photography and rights Ka Malana
life is so precious
we only get so much time
here in this form,
to experience exactly as we
are, with no label on how we
react, what we feel, what we
how beautiful and precious is our
choice, our freedom, our whims,
our planning, our unique flames,
as we streak in the wind, in the eternal stream,
we offer our incandescent blur of precious steam
to the beam of consciousness ~
and it enters into us, unannounced
but completely recognizable
as peace, love, goodwill
I am filled with a million thankyous
and while that number is imprecise
I am leaking wishes for everyone of
you who touch me every day
with your focus and dedication
Your talent, your trust
Life is unbreakable while it is
fragile and the thankyous are squishy
awarenesses, that are part of an
experimental soundtrack, traveling towards
everybody’s Heaven as one.
What I do today I will not do tomorrow
but something different and something new
For I have found a way to encounter
unexpected happiness after turning troubling
And I’ve decided that I don’t need any talent to continue, all I need is the blessings of another day, with all its lack of permission. I’ll take the breath! I will make my own way, without a direct line,
instead I will carve out my path, one line at a time, and wait for no celebration to greet me but the one that naturally arises,
when I realize that I’m breathing deeper than I ever have before;
so something’s working well enough,
for me, to continue getting lost in love.
Chalky sidewalks stare
show their round faces, smiles, and waves.
Smells of spring,
All of zest and full of zing!
this was going to be a “it’s the blog’s end” post,
finished the blog. Its mission’s run out.
the long pause at the end of a winding
road, or maybe that will come tomorrow.
service has been disrupted in so many
ways, and the vision vacillates while
the complexities loom.
i was planning on finishing everything
i started, once I realized that in principle
was a principle, just a principle;
and these are my rules now, whimsy be what
it may, the life-force answers to itself.
accepting a better version of events
can be whatever they end up being, and an end
can redirect meaningful energies,
free up resources,
what about a re-route?
the whole path has been a splinter!
an impulse quickly turned into a million,
when with camera: mirror-less direct
images captured on film, in no order
but the perpetual march of the order
that is already given by the continuity
of the space that the events take place in.
this guide is so agenda-less. she’s had no
reason to spread a vision, word, in so
many directions. She is, in essence, “inert,”
lovably all her electrons are full in her
she seeks no bonds.
still she returns, one by one, and moment
by moment, as each strange inspiration
lingers in the new ways that it does, when it’s still
a stranger, and we are sometimes excitedly
courting each other. The self that meets a new moment,
“what will you be, how will you become?”
Below is what I wrote for Part 2: Starting ‘right here’ with an intro.
This is a selection I wrote for MeMyMagnificientSelf, where we are asked by our friend Barbara to share our awakening experiences with others. This is Part II of a two part sequence. My participation is here, below, in Part II. I had recently met the other participants while Part I was taking place, and/or had already been completed.
Awakening used to sound like an ending to me, so complete, and total and full.
But, I think of it as this endless continuity. It is almost a complete engagement, and yet it is so dynamic that it is always “in the process” of being engaged.
There’s this idea that “one” has access to everything, all that has ever existed. But that is not just an idea; it is a sense – a smell, a quality to the nature of connectedness.
There’s still the personality, and of course because there is absolutely nothing wrong with the personality.
There’s just a sense of being beyond the capacity that one originally set out with in the life, and perhaps a sense of connectedness to all the other lives that came before, including the soul’s journey.
There’s this sense of not knowing what’s ahead, but being nearly absolutely certain, most of the time, that this gift of life keeps giving to us, to me, to everyone. There’s this sense of constantly being in reception with source. There’s a deep relationship with the cosmos and with the pain and suffering of the world, but not in a way that is gripping or feels identifying. There’s a sense of ‘coming and going’ and it just sort of improves over time. The witness who is watching is not really the subject, and there really is no object, but it is the peacefulness of center-point, and the culmination of pointlessness.
The emotions get deeper; the connections with others become richer. People in your family that you may have thought you didn’t “get along with” show you their spiritual love for you. Disagreements on the personality level do not affect the deep nature of the connection. The connections deepen. Family members start to feel understood and “seen” by you – as simultaneously the experience is mutual, and love enters where it the illusion was it was not. The veils on relationships keep lifting.
Awakening is a process – for this being it started in 2007, but the blueprints for it where there all along. The circumstances leading up to it, and in the beginning required a lot of releasing, a lot of acceptance into the path of the unknown. Meanwhile, all the support shows up. It can be rocky at times, even extremely difficult and painful, but ultimately awakening is the most brilliant gift to consciousness. It’s the kind of thing that spreads for those who are ripe and ripening. The clarity is what reigns, rises, and spreads, breaking up all the dross of thought, conditioning, and aberrant energy patterns. Awakening is final, but it isn’t done. It is like a seal that has opened and the energy from the container is decompressing over time.
Note: When I saw Barbara’s challenge show up in my inbox, I immediately penned the words above; it literally took me only about 2-3 minutes, if that. My own clarity on the prompt – as I experienced it unto myself – was surprising!
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Reflecting on Part II was beautiful. I am glad that I could receive again my relationship to the words on Part II through this exercise, agreeing with all that was written above about the continuous experience, and not feeling like I need to update or change anything.
Beyond ideas, beyond thoughts and notions of awakening is the day-to-day experience of it. There are the delightful surprises that show up along the way.
Below is a poem I have written for Venus Retrograde, which takes place today, October 5.
“Bringing in the Calm”
How can I feed this moment with what it needs?
numerous deep breaths answer…
the steady gift of,
Healing sounds tone
a singing voice illuminates:
you are safe, you are peaceful,
you are calm.
your true nature shines free with the complete
view that all is now magic, laced in the fabric
of gentle thoughts, easy movements
fabric woven into a soft, multi-dimensioned
tapestry where you can surround yourself in
the cushioned condition of reflection
timelessly recreating a reality within the vision
Writing, poetry, and photography ©Ka Malana 2018, shared on Fiestastrellas.com
I’ve benefited a lot from this video. I am sharing what speaks to me, today, yesterday, tomorrow…
~Wishing everyone a good Cancer New Moon eclipse experience~
~ The power that i seek is within myself and it seeks me now ~
How often do we transform ourselves in the fire of the forces surrounding us,
the forces that are shaping us everyday as we ask within and listen for an answer from that still small voice, “What is it that I really, really want?”
Besides loving and being loved, having sustenance: food, water, shelter, I think that each of us has a powerful and unique message that speaks directly to our hearts, and its okay to be different. It’s okay to be different and be among the same. Some voices may just say a simple and certain request, “peace.” For others need community, and differences of opinion, the excitement of discussion. Not everyone has exactly the same needs for human or animal or nature’s contact. I think that ought to be respected. I think this is what it means when we talk about compassion, it is about having the humanity to see the equality in all, while also allowing for the variance of what that equality looks like, without divisive judgements, and impositions. We live in an era where roles and designations are fading quickly, essential categories are in question for the past is rapidly disappearing without a trace in a world of technology and continuous innovation. We don’t just build from the past anymore, we forge the future within ourselves.
The beauty and capacity in people is astonishing to me as it is in this flower – a soft focus – a momentary glimpse of phase of life, and all are brilliant moments. Why seek to be in another stage of life from the one you are in? Relish where you are, exactly while you determine what that means, to be where you are now.
Sometimes it means, “Who needs a ‘what’s next’?” I’ll see it when I it arrives…that which I seek, seeks me now.
the luminous self
will reach you
without the capital
it’s so non-specific ! that,
it’s specifically heard, pin-pointed, deeply felt,
observed, exactly as it is.
no emphasis needed
no mistaking when you are called directly,
and your attention is
of the grace
who knows you
Ka Malana ©2018
Moon VOC -> in Scorpio to Sag.
Listening to dramatic music, that
not everyone might like…, and that
makes it even more delicious.
what’s in my little satchel?
freeing the ‘ever i was’ and
‘always will be,’ as are you.
characteristic of total love
i will read with excitement
and travel through all those
while i am busy,
and then scale up-down
into that once solid core of molten
that flows and roars
and sparks and lives, feisty-like
and friendly-like a happy
tail-wagging you know who.
Ka Malana ©2018
When I was much younger than I am now (although I do feel like I am getting younger), I attended an undergraduate bachelor program and dual majored Anthropology & Art History and I got a film studies certificate. If I were to be doing ‘right now’ everything that I ever started (in order to finish it? – hopefully never), I wouldn’t be visiting your blogs, or etc., So – I learned over time that ‘little by little’ was the only way I could release the sharing valve in a way that didn’t tear up my own eyes and cloud my mind, so that I could continue to “allow in,” at the same time, more grace, as I try to release gradually all that energy that I’ve been consolidating within my being – and has been taking up space.
That said, I used to decorate some of my college notebooks.Then there are more sketches and forays…
I’ve needed to upgrade my own website for a while, but it keeps getting pushed to the bottom of the list, as I am in school/clinic now in a busy and rigorous graduate program, being an intern (trying to be that best one of me that I can be), and that is demanding pretty much all of my heart and soul (and body). I have understated that, or perhaps not. My blog is a tip of my proverbial iceberg, and I love what I do here. I use it to empty out what has been stored away, and is ready to transform.
Sometimes this arises in the form of poetry, sometimes it arises in the sharing of others’ work, or my photography, or the astrology that build Fiestaestrellas.com. Sometimes I just want to dazzle or delight, as I am receiving the same from so much Source at once! Thank you: Uranus moving into Taurus! Thank you New Moon! Thank you Mercury! Thank you Goddess/God/Spirit etc.
There’s a story about everything here, and some memories I have forgotten ~ for sure. But in every detail there is a whisper, a reminder, an impression, and a hint of a flavor or a smell, or an experience….
**The Gecko from the Temple at Lawaii International Center – where one can tour the 88 shrines, has made it to the page** He/she adds something very new…. and a warm welcome to all passers by… I met him/her and he/she is a gem. So that’s why the photo, I suppose.
**This and all published pages are subject to updates at any time, and may or may not become private at the author’s sole discretion.
“The only thing that seems to separate you from me, is ‘my’ idea of you.”
I’ve been following Mooji since the late 2000s. This Mooji Satsang strikes (and resonates with me) as the clearest Mooji communication I’ve heard to date. He talks about how people get trapped in the spiritual ego and how the ego takes the journey with us, but we can pay it no mind. When he talks about ‘presence’ here, the energy is so clearly felt and experienced, we know ~ that’s where we are, embracing it: confirmation, encouragement, inspiration. A man talks about peeling a banana and how the whole energy of the universe is there! We disappear, and energy provides everything! Then, how bananas are back to normal.
Experience where it’s no longer a phenomenal [ephemeral] thing. “Enjoying the perfume of the Self.” Yet, you aren’t plugged in so deeply, to what is going on – impact isn’t strong. “It’s a beautiful detachment or space that must be honored.”
More of my previous posts about Mooji
Today an image I drew from when I was a teenager came to my mind. The picture isn’t in focus; and it’s stained by time. The image still enchants me. Just a single candle’s light, is still quite profound to me.
Ka Malana Photography presents…
One of the things I value so much – is time – and timelessness. When we communicate with each other, and within the spacious dimensions… even without words.
The dragonfly in this image is hugging the antenna – we ARE ALL CONNECTED.
“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says, ‘I’ll try again tomorrow’. ~Mary Anne Radmacher
A gentle reminder that my first poetry book is for sale: here. A big thank you to all who bought and read it, and for those who have left a review on Amazon. Your words continue to reassure me that there’s hope, as I try to keep providing that hope to others. It’s all a group effort, on this planet. Aloha ~
I found these pictures, and they wanted to be left out of the bag o’ magic…..
Oh, Mars in Sagittarius….!
I can feel the Aquarius energy coming in through that eclipse “portal” that’s on the 15th. Even though my S. Node and Ascendant in Aquarius (natally) makes tough aspects to some of my “personal planets” (astro-speak), I keep coming around the bend year after year in a lovely spiral, seeing how it’s all coming together very nicely; and while busting through the tough times, I find the skip in my step once again. I’m tired of talking about my astrology. What’s your 3? Sun, Moon, Ascendant. Leave them in the comments. I do have a new favorite up and coming youtube astrologer, and I want to see her supported even more. Usually I don’t watch youtube astrologers because I have a lot of access to people who are in my local astrological community who have a lot of expertise, some friends; I’ve gone to classes, and enjoyed the camaraderie. When I see a strong astrologer who has a certain kind of delivery, and who is really going for it, I want to see her supported. She does a lot of work with her daily recordings, and that’s a lot of energy she’s putting out there. Also, I think she’s tapped into the universal nicely.
Though I don’t have a lot of time to visit blogs; I do anyways, while still immersed in deep study, practice, and my outside of blog-land projects and goals, work, aka my non-virtual life. It’s just perfect! I know all you bloggers know of this balancing act!
Wanted to share: been enjoying a lot of pentacles cards lately. Also sat inside of Steven Farmer’s aura for a few hours at a small workshop several weeks ago – it was a close knit group, so I’ve been playing with the animal cards he created lately. I was inspired to share because the Moose card played nicely off my previously written and inspired poem. (Quick reminder that my poetry book is still being offered over at Amazon.)
The above food combo is basic whole oatmeal with some black sesame seeds, toasted coconut slivers, almonds, cinnamon, nutmeg, and monk’s fruit. Not my best food photography, but it really tasted so yummy, that that was that: posted!
Finally, there’s the drawing/sketch, and I don’t have anything to say about it. If I had more time available for blogging and sketching, or photography, or astrology, or writing poems, or writing books or articles, I’m sure I’d use it to share a really lovely and polished blog posts, but that’s just not as much fun for me, *right now.* This is.
P.S. I do have some animals pictures I took that will show up soon, just haven’t gotten around to it. Also, I’ve been thinking about the following quote by the unknown author,
“Go where you are celebrated, not tolerated. If they can’t see the real value of you, it’s time for a new start.”