Traversing the Wheel

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I’ve been recovering as I’ve been in the hospital this last week. This is what ‘unexpected’ experience the eclipse brought me. My own patients were doing very well the last I saw them, and I missed seeing them last week as I was in the hospital for myself. It made me happy when my “team” let me know that I was missed, and I felt all the love from family and friends, and strangers. Now, I am catching up on school work/work and making decisions that are best for me, so I have no further complications. I appreciate all your love.

Wishing everyone a Happy belated Year of the Dog!

Patience, Patient

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so effortlessly gifted
pay the price with their suffering?

is it for their gift?

one’s karma is one’s karma
and yet, when asked, and given
permission, an intervention
is possible, but it does not
interrupt ~

the process. it helps it along.

the permission piece is the most
important!

so much beauty in those moments
of connection, of making peace
and settling, and balancing,
and playing a role in that
process.

being deadly tired at the end
feels worth it,

for something
that is beyond anyone’s plans
happens when we meet.

As Venus ingress (enters into) Pisces
we dissolve our gifts into the melting pot,
and wait…

2 min sketch during lunch + fun

I can feel the Aquarius energy coming in through that eclipse “portal” that’s on the 15th. Even though my S. Node and Ascendant in Aquarius (natally) makes tough aspects to some of my “personal planets” (astro-speak), I keep coming around the bend year after year in a lovely spiral, seeing how it’s all coming together very nicely; and while busting through the tough times, I find the skip in my step once again. I’m tired of talking about my astrology. What’s your 3? Sun, Moon, Ascendant. Leave them in the comments. I do have a new favorite up and coming youtube astrologer, and I want to see her supported even more. Usually I don’t watch youtube astrologers because I have a lot of access to people who are in my local astrological community who have a lot of expertise, some friends; I’ve gone to classes, and enjoyed the camaraderie. When I see a strong astrologer who has a certain kind of delivery, and who is really going for it, I want to see her supported. She does a lot of work with her daily recordings, and that’s a lot of energy she’s putting out there. Also, I think she’s tapped into the universal nicely.

Though I don’t have a lot of time to visit blogs; I do anyways, while still immersed in deep study, practice, and my outside of blog-land projects and goals, work, aka my non-virtual life. It’s just perfect! I know all you bloggers know of this balancing act!

Wanted to share: been enjoying a lot of pentacles cards lately. Also sat inside of Steven Farmer’s aura for a few hours at a small workshop several weeks ago – it was a close knit group, so I’ve been playing with the animal cards he created lately. I was inspired to share because the Moose card played nicely off my previously written and inspired poem. (Quick reminder that my poetry book is still being offered over at Amazon.)

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The above food combo is basic whole oatmeal with some black sesame seeds, toasted coconut slivers, almonds, cinnamon, nutmeg, and monk’s fruit. Not my best food photography, but it really tasted so yummy, that that was that: posted!

Finally, there’s the drawing/sketch, and I don’t have anything to say about it. If I had more time available for blogging and sketching, or photography, or astrology, or writing poems, or writing books or articles, I’m sure I’d use it to share a really lovely and polished blog posts, but that’s just not as much fun for me, *right now.* This is.

Happy trails!

P.S. I do have some animals pictures I took that will show up soon, just haven’t gotten around to it. Also, I’ve been thinking about the following quote by the unknown author,

“Go where you are celebrated, not tolerated. If they can’t see the real value of you, it’s time for a new start.”

Restoring Life to Life

Gentle words start to surface
in the private spaces
where patience allows
freedom to take root.

the authority is at home.

there is no overhead.

it is rent free for the authority,
because it’s
the only voice that belongs
here. All others have
to pay the price.

from within this centerpiece
is a fountain
and out around it, a moat.

the castle is designed to test
those who would seek to enter it,
this sacred space,
where the authority, the one
true authority,

breathes

life into life.

The holy grail.

 

Ka Malana 2018

Releasing Drama, Resistance

As I sat for my meditation this morning, and some mornings recently, many thoughts leading into it, about the cord for my emWave, and about decisions that were rather small and relatively inconsequential and distracting, like will I listen to my gentle water stream this time? or focus on my breath by counting?  Will I just allow the breath today? The decisions seemed ‘huuuuge.’ What I see in this is a simply a shadow. The largeness of the situation was rather my inner resistance to doing ‘the next –—-ordinary—–thing next.’  Often we want quick results, we want to experience the evidence of our ‘hard work’ and then only to realize, that, that I do this more often than I’d like to admit, the hardness is the resistance. This is why we ‘do’ anyways…

My friends, it doesn’t matter whether you shine or not. Nine times out of ten the resistance is comical, theatrical almost – if only it weren’t ever so slightly tragic. But, I think this is the actual worthwhile work.

I’m happy that you are here and breathing, and enjoying yourselves. That is enough, I think.

There’s a picture in my mind of a meditator, tangled up in cords, but I really don’t have time to find the right picture. The true unplugging, well, that’s from this:

A symbol of the inner resistance, and yes, probably technology…

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Standing in your own power, do the next thing next.

About my drawing, in the abstract, an oracle uncovered:
The solar-powered brain-tree…. still cries, moistening the ground, and giving the hot sun something to do! What is implied: wind-power! Movement, and engagement.

Oh yes, yes, yes, There’s that full moon lunar eclipse in Leo. Conjunct my natal sun, in Leo. Yes, I am a Leo. Hear my gentle rawr.

Let’s rawr! 🙂 and then do the next thing…

Endings and Beginnings 🌕💫🎆 2018

After the Full Moon in Cancer on New Year’s day, today – the 2nd, Uranus stations direct, perhaps freeing us up on our journey of enlightenment.

Jan 1st’s astrological kite formation had the full moon opposite major planets in stellium in Capricorn, among them were Venus, Saturn, Pluto and the Sun. Mars and Jupiter in Scorpio were forming a trine to Neptune in Pisces, while Mars/Jupiter and Neptune formed a sextile to the Capricorn Stellium.

New Year’s time is usually a time of ending and beginnings. Many cultural celebrations include reviews of the previous year and setting intentions or goals for the future.

Interestingly, having a full moon in Cancer at culmination (full) on the first day of the New Year, in the astrological world, sets a tone for the year. I believe that you can make the best of all the transits, and look forward to discovering what this year brings in terms of inspiration. Cancer is a very lovely sign offering nurturing and support. At best, it can help the foundation for all of the very strong Capricorn energy in the chart. At best, Capricorn will help with that inner world foundation (Cancer), by focusing the work and being diligent and forming supportive structures in the world from which to grow in a stabilized and grounded way.

Here’s wishing everyone a Happy New Year 2018, and a very nurturing (compassionate, peaceful), fulfilling New Year!

Here are two photos that I have taken to ring in the New Year. I took this particular photo of the Full Moon at 6:24pm, PST, exact.

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Duck 🦆 Symbolism (night-time cruiser)

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“Sitting in meditation, and continually finding my way back to peace…” is a good personal mantra for this New Year.

Enchanted, engaged in substance

I’ve often been enamored by the subject of “time,” but mostly in its aspect of transcendence. Meanwhile, I consider the tangibility of this moment, this moment that is made of, perhaps, a mountain of moments of cultivation.

Venus and Saturn are together in Capricorn; and while I’m not waxing astrological about it, perse, in my writing, I’m deep-delving into the appreciation for all things that take time, things that cannot be transcended simply by will or ‘intention’ alone. Things that cannot be faked. Things that are evident by time.

I’m embracing what is self-evident at this time.

I’m also maintaining a strong appreciation for how time is elusive like a fish -🐠 though we have calendars, some developments appear to manifest in little to no time at all, despite time! Or that impression of time: can it be seen evenly, without illusion, linear… progressing? Less romantic but possible? How, in this spiral vision, we are both cyclical & progressing along with time.

Then, there’s this consideration and contemplation for what I value about my own process and progress through time. Perhaps the word “passage” through time is more apt for this moment. I’m enjoying reading right now. I love your blogs, books, music, art, divination. I love all the creativity on the horizon, symphonies that are resting, and will soon be awoken…

symphonies that never 😴 sleep

What is forming in your world right now? Or what is being let go of for the arrangement so that  more can “opened up to” ? Can we make room for the infinite? What is practical and possible?

i drew a manifestation map this year with a wonderful group, and its often a mystery to me which new previously Unknown friends I will connect with. I’ve enjoyed this aspect of the holidays – mysterious ingredients and messengers. There’s so much I could write about myself, but I feel like keeping a lot of it to me, for maybe that time when the words spill forth. In the meantime, I value the work that is this moment. I value myself in it, and how I can transcend me, too. I value not knowing what’s around the bend, and nurturing the possibilities… 🌀🌠💚

 

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Hope is real

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Hope is evenly
planted
in the darkness,
while cloaked seeds of light
one by one
unveil
the twinkles.
each sparkle is
a point of awareness
showing the path
through the distance,

connecting near and far,
Immediate. Present.

Hope,
it is palpable and tangible
it knows your heart better than
you do –
is raises you up to reach it;

dare it to be real – !

and it won’t disappoint you.

Ka Malana ©️2017

Enlightenment

don’t let me arrive too early
into enlightenment
for chance that it may be
incomplete
or some facade,
less than genuine.

let me speak my heart
with penetration –
gaze deeply into the abyss.

i don’t want to become a writer
who fears what the pen will
deliver, or fear anything,
really, for nothing rightly
has power over me.

Pluto transiting in my 12th house
does not make me sweat!

i’m not interested in being polished
like a diamond, or becoming too cute
and regular, to end up forgetting the forge
that burned me open again and again.

oh those sweet wounds that never heal,
make me into the endless supply.

art is my heart,
the eternal process, undying, unending!
unformed, and while ~
endlessly forgiving…

Ka Malana ©2017
Art for Art

Detachment from using the “mind” to perceive consensus

Oftentimes we are fooled into believing, from our thoughts, that we are capable of perceiving consensus reality or society. Sometimes we even believe that via polls and surveys, or quantifiable measurements from participating members of society, we are obtaining useful information about consensus reality. The thing is that our society, our marketing industry, and so forth, seems to only be able to reach the participating members: those who are vocal, decisive, etc. What about those who are reasonably silent on many issues, or haven’t contributed to the defining of issues? Maybe responders don’t perceive the time being available for responding, or maybe potential responders are still collecting more information. I think there’s a real need in our society for more people taking their time, and focusing on ‘being-ness.’ So this is not a critique. It is merely a reflection.

I do not believe that our feedback systems are perfect, or even near-perfect; and I don’t want to get roped into believing that the information available is often 1). Complete 2). obtainable 3). reproducible 4). empirically useful.

These are just some thoughts, and it is the thoughts and the transient passing of thoughts that change, as perceptions and what is observable changes.

As Mercury has gone retrograde, and though I “participate” in astrology (to a lesser extent currently) I still feel influenced by thinking in a different, perhaps more Saturnine way (likely thanks to the conjunction with Mercury at this Mercury retrograde’s actual retrograde start). I think the thought processes, and the perceptual biases must always be acknowledged and reflected upon. The thing I am most skeptical about right now, is being able to perceive a consensus society/reality. Oftentimes I detach from astrology, because it is perceived to be “all about the interpretation.” Well, I think astrology is really about the reflection and the observation, foremost.

For the rebellious among us, we often think we know which consensus norms we are transcending/defying/ignoring….

If we truly believe that we are all unique individuals, living in unity (by virtue of our obvious togetherness on the planet), can we honestly trust ourselves, that with the tools available – all the tools – we can perceive or rightly observe what is consensus? I do not think we can. I think we can estimate, and I think that we can use all our senses to get a partial, non-whole picture…

I think it’s important to acknowledge our perceptual limitations.

For Love, and wrapping up my November with a bow 🎀

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Here’s my 5-minute meditation that I’ve provided on my blog, where you can listen and also find it under the meditation drop down box -> mindfulness meditation tracks -> 5 minute guided meditation. I’d like to give this to you, as my gift to you: where you can listen and get in touch with all your senses as I guide you.

                Which senses bring you joy and delight? 

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All of them, as they are the ones that connect me beyond the earth plane! (best explained by Sue Dreamwalker, here.)

   How do they help you live a meaningful life?

My senses help me relate and integrate. My senses help me to connect with others, with nature, and help me to be a part of something bigger than myself. My earthy senses: sounds, sights, feels, tastes, and smells, help me to ‘ground’ and to meditate.  5-minute meditation.

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Yin-Yang Soup

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Today’s post is dedicated to the two challenges I’ve participated in for November, it’s also dedicated to me, for completing the NanoPoblano challenge when I didn’t think I would/could. At all. I still wanted to give it a try. I wanted to use this challenge to get through an ‘already’ challenging time. NanoPoblano, is a month-long posting challenge to post daily with no restrictions originated by Ra Avis. She is an incredibly inspiring blogger and human, and she came up with the idea for NanoPoblano. She’s also been a great friend and support to me in completing my book, She would always appear at precisely the right moments.

Here’s Ra’s words about the NanoPoblano challenge. It’s about Poblanos/Cheerspeppers and the team:

The thing about the Poblanos is that it adds a family dimension to the entire project.  You will be constantly looking at a list of people who are going through the same struggle as you.  Some will be better writers.  Some will be funnier.  Some will have bigger audiences.

It won’t matter, though, because we’ll all be feeling the burn.

After walking through the fire together, it’s hard not to love each other.  We’re a team.  My Poblanos are my first point of contact for any activity I undertake– because I know they are committed to what they want, and to what they do.  No matter what they want, or why they do.

These are people I am proud to blog alongside.

I am proud to blog alongside her and others; most of all my readers!!!!!

This month, on the 23rd, my blogger galpal Linda from Litebeing.com invited me to participate in her month-long Sense-sational Blogging Challenge, and she suggested that I could use one of my NanoPoblano posts for her Sense-sational Challenge. So, at this point I was thinking, maybe I could pull this off, and use Linda’s challenge to be sure I get to the end. Thank you, Linda! Check out her blog for astrological musings, synchronicity, numerology, and more!

Of course, I have to also mention another dear blogging friend & wizard, Dewin, who participated in this challenge on the 29th, since I can’t link to anyone afterward – as I am taking up the caboose – here’s a link to Dewin’s written submission. You can also follow his amazingly well-written, witty, passionate, and truly epic poetry by following the links on his blog. If you haven’t already. 🙂

About my book: Art for Art, in my opinion it’s the best first and potentially only book I could/would have written. Included in it is a wonderfully well-written foreword by my dear friend and writer, Michael, from Embracing Forever. He’s really been a huge support to my writing, as another writer, and a marvelous writer at that! He’s blown me away with his talent, and I am anticipating his continued success!!

Finally, here’s a link to my posts for NanoPoblano, where you will see a lot of photography and writings, poetry, and musings mixed together with the astrology that underlies it all. I’ve put the posts all here in one nice, tidy, accessible place – including my “lead in” posts where I prepared for November’s challenge.

Let’s get spicy and do the thing in November!

The Day Before…

Tiny lighthouse

Tanka Poem

undaunted at dawn

rooted tree of the taurus full moon

november swirls

Little Ka, Amusement Park

Complaints from an angel

Resting Haiku

the sky provided

friendship

yin of evening

brownie i wonder

crosswalk closeup

smiling bodhisattva in the garden

lotus

being one with nature

tap the feet to the beat

beach surrender

desert yawn

Waxing Tropical

A rose’s aroma

Lines & Designs

Thanksgiving in so many forms

Triskelion & flower

The center

across time (and space)

The wave

rose alchemy

i want to guide you

My readers are soooo awesome and I cannot wait to catch up with you, especially these last few days, **WHEW**!  This daily posting for the month was a challenge for me, but I’m glad I did it. I’m not sure if I will do it again.

Thank you all for your loving, supportive comments. You really made a difference!!!

So what’s next?
I’m not sure, but I definitely have a lot of “off the blog” work to focus on and so I’m going to completely enjoy my December (and that means working on what I have to do and read your blogs when I can) and prepare for 2018. This November’s end is sort of a wrap up for me for the whole year, 2017. I’m proud of myself for doing this posting challenge for me. I like the delicious choices that I get to make in my many moments! My dedication to my regular meditation practice has also benefitted from this month’s crazy activity!

What will you do in December? Did you have a good time in November? What was 2017 like?

 

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