saving-grace! Staying out of drama, hype, comparison… I’ve completely been scaling back my social media to its virtual non-existence. Not saying that it is permanent, but I am not eager to return to social media anytime soon. Self/Other was never a dichotomy for me, but boundaries are a necessity.

But this blog is a unique form of social media – it’s reflective and meaningful. It’s second only to reading books – which is what I try to do in my non-existent “free time.” I’ve only barely completed a few books, while I have consumed multiple tv show series, no doubt – just anything to be a little bit easier. I enjoy reading a book, far more, since social media.

These photographs that I’ve taken and shown here are several months old now, and as I continue to work on my photography skills, appreciating my subjects, more recently I’ve not had much energy to return to my blog to feature these marvelous faces, nor to embrace my writing publicly and with others, nor to discuss the ‘here and now.’ Part of that reason, is that I, have been on vacation after a *very busy and eventful trimester working with others and on myself* and maybe, I will return, from that vacation/ spiritual “retreat” – ‘one day’ in blog world, but I’ll start to return to the day-to-day offline world, first, and I have.

I feel deeply connected, so I’m not worried. So many pujas later…and time spent in the woods of the great green earth…

A lot has been simmering for me, and while it may seem like I am not experiencing a dynamic time here via Fiestaestrellas.com – if you are aware of some of the current transits – Western astrological version…

  • Mercury station direct and all the airplane news &
  • New Moon on April 15th at  26 Aries
  • Saturn SR on April 17th
  • Chiron ingress Aries
  • Sun ingress Taurus, form, matter
  • Pluto SR on April 22
  • Venus ingress Gemini
  • Mercury Square Saturn
  • Mars/Pluto Conjunction
  • Full Moon on April 29 at 10 Scorpio

…. you’d know that I’m undergoing quite a bit of transformation, and that process looks different all the time. It shifts quickly to and fro, and while the ‘3D’ appears to be fluctuating, the eternal experiencing is ever-present, calm, enjoying the show, and embracing all the moments. I remain ‘undecided’ about most things and am mostly enjoying that ride, despite certain times of definite and specific discomfort, which fortunately leaves quickly. I am cultivating what Napolean Hill has coined, “a definite and specific purpose.”

There’s a lot of energy in the collective field.

I’ll be taking, potentially more time away from blogging, and dedicating myself more to my day-to-day offline activities, but I do hope to resurface here and there from time to time with greater purpose, and with more clarity at some sort of ‘one-day’ stabilizing point. I eagerly await Uranus’s move into Taurus, and as I pull into my center… I enjoy uncovering more from my core. In my Ascendant chart, Uranus will be linking to my 3rd house of neighbors, siblings, and closer networking – opening up the mind – which it has begun to do! With my ascendant ruler in Scorpio and all my Cancer planets – you might imagine: I like my privacy, and my transformational cave.

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Thank you to all who have been a part of this blog, and who continue to be the celebrating shining lights of sparkle and joy in this world, bringing passion and compassion into your every-day, and in the blog world where I can see you. I look forward to providing another update or two before I take another dive into the deep…

Aloha, Ka

For those who have actually read this blog post in its entirety, I am so grateful that YOU are here. Most of my blog posts are very short and don’t require a lot of time and attention, but that may change in the future. In this post, I am rambling, but right now… it’s enough to pass.

Traversing the Wheel

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I’ve been recovering as I’ve been in the hospital this last week. This is what ‘unexpected’ experience the eclipse brought me. My own patients were doing very well the last I saw them, and I missed seeing them last week as I was in the hospital for myself. It made me happy when my “team” let me know that I was missed, and I felt all the love from family and friends, and strangers. Now, I am catching up on school work/work and making decisions that are best for me, so I have no further complications. I appreciate all your love.

Wishing everyone a Happy belated Year of the Dog!

2 min sketch during lunch + fun

I can feel the Aquarius energy coming in through that eclipse “portal” that’s on the 15th. Even though my S. Node and Ascendant in Aquarius (natally) makes tough aspects to some of my “personal planets” (astro-speak), I keep coming around the bend year after year in a lovely spiral, seeing how it’s all coming together very nicely; and while busting through the tough times, I find the skip in my step once again. I’m tired of talking about my astrology. What’s your 3? Sun, Moon, Ascendant. Leave them in the comments. I do have a new favorite up and coming youtube astrologer, and I want to see her supported even more. Usually I don’t watch youtube astrologers because I have a lot of access to people who are in my local astrological community who have a lot of expertise, some friends; I’ve gone to classes, and enjoyed the camaraderie. When I see a strong astrologer who has a certain kind of delivery, and who is really going for it, I want to see her supported. She does a lot of work with her daily recordings, and that’s a lot of energy she’s putting out there. Also, I think she’s tapped into the universal nicely.

Though I don’t have a lot of time to visit blogs; I do anyways, while still immersed in deep study, practice, and my outside of blog-land projects and goals, work, aka my non-virtual life. It’s just perfect! I know all you bloggers know of this balancing act!

Wanted to share: been enjoying a lot of pentacles cards lately. Also sat inside of Steven Farmer’s aura for a few hours at a small workshop several weeks ago – it was a close knit group, so I’ve been playing with the animal cards he created lately. I was inspired to share because the Moose card played nicely off my previously written and inspired poem. (Quick reminder that my poetry book is still being offered over at Amazon.)

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The above food combo is basic whole oatmeal with some black sesame seeds, toasted coconut slivers, almonds, cinnamon, nutmeg, and monk’s fruit. Not my best food photography, but it really tasted so yummy, that that was that: posted!

Finally, there’s the drawing/sketch, and I don’t have anything to say about it. If I had more time available for blogging and sketching, or photography, or astrology, or writing poems, or writing books or articles, I’m sure I’d use it to share a really lovely and polished blog posts, but that’s just not as much fun for me, *right now.* This is.

Happy trails!

P.S. I do have some animals pictures I took that will show up soon, just haven’t gotten around to it. Also, I’ve been thinking about the following quote by the unknown author,

“Go where you are celebrated, not tolerated. If they can’t see the real value of you, it’s time for a new start.”

For those who experience loss, may something be gained.

Maui inspired print

I wasn’t planning on sharing this painting, or at least yet. I made it as a fun print, with kid’s washable paint. It’s on wood. I like the blank spots, for now.  Not worrying about being a “serious” painter – I like that every time I sit down to make some art, or I make art on the fly – it’s for a different reason, season, need, purpose. Sometimes I study an object, sometimes I just want to have fun. That’s what this was. Also, I’m not pigeon-holing it into “something” or needing to be defined. I’m letting it live on its own.

That said, I am sad to hear today about a colleague’s artwork being stolen. I’m angry. I’d like to keep the details private but I wanted to offer up my “make it easier” coloring in honor of this loss and ask that the artwork be returned to the owner it was gifted to and so that the work can continue to heal and make its offerings on the wall where it was originally set.

Scorpio as a sign in general tends to guard that 8th house of losses and gains. We are in the midst of the full moon with the nodes changing into Leo/N.Node and Aquarius/S.Node. I am a big believer that we don’t lose anything, only the physical form. I can only imagine how much of a blow it was to the creator of the artwork – with the art’s intention to heal and provide.  This is the human condition, no one is free from loss. May this person, and all involved, experience a full restoration.

quality

one teaching doctor says
“humans operate
with the law of quantity
over quality.”

i resist, but listen
anyway

when we have an injury
we compensate
and use extra effort
to accomplish a task

we might not even realize it,
while our ‘new’ habit-pathways
are seamless – to us.

we practiced it, until we had
forgotten.

to get around the trouble
of doing one thing, me might
enlist a few extra sets of muscles.

i should admit now that
this is not really a poem.

but I’m curious,

how are we so ingenious?

The Full Moon in Aquarius: Consciousness, from Individuation to Awakening

This is an old post. I was surprised to see that I wrote this. The nodal positions are now in Aries/Libra axis. Happy Full Moon Everyone 🙂 I love you all.

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Aquarius Full Moon: Ushering in the New Era

There is a nature to the universe, an order, a unity that is divine. Early scientists had some interest in what they sensed as the divinity of order, and they sought to uncover it. At the Aquarian Full Moon, August 13th, 2011, we come clean to our awareness that there is perfect structure in creation.  We are witnessing within and without this extraordinary epoch of renewal, the unfolding of the universe before us–ever becoming, blossoming, simultaneously as our awareness blooms into space.

In this new era, we will see children differently, having allowed our own inner-children to grow up spiritually, we can allow our children to write their own stories/destinies from day-one. They will be encouraged to teach us by their individual expressions. When we are awakened, “Before God we are all equally wise – and equally foolish,” Albert Einstein. We will…

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August 20, 2013 Full Moon in Aquarius

 

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The Water Bearer

Enter this full moon in Aquarius, the sign of the water bearer. Aquarius is an air sign, and as such, it represents the intellect. Aquarius unlike Leo (the heart sign) represents the love of reason, an impersonal love which values objectivity. Like the other air signs, it goes well with Gemini (knowledge) and Libra (justice). Aquarius is interested in the goodness or the humanist aspect of mankind but not so much just in terms of philosophy. Instead, it’s more of an empathy of understanding.  As ‘the water bearer’, Aquarius supplies mankind with the tools of the divine, the endless supply of the ‘god substance’ within.

This full moon conjuncts the planet Neptune, which sits in the early degrees of Pisces (the sign that it rules, and where it feels quite comfortable). Back in April 2010, and then again in October 2010, Neptune transited the same degree of Aquarius. Therefore, this full moon is energized with the energy of Neptune’s transit, and this transcendent degree that is final degree of Aquarius. Everything about this Full Moon speaks culmination. In fact, the sabian symbol for Aquarius 29 is “A butterfly emerging from a chrysalis.”

Today as I was at Balboa Park in San Diego, California (where the Sabian symbols were once channeled back in the 1920s) a beautiful butterfly landed nearby and climbed up onto my hand. It sat in my palm for a little over a minute, enough time for me to get plenty of photographs with it. As I reflected on the beautiful monarch, a little inner voice said as if from the butterfly herself, “Don’t be afraid…I am aware of you, and you are aware of me…let’s have a minute together.”

What has come full term for you at this full moon?

(“Water Bearer” image is by artist Raina Gentry and more can be viewed at the following location:

http://jeromeartists-gentry.blogspot.com/2010_01_01_archive.html )

The Full Moon in Aquarius: Consciousness, from Individuation to Awakening

Aquarius Full Moon: Ushering in the New Era

There is a nature to the universe, an order, a unity that is divine. Early scientists had some interest in what they sensed as the divinity of order, and they sought to uncover it. At the Aquarian Full Moon, August 13th, 2011, we come clean to our awareness that there is perfect structure in creation.  We are witnessing within and without this extraordinary epoch of renewal, the unfolding of the universe before us–ever becoming, blossoming, simultaneously as our awareness blooms into space.

In this new era, we will see children differently, having allowed our own inner-children to grow up spiritually, we can allow our children to write their own stories/destinies from day-one. They will be encouraged to teach us by their individual expressions. When we are awakened, “Before God we are all equally wise – and equally foolish,” Albert Einstein. We will be like God, knowing this, but not necessarily why or how we all are actually equal in the eyes of All There Is. We will be in our heart-mind, knowing the truth by heart again, giving new life to old ways of using language such as, “memorized by heart.” We will be re-freshed about Science as a process, not just as a book of knowledge (written by those of power) to be used for or against religious beliefs. We will be released from the socialized pressure of making fringe ideas disappear, and able to embrace anomalies with curiosity, sensitivity, and compassion as the virtue of connectedness. Testing and experimentation will be done only by mutual agreement and mutual interest in the results. We will become very aware of our connectedness again.

How do we get there? In two ways that are really one: First, by the awareness that we are already there (use our individuality to express the truth of this unity in all one’s thoughts and actions; We must become self-sustaining). Two: via Uranus square Pluto transits, that is, the tests and challenges ushering the era From http://darkstarastrology.com/uranus-square-pluto-horoscopes-2011-2012-2013-2014-2015-predictions/.

There are seven exact square between Uranus and Pluto between 2012 and 2015. The last series of squares was between 1932 and 1934.

Uranus square Pluto June 26 2012

Uranus square Pluto September 19 2012

Uranus square Pluto May 21 2013

Uranus square Pluto November 1 2013

Uranus square Pluto April 21 2014

Uranus square Pluto December 15 2014

Uranus square Pluto March 17 2015

These tests are not to be feared but to be understood as taking place on the inner plane of your existence. It is always, at every moment, up to oneself to do the refining work to become better people. We must create with courage and sincerity (Leo)—the passion of love, and with humanity and fraternity—the awareness of the self in Other (Aquarius).

Aquarius Full Moon: Aspects

The Sun is in conjunction with Venus, illuminating the feminine principle—or more appropriately, the “Yin” function of receptivity in creation. Mercury is retrograde in Leo, also conjunct the Sun and Venus, setting up the mental template for Venusian influence. Our psyches are primed for sensitivity and tenderness, the receptivity of Venus. We can acknowledge mentally that love is a ‘want’ and a ‘value’ that is self-possessed.

The moon in the sign of Aquarius gives distance to the emotions, subjugates the unconscious (moon) to lend a certain cognitive distance, which can either serve the purpose of illuminating those principles that underlie creation (in Leo, its individual selves), or to dismiss and isolate self-expression as marginal and non-cohesive (say it’s against harmony).

The North Node of the moon (future) is in the sign of Sagittarius begging us to be adventurous, spirited, and optimistic in our nature. The South node of the moon (past) is in Gemini asking us to make use of our knowledge and our networks, and to release this focus on communication-for-communication’s-sake to reach into the higher realms (not just greater distances for the sake of it, but to be progressive, such as the arrow of the archer has aim), and to further develop humanity’s current philosophy and judiciousness.

In its earliest stages, individuation starts as the mirror of the world (at least how one thinks the world would like the individual to act and behave, and most of this is projected) eventually through experimentation and differentiation (Aquarius), the individual sorts out the matrix of self-material and finally anchors all self-expression in the soul—that which resonates most deeply with the incarnate being. It’s at this point that the artist (Leo) can touch the hearts of the collective. Coming full-circle, the deepest part of Self is not Self at all but  individuated, temporary expressions of the collective spark of all life, Spirit.

The Aquarius full moon is indeed the gift of Self to the collective, offered as both (small) just one of many, and (enormously powerful) a speaker of the One.

Uranus in Aries

Uranus is Hoppin’ into Aries, ready to drive.

Matchbox Cars

You know those matchbox cars that you rev up, turning the wheels while you hold the tiny car in your hand, winding it up to set it down and just “let go.”  That’s what I see happening now….
Uranus changes signs about every 7 years.  Remember the “seven-year itch,” or that all the cells in your body are new every 7 years? Uranus entered Pisces in March 2003.  Think about all that has changed. Some science (Uranus) has gotten mystical, and some mystics (Pisces) have gotten scientific. Pisces is diffuse and dilutes the mind’s sharp sense for direction. Pisces teaches faith while naturally bringing doubt and confusion. We are better for walking this path, for surrendering to the “unknown” and to that holy mysterious place within and without.

To my calculations, Uranus will be “setting foot” in the territory of Aries on March 11, 2011. Of course, this is a movement taking the course of approximately 7 years.  Sure it’s a relatively slow movement in the heavens–so you’ll feel the changes in gradation all the while. However, usually when a planet crosses over a threshold, our lives begin to move in ways that are fairly recognizable.  In the special case of lightning-fast Uranian symbolism, and naïvely quick Aries temperament, we’ve got quite an animal being born in our lives.
Think about all the disillusionment that you’ve experienced while Uranus was in Pisces.  Now you can use your disillusionment and group-mind to bring out your individual. This is a time for being “self” without being “self-ish.” You have all the permission in the world.

Where’s my Uranus At?

Uranus is my natal chart’s ruler, so I’m really hoppin’ for sure. I’ve got a million ideas that I’m ready to ship out of my nervous system, and I’m going to do it in packets of energy. How will you use this new development? For many of you I wonder where Uranus is in your chart now, what house it’s occupying, and what other details I could know to help you get a better picture of what’s for dinner, if you know what I mean. I could tell you more about my chart but really, that’s just boring.  I could also give you a “canned” version of your stars, but that’s also boring. So, just write me a little note and I’ll tell you where Uranus is if you don’t already know.

Aquarius …

That said,

Aquarius is the sign ruled by the planets Uranus and more traditionally Saturn.  If you know anyone with the standard Aquarian temperament, they are usually very genius, albeit aloof, but they got tons of friends. The reason why is that they will be a friend to anybody. They serve the human need for invention, and can spend tons of time alone, apart…but never quite totally detached from humanity, just serving humanity from a different platform. Aquarians are quirky and always recognize what’s special and yet very ordinary about others. They like groups of people who share a purpose.

We are likely to see more developments and quick clustering of like-minded people.  People have the fire lit and they are ready for change. Playing with Uranus is like playing with a mystery card—it’s powerful because, will it be good? (serve my wishes) or will it be bad? (not serve my wishes).  In reality, the only wishes we really want honored are the ones that are good for us. Alas, we don’t always know what’s good for us. Therefore, it’s wise to use this time to consider how we are going to deal with the changes that are thrust upon us now.  My recommendation is to cultivate a certain Aquarian detachment.  That is, see the bigger picture. This will help us get out of any heated mess we get ourselves into with the Aries inspiration to “just-go-already.” There you have it. Let your courage be, accept what happens as a result, and also, let’s revisit friendship.

Friendship and Heavenly Music

We need our friends. At this time I urge you to save yourself some hassle, if you already haven’t started, and consider if your friends are really your friends.  Believe me this is a time where you stop listening to what other people tell you who they are to you, and you decide for yourself: “this person, ‘such-and-such’ calls me their friend, and I’m happy that they do… but, really, I don’t think they are much of a friend to me in return.” Think about the balance. We will be spending more energy on this and developing the true spirit of friendship—it’s really about how we are with humanity. I remember the story of the Good Samaritan: consider how you treat strangers, that detachment is the key.

Freely giving love through friendship, brotherly and sisterly love, is the most open and loving relationship that we can still label “a relationship.” Let’s keep in mind that Saturn in Libra will oppose Uranus in Aries.  Libra is about relationships and Saturn is about restrictions or commitments. Uranus is about freedom and individuality and Aries is about self.  Libra is about “other” and, Saturn (roles, structures, convention) are in opposition, bringing awareness and often-times an element of confrontation.

SO…..

—–>What’s rising to the consciousness is the sudden changes in friendships and relationships.  *Remember your relationship to yourself.* If you can honor you, then you can step into authentic relationship (other). Not before, not after—all the time.  Make it a mantra. Know/love thyself and honor your connection to all life. Keep this in balance and your lightning rod/antenna (Uranus) will pick up heavenly music instead of static electricity, or worse—a sudden flash that knocks you off your feet with a clap of thunder.

With much love and gratitude ~