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Afternoon Exercise

every face today has a smile
eye contact and a
story telling.

“today is my birthday,” he
says. “I’m 24.” I can hear
It in his voice – he is
grateful to be alive.

each year gets more precious

This dog named Ranger, who reminds me of Venus, both black labs, both friendly. One has passed on. Ranger is
panting happily, here and now.

All with a meet and greet – and just now I loOk up and deeply into a woman’s eyes.

Hello! We say It at the same time. Her visor is a good idea. I replace my sunglasses and see more dogs.

They are as happy as I for California rain and shine.

Two more dogs go by, and soon I’m back to my work.

The women who pass me say,
“Recess is sacred”

I add: thank you for sharing your dogs 🐶

Following your own path; Freedom is found in Courage

Recently I finished reading a book by Jeremiah Hues called, “The Law of Propulsion.” Within it he shared his life work and also an invitation to the reader to meet with him in person to continue the work, as well as one’s own personal investigations. I met Jeremiah a few years ago in the spirit of common interests and friendships. He was conducting his thought experiments at the time, and also expanding his work. It’s very inspiring to be with people who are working on their projects and really coming into and sharing their life’s work. There’s an openness to sharing, and there’s also an invitation for more. Each person has their own focus, their sacred attention. Sometimes, for a time, our interests may overlap and our inquiry may be along the same lines, even our goals; other times, we need to fly free and into the unknown. We need to explore a bit on our own.

I am excited for people who decide to become authors. Having recently embarked on this journey myself, I can honestly say: doing it was better than imagining it. It opens up new worlds! Also, you never know who will be interested, and who will buy your book! Sometimes the people who you most admire might be your fastest, quickest customers. Who knows? What else is possible?

On Flying

Interestingly, after some time at the air and space museum, I was reflecting on the words of the flight pilot Amelia Earhart – the first female aviator to fly solo across the Atlantic Ocean.

“Courage is the price that life exacts for granting peace. The soul that knows it not, knows no release from little things.” 

As we come into the full moon in Leo on the 10th of February for some, and themes of Aquarius and Leo abound, we seek to balance what is internal with what is external: what is about “the group think” and the community consciousness, consensus; and what is in “the content” of the “still small voice.” Even astrology is interpreted differently among astrologers, based on personal experiences and biases (and charts) (and chart systems and house divisions, etc etc). Same pie, different cuts.

I really don’t know a person on the planet that has not been exposed to the existence of astrology, and has not at least become a little bit aware of what is said about their sun sign, often in a dual way, the “pros and cons.” In this way, we are all astrologers. We are all (dual) thinkers. We are all open to the awareness of contrast and to the continued study of astrology, and the question of illumination in unity: what is its meaning and purpose, and role in our lives (if any).  Hopefully, we also have access to seeing our divine-mundane canopy as well, the real twinkling stars out there, exploding with gas and spectra: conveying without words, frequency and sometimes a detectable presence! I’m thinking of a distant nebulae right now where it hasn’t even been discovered or yet named! How free is that nebulae!?

Historically, astrology has been focused on celebrities and interpreting the actions of “the outside” world – politics, you name it, offering prophecies and speculations. I enjoy it as that, but even moreso as a tool for introspection. Most astrologers see astrology as a tool for enlightening and opening the mind and consciousness. A tool for recognizing biases and for seeing how each sign is a part of our chart! No escapees!

Fame has often been linked with Leo, but I have a different understanding for Leo – my sun sign in the tropical zodiac, with Aquarius on the S. Node and also Ascending. Because fame always sounded awful to me. Leo calls us to be with the courage of who we are. Leo and Aquarius work in harmony when best. They are opposite signs, but they demonstrate two aspects of the same coin. What they point to is a fulcrum- a place where balance is not only likely, but necessary, for peace within wholeness. These are two fixed signs, different perspectives!

We all can conduct our experiments and come up with what is meaningful to each of us. One of my favorite excerpts from Jeremiah’s book is from the section called, “Why Knowing the Knower?,”

The quality of knowing your knower adds to your highest self. It’s a tool that accesses deeper understandings as a resource.

Because your kinesthetic/deep Knower nature operates from a respectfully shy part of your communication structure, it gets bullied out our your attention by your active mind. You’ll be able to use this awareness as a tool to regain more control over the leading, pushy nature of your active mind.

Your truer, more mature deep parts of your spirit get to become a more influential part of your cognition processes and therefore get to steer the ship, instead of the part of the mind that will knock your attention span out of the way, like a kid fighting for free candy.”

May you use this full moon in Leo to your attentional advantage and keep your heart and goals focused on the love that you have to share – to be that presence, that presence that you need to be in order to fly through all your noble struggles while in a human body, living in a world with lots of other nobles. Amelia Earhart’s courage and Bessie Coleman’s courage transcends anything that I’ve ever known.quote-the-air-is-the-only-place-free-from-prejudices-bessie-coleman-39916

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quality

one teaching doctor says
“humans operate
with the law of quantity
over quality.”

i resist, but listen
anyway

when we have an injury
we compensate
and use extra effort
to accomplish a task

we might not even realize it,
while our ‘new’ habit-pathways
are seamless – to us.

we practiced it, until we had
forgotten.

to get around the trouble
of doing one thing, me might
enlist a few extra sets of muscles.

i should admit now that
this is not really a poem.

but I’m curious,

how are we so ingenious?

women return

sisters find in each other,
the silence

a hug

they meet and greet,
they come and go

we light candles for our families
and gaze up at the moon

let the earth be our messengers
who passes on all the real votes,

when we are heard by the river
and we listen deeply to her.

a wolf’s path

guidance comes in all the spaces,

enter the cave
to see the vision

but be clear,
about who you are.

You are the candle.

Exchange is not Mandatory

When we live by our hearts,
we may choose to walk alone.
Because trying to match everyones’ beat
isn’t quite “making the band.”

When our integrity is challenged,
we do and say what needs to be
said and done from our hearts.

in response.

There doesn’t need to be
a response to walking.

Walking is its own thing.

When we go within and set our
mind upon the infinite,

we have to let go a little.

My wholeness is not contingent
on whether or not I have
been received.

My wholeness does not need to
be mirrored in the world around
me.

But it is,

Sometimes I look up or down
or straight ahead, and what I
see, I want to identify with.

The choice is mine.

Excitement! Art for Art: Free Verses!

Hello dear friends & welcome new followers!

I am delighted to share with you that my 1st book of poetry is published and available. It’s available immediately at the CreateSpace eStore. It’ll be able at Amazon.com in 3-5 business days (now available!), and to a wider audience in 6-8 weeks!  The thing is, to me, this was everything: I finished!

May you all have a Happy New Year – Chinese Lunar New Year is coming up – let the festivities continue while we work!  I hope. I can breathe now… well, sort of… I’ll sign and autograph as you request. I had one or two of those already. It may take some time as I am just adjusting to my new schedule, but we’ll work stuff out on a case by case basis. Please use my contact form, and just allow me 24-48 hours to get some thoughts together, and of course, to be in front of a computer again.

Ps. I have taken note that every time I write, there are crickets!  Right now! Bright daylight, and I hear crickets near the screen door.  So grateful!! Remembering this.

 

Should we be gossiping? Or, should we be getting to work? Full Moon in Virgo 3/16

For no particular reason other than inspiration, I feel like reblogging this. North Node is still in Virgo folks, but soon…. soon. … it will be transiting in Leo, and that will be quite the change indeed; but that’s all next year. Honor the past, embrace the present, welcome the future. Aloha <3. Soon my book is coming out. I've been working on the proof, so that's yet to come in 2017 (hopefully!)

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Hello Everybody!

I’m looking at the chart for Sunday, March 16, 2014, full moon in Virgo at 10:08 am, PDT. This lunation falls at exactly 26.02 Pisces/Virgo. Therefore, the Sabian symbol for the full moon is Virgo 27. If it were 26.00 degrees it would be interpreted as the Virgo 26. However, since it has the 2 minutes, it’s interpreted as 27. Make sense? If there are minutes (02) after the degree (26), it gets interpreted as the following degree number (27). If there aren’t minutes (00) after the degree (26) it would get interpreted as the degree number (26).

Aristocratic elderly ladies drinking afternoon tea in a wealthy home. (Virgo 27) (Moon)

A harvest moon illuminates the sky. (Pisces 27) (Sun)

My interpretation for this Full Moon is to ask yourself the question: Should we be gossiping? Or, should we be getting to work?

What has come and gone…

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In a new era: one leader shows ‘A’ way hOMe

Wishing everyone a fine Sunday. This video moves me deeply.

Perhaps you might enjoy this short video where Morgan Freeman interviews His Holiness the 17th Karmapa, Ogyen Trinley Dorje, as much I have. This man is one of my leaders (Karmapa – but Morgan Freeman is pretty standup, too), my ‘wayshowers,’ and I’m so proud to say it. He’s very ordinary. That’s what I adore about him. He’s also very extraordinary. Keep your eyes out for him. Though he is young, at 31, he embodies the transmissions from the former 16 Karmapas. He is a walking lineage and he is, I believe, a vast “energy holder” for our new era.

The “Do It Yourself” Lunation: Be your own teacher

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 Artwork by Pridescrossing, available at http://pridescrossing.deviantart.com/art/Reach-For-The-Stars-286706760

Sun conjunct Moon in Sagittarius trine Uranus in Aries. December 3, 2013 UT 00:23 in @ Sagittarius 10.59

Sagittarius has this special ability to follow a star. A star can be a hope or a vision, and it can also be an unknown destination. It is an inspired direction, much more than an urge. Compared to the other fire signs,  it’s not like an Aries-type impulse, and it doesn’t have the Leo-type leading style. Sagittarius is the adventurer, the one who throws caution into the wind, because breaking free of the world, and being spontaneously oneself while seeking the divine is a necessity–the only true necessity.  Sagittarius doesn’t look back to see who follows.

Sagittarius knows that there’s something bigger “out there,” something inextricably worth the journey.  What Sagittarius understands better than any other sign is that “experience is the teacher.” You will learn as…

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Thee Magnificent Challenge

Hello Friends, Readers, Welcoming new Followers!!  Thank you for signing up.

There’s such a challenge to be magnificent in life, especially these days. Just to get up. Just to step out.

Yesterday I got 100%s on my two comprehensive tests, both written and practical. They were called that, even though they weren’t the comprehensive, comprehensive tests (and one day: Boards). Lessons in misnomers: they abound.

I don’t always get perfect grades. It’s not that big of a deal – at least to me. I am graded endlessly. (which means I am tested endlessly – and who is prepared/present 100% of the time?)

*breathe, Ka*   The reality is that no one is.

But there are people… who…

At Gangaji’s retreat she said, “We meditate, because, no one is good at it! It keeps us humble.”

I mean, it is important to me to score well, because I do work really hard (and smart!), every day, so it’s important to me to have something to show for it, but when I work really hard and still have nothing to show for it (until maybe one day in the future) it’s important for me to love myself even more (Thanks Matt Kahn!) for giving my heart to my work, to my every day, for just being, and for doing it, for awhile!  By the way, I am good at being. I really am. I am. I am. (there’s my plug.)

It’s the touch that I’m after, though: “the touch” on many occasions, I’ve been told that I have, but not all the time, 24/7.  There is no guarantee with these things, there’s no 100% in real life.  Of course the goal isn’t to be in the spotlight.  The spotlight has always felt uncomfortable. The goal is to be really effective.  The goal is become more effective at being effective, over time.

Different things matter to different people.  We score in different ways.

One day I was gifted (after a particularly challenging test because I was too exhausted to prepare properly) with a sweet croissant (I’m not gluten free at the moment but I still support gluten free options). Anyways, this wasn’t GF, but it was delicious! and my body is ok with gluten, and my body did devour said croissant.

My friend said it was because of something I did or said. I don’t expect this. This is not why i do anything! ever.

People who know me, know. i do not just do things out of obligation. my heart has the arms and legs and the voice. my brain is there. it hangs out with my heart. they share notes in their own ways.but obligation does not make me doeth.

I’m a little bit tired of being in graduate school, and I have years to go, so grades have literally made themselves irrelevant (thank you program!). Our TA’s are always like “no one is going to ask you what you got in such-and-such class, and on that one in a million test.”  Maybe so. but some people do like to compete. I try to stay away from them. I know they are cool, too. They are super focused. I admire that focus, and determination. I know they want to be a better version of themselves – and they are pre-occupied with that. I have something to learn from them.

But different things are valued by different people. Different magnificences, if you will.

unique.

I know that when a fellow student (or myself on a bad day) gets a bad score, I don’t believe they are ineffective, and especially do not believe that they are unsuccessful or less magnificent. I believe that they were having a “a day, or a moment.” Honestly I don’t care what their grades are, or even if their hands are cold (because body-work! is always happening in cold rooms) I care that they are trying their best, and loving themselves (because that translates over to us all).

When I see my classmates show up, I feel inspired. It’s just like that.  We have already all graduated. That’s already done. Now, it’s different, now it’s about that ‘inside work,’ and that’s the priority. If we are “caught being cool or magnificent and seen doing something” on the outside, in the world, that’s a particular bonus. Though we need our little nest to nurture ourselves, and maybe it’s a small nest, focused.

We all show up in different ways.  That is magnificent.  I am Magnificent.

My classroom patient had some neat experiences after she left my treatment table. I don’t take credit for them. She should [my patient]. Plus, my supervisor’s diagnosis was fascinating. My supervisors are Magnificent. We did spirit work. It was a good learning experience.

I am magnificent.

Eventually, one day, AGAIN, I will be paid in money for my learning experiences. I just want to really honor that process, because right now, I am rewarded in many different ways. I am the money. I am magnificent. I do wake up. I do show up. I do love myself. I am here to be “whatever i am.” It is golden. I have a cup of source, and it belongs to the ocean, so it is endless, and we each have it.

What’s more magnificent than the usual, everyday, though…?   I don’t know. Now when I say “here we are” to my classmates, it makes me giggle. It’s like the same place that we have always been, but it’s brighter, shinier. It just is. because it is. My friend adds, “and there we were.

And we share this paradise of struggle and overcoming.  Someone remembers how we started out…and how far we’ve come.

There’s more ease. It gets easier; and that is magnificent, too.

*Thank you to Linda Litebeing at Litebeing Chronicles for hosting this challenge.She’s offering a free astrology reading so that’s awesome, right?! Go check her out.

This card came up in a reading for myself recently. It’s from MY favorite deck: Tarot of Spirit, by Pamela Eakins, PH.D. This deck has been working for me since 1998, and moved everywhere with me over time. Let’s give it an applause! I know I am in awe. This was the deck that inspired me to make my own, which I never did (at least yet!).  To my credit, I was busy with school (undergrad).  Sometimes in life we sacrifice for a better future (just like my ancestors did), and eventually, we do, we do arrive – and then, we keep arriving!

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Meditation from Tarot of Spirit:

Leo, Virgo
Earthed/Grounded
Mountain Power
The Fire Father in Earth
builds lasting gardens
that produce and produce
the Earth Father
moves
through Cycling Time
surrounded by
Fire and Sea and Sky
Sons and Daughters
of Cycling Time:
steady!

Earthed/Grounded
Abounding Joy
tilling vast lands
investing well
and Time will tell
as intellects rise and shine and die,
fires rage, lovers sigh

Time will tell
the Earth Father
helps them all
through their Dark Age
constancy —
he knows them well
he himself was ill —
before he came to Man’s Estate.

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rome

A little bird told someone that there would be cake… and somehow, that and a million other things happened to lots of people, showing up, showing up to show up, and bring you this lovely blog by my lovely Ra kin. Follow her link to Rome. ❤ One Day At a Time – friend to friend, heart to heart. ❤

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Rome wasn’t built in a day, or by a single pair of hands.  I’ve never really understood why we’re so concerned with how Rome was built when most of us don’t even know how our blenders work, but I like a good slice of figurative pie.

I’m actually a big fan of almost all pie.  Even pies that don’t taste good, but graphically represent relevant data.

What were we talking about again?

Oh yes, today, I helped build a bit of metaphorical Rome and I did it with a kidsy-like poem.  It’s all part of a large project to motivate people to accomplish their goals, whatever they may be.  You can be a part of it, too.

Go on and check it out.  As per my normal methodical madness, I’m closing the comments here to force you to go over there and say hey.  That way I can say hey…

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On Being Good Enough

These days are filled with joy and challenge. It’s a wonderful marriage of opportunity meeting moments of “I can do this.” I noticed along the way that my blog writing has drifted off, as a lesser goal, while my primary one remains the same: to be healthy, whole, and happy. I don’t expect much from myself, just the ability to show up, be a witness to this process that is transforming me into the type of practitioner I will become, while appreciating the one that I am now. I am appreciating that much of my meditations, reflections, and “duties” to myself throughout the years are paying off in the way I face my experiences. It’s not always easy; but it’s becoming easier. I know when a bad day can wash over me, and I truly find that the following day usually ends up being so much better – as if some grace from nowhere is supporting me in my being “good enough, ” too. The whispers have been great since the moment of my birth, perhaps. Those whispers have been just good. And, just good, is sometimes, even better than great. And yes, we’ve heard the quote, “great is the enemy of good.” Nevertheless, great still exists, and it can’t go away no matter how much we fear it.

I enjoy what I do every day so much so that I am not so focused on my performance, nor my appearance – and the results are better than I could expect if I had planned on it, to my surprise – to my eyes! There’s no niche that I’m advertising for, at least not at the moment. And, the truth is, I fear not any development on that part, because what I see happening is so profound that it’ll be simply joy in the coming days, just to wrap my words around its essence, and draw out the nuances and flavors of my experience, describing as time permits, how easier days come with lighter steps.

While there’s an astrological story here, I will save that for another time, much, much later on. This blog is still dedicated to the stars. The stars that shine whether or not we talk about them.

Peace be to you all.