the goddess

I’ve spent years getting closer to her,

but it’s still not enough time.

Listening to her silver silence

following her moonlit entryway into the interior garden

holding a single white velvet rose in my hand as offering,

sitting under the silhouette of her tree,

misted with crystal and frost.

I let her

breathy guidance warm my temples,

activating my temporal lobes with an explosion of silence,

into a memory of iced tears

mirroring back into the black, dark of me,

now shimmering with rose color and glow.

When I close my eyes now, and rest my energy in my heart–

penetrating that darkness,

there is nothing but silence;

and, she is within me, lining me with roses

and welcoming me home.

“Little Lehigh” Ka Malana Photography ©2022

Not minding that mind

I’ve been thinking a lot about how powerful we can be when we overcome our own thinking that distracts us from our purpose. We have the force and power to harmonize our thoughts with total support and appreciation for our life force.

Keeping the mind poised on the hopeful possibilities that exist can be an exercise. As with any exercise, this requires a bit of devotion and a bit of faith. You have to believe you are building the muscle and you can measure and test this, too! Some of the faith part is based on the practiced realization that it does get easier, and if you don’t have the past experience to draw from, you might benefit from a measure of faith that you can improve at this with practice. So it does get easier. But that, too, can become a pitfall. We can get lazy as is natural for us humans.

The inertia and momentum gained from the work is nice to coast along. However, I do find that, like with any other practice, what is required is the on-going effort and not to sink into the easier moments when we coast along. If we sink into them we once again get distracted from the fact that our efforts are what make us happy.

We want life to be easy. Yet it is not. That right there is our most immediate problem, if we allow one to be there. This is human nature and one where we have an awareness of pain as a function of our consciousness. However as many researchers have found, “Pain can be described in neurological terms but cognitive awareness, interpretation, behavioral dispositions, as well as cultural and educational factors have a decisive influence on pain perception (Bueno-Gómez, 2017). All of these aspects of our pain are movable and can change with sincere work and devotion.

Like with devotion, what is required is a certain level of belief. Belief in order for it to become a practice, and then with practical experience, it becomes a conviction: that we can overcome our doubting and tragic minds that distract us from our purpose, and cause us suffering. We can learn from the process and become truly compassionate.

Agita Full Moon in Gemini

This full moon has us in a weird way. Just take a look at the chart above. You’ve got Mars and the Moon forming a conjunction that is less than an orb apart. This is a *very* close conjunction. Mars the planet of fire is heating up the moon in all sorts of ways. Those ways could be Gemini–neighbors, short distance-travel, language, siblings, local community, tools, and mobility or even transportation issues. Mars is in Retrograde–so the planet is in its “inverted position.” This is has zero ‘objective’ meaning in astronomy, but in astrology it has subjective meaning (I argue here that subjective meaning can be shared). The meaning historically is that the planets energies could be blocked externally–with retrograde planets. This could be that the energies and challenges are mostly inward and emotional; there’s extra aggressiveness internally, or sense of urgency that cannot be quelled easily. So, practice your deep breathing!

Look over at Jupiter and Neptune. They are both in an approx 7 degree orb of conjunction (for these transpersonal planets –those that are further away from our personal planets, in astrology), this conjunction has significance–mixing those energies together. A couple of days ago I posted about the sea. These planets have the same ancient (Jupiter) and modern ruler (Neptune) in Pisces. The energies have to do with the flighty depths of the sea–dealing with themes of escape or surrender, emergence into the ineffable and indistinguishable–dissolved, if you will. Jupiter and Neptune planetary themes can also deal with miracles, changes in fortune, and spiritual emergence. The goal is to locate and prevent addiction to illusions and lost causes. However, these planets are in a T-square with the Mars/Moon combination in Gemini and the Sun in Sagittarius.

Mercury is the ruler of Gemini. (which is important because this is a FULL MOON in GEMINI) Mercury is at 1degree 51 min of Capricorn, READ as Capricorn 2. The Sabian Symbol is “Three Stained Glass Windows, One Damaged by Bombardment.” Here is an interesting break down of that on a YouTube channel.

If you have been reading my blog in the last week *and* paying attention. Reflect back to my post red hair. There is the stained-glass. I didn’t plan this, plan on posting these old paintings of mine during this time when the themes are completely in-tune with the astrology. However, here it is. The stained-glass is evident in my work of art. Listen to this link above for the Sabian Symbol’s elucidation. I hope you find all this as interesting as I do. Consciousness–“awarding significance to items of beauty… we find our belonging.” That quote taken from the youtube video about the Sabian Symbol.

I’ve often struggled to find my belonging–to share my true self [and be seen!]. I look back at my old paintings now, and I see tremendous beauty, and I hope that takes me into the inspiration of producing more of them. I “gave up” too may times in my life. I will not give up any more. You will see me again and again. I will not go away. 🙂

This Full Moon connects directly back (by trine) to my natal Mars and Pluto conjunction. I think that this moon is the message for me to keep delving deeply into my own themes and not look for other people to make the connections that I need to make. I am making them. I’m building my voice in order to share them (Gemini).

Questions to think about:

When can we be with art when war is at hand?

How can be protect the art, our energy, and our resources and our values in a way where we can join with community and feel a sense of belonging? What I find beautiful you may not find beautiful. At this point I need to make whatever art comes and is begging to be released…

These are things to think about. I wish you a safe full moon in Gemini. If you are interested in working with me in terms of astrological consultation, I’d be happy to do so. I have been offering my services for years. Please click the link on the contact section of my blog. I am happy to help you.

Pirate in the Ether — from VSVEVG (very simple very easy very good)

This is a post about how dogs help us through hard times. It is about understanding that true love comes from a place of freedom, not attachment. And that life remains, simple easy and good, especially when you let go.

Pirate in the Ether — VSVEVG (very simple very easy very good)

I am reposting a blog post from a long time friend on WordPress. Abby is a wonderful writer, and she shares this really poignant piece about her connection with a special dog, named Pirate, who passes away. It includes live footage from when he was alive. There’s so much more in the post, which she weaves together beautifully, sharing about her collection of recent years; and her courage in getting through it is evident. In her own words, “true love comes from a place of freedom, not attachment.”

One of the musical pieces Abby includes in her article is music from Aurora. I’ve been a long time fan of Aurora, but I had not heard this song or the version of it before, that she included. Read the article because its good, and also to find the beautiful song that Aurora sings feat Pomme, that I am writing about. Aurora is a true artist. You can feel it from her singing, her movements, and the way she carries herself. I’ve attached an interview with her below, where she talks about the true meaning of success. She’s sweet and I think a lot of us can relate to her; when asked if she listens to her own music, she says “No, I don’t like to hear my own voice.” She also says that music is her best friend. When asked what she would say to her 12 year old self that wrote the song, “Runaway,” she said “[I]f you share your music with other people, one day that music might even become other peoples’ best friends, too.” Lately I’ve been sharing my favorite music with my best friends offline; so I included this part in this post today to share with you. Aurora is sweet, and I hope you can appreciate her music. The interviewer came to the conclusion about Aurora: “I think you are one of those people who can appreciate the small stuff.”

Aurora says that she feels the most successful when she’s spent her time right. Listen for the rest, to feel her energy.

Remember to click on the link above, or here, to read Abby’s post at Very Simple Very Easy Very Good.”

The autumn cottage that disappeared

Ka Malana Photograph ©2022

This sweet little place was getting to be an annual tradition to visit, until it disappeared. I rather like to think it got up on its chicken legs and “baba-yaga’d” itself out to a new place up in the hills, on the cliffs, or up in the canopy above in the sky, or wedged itself deep, back within a thick forest–which is where it probably were it belongs. It was like a little magical oasis out here in the semi-arid desert.

Or, even better: Howl’s Moving Castle

This is me.

I don’t know why it’s taken me so long to share a picture of myself on this blog.

This was a moment with the love of my life, my husband. He’s a special guy who is going to be publishing his book soon, and I will be honored to showcase it here, first, on my blog at Fiestaestrellas.com

As we count down to the new year, it’s easy to get lost in the busyness of the season. I’m doing it; we all are. For some of us it could be too quiet, and we can get lost in that, too.

But I want to say that each day, I am taking a moment here with you, and with myself. I want to wish you a very creative time! May you be inspired today, and every day!

red hair

i saw you in the temple

with your red haired color mixing

with the bright stained glass

i was in your dream;

it was obvious, because it was your place,

your class.

i’m seeking through the window of the door

trying to get a look inside–

The Cathedral of Learning:

why did you dream yourself here?

Can we come back to this place again?

Can we visit the past?

I just want one more moment with you…

(yes, it’s my painting)

Women return — Fiesta Estrellas (ReBLOGathon Ending Day30)

sisters find in each other, the silence a hug they meet and greet, they come and go we light candles for our families and gaze up at the moon let the earth be our messengers who passes on all the real votes, when we are heard by the river and we listen deeply to her. […]

women return — Fiesta Estrellas

And…… it’s DONE!

But, I’m not done yet….! I plan on blogging into the New Year, 2023. I plan to publish my next poetry book in 2023–and I’m planning on including more highlights from people in my life and in my community. January 2023 is going to be the start a fun blogging New Year. I have lots of content to share; and I hope you all will be there! 🙂

The above poem I wrote in February of 2017. My favorite part of this poem is its ending.

My heart is touched by the sisters I meet in my life. I’m dedicating this poem’s reblog, and final Nano Poblano post, to blogger who I have met through blogging named Christy Birmingham-Reyes. She manages and writes a beautiful blog called When Women Inspire. Her blog is an excellent resource for women. She writes daily on issues that affect women, daily. Her blog has pertinent topics like single motherhood and addiction–signs to look out for and where to get help, blog posts about exercise and health, about how to become a successful entrepreneur/ business woman with practical articles about taxes. Her topics demonstrate a wide array of supports and inclusivity, such as family planning for LGBTQ+, while she also showcases and spotlights women who are serving through leadership, and making waves. One of my favorite recent articles is from guest blogger, Esther A. Armah, who writes about Unlearning Emotional Currency. Her blog provides hope and inspiration.

I hope you enjoyed my version of Nano Poblano, which is a version of NaBloPoMo, which is a National blog posting Month challenge. My theme for this year’s challenge was reBLOGathon, and I teamed up with Cheer Peppers year after year for Nano Poblano. You will see the logo again below. Click on it to see other team member’s posts. Thank you for those who stuck with me this whole long posting month, and I hope you are ready to see more of me in the days to come!

Psst… One of my inside reasons for doing the Nano Poblano challenge, started by Ra Avis, a truly AMAZING poet, it the tagline for the challenge: “Official Home of the World’s Least-Official November Blog Challenge” I’m very attracted to “unofficial-ness.” It appeals to my sensibilities and my desire to enjoy myself on the planet. I hope you join us next year.

[THE (not so endy) END]

Reflections #2: Honey is Home — Fiesta Estrellas (ReBLOGathon Day 29)

Ka Malana Photography ©2022

Give me honey Any day And I’ll find a place for Sweet to counter the bitter. We move through our days Trying to keep our stories On the margin of our memories Trying to be present to What we encounter in the moment. Then… As I have, We just move on. Or is it that […]

Reflections #2: Honey is Home — Fiesta Estrellas

I chose this post and image for my reblog. The choice for today might have been inspired by my blogging friend Janet Weight Reed at the same time as I was reviewing my past poetry to begin my next publication. This drawing is linked together with my poem “Honey is Home that appeared in my publication of Art for Art, 2017.

The drawing above is my own; I probably should have signed my art when I was in my teens and making it, circa 1995. This is a portrait of one of my best friends, Jana. I did it in a cubist style, inspired by Picasso and Paul Cézanne. In the 20th early century, Cubism was a new movement in art where subjects were depicted with multiple perspectives, and nature was often interpreted through a geometric shapes. I didn’t know it at the time, but Picasso was not only inspired by Cézanne but he was inspired by African art. African art appealed to my soul from a very young age, all forms of African art, including music and drum signatures. This was a theme that continued for me well past the time I visited S. Africa, and into the present as I enjoy playing djembe in the local Women’s Drum Circle.

Due to apartheid, townships were places that could be very dangerous for white people to go. It’s understandable why. Because white people created and enforced apartheid, and destroyed homes and lives in the process. White people destroyed a whole people. Since my educational trip was focused on service and expanding the minds of Westerners, I was admitted into these exclusive spaces which, as I said, existed as a direct result of heinous racism which drove blacks from their homes and communities.

The Apartheid (1948 to 1994) in South Africa was the racial segregation under the all-white government of South Africa which dictated that non-white South Africans (a majority of the population) were required to live in separate areas from whites and use separate public facilities, and contact between the two groups would be limited. The different racial group were physically separated according to their location, public facilities and social life.”

source

I was an anthropology student at the time of this visit to a township in Capetown, S. Africa. As an artist, photographer, and a person devoted to the mission of sharing the beauty of these communities with my then very small reach, I took pictures of these children with permission. The following is one of the many images I photographed of some of the township children. These children were so cute. I was in love with them. Interestingly, the people in the township often had designer clothes, but lived in very, very poor conditions–without electricity, and even lived in shacks that were put together with reclaimed materials. Why did they have designer clothes? Well, just ask yourself what all the wealthy of the Western world do with their designer clothes? It’s increasingly happening among the extreme wealth of the whole world, not just the West. The clothing is expendable and tossed down the line through donation. See this post for my short discussion on disposable goods and consumerism. So this is how you can have designer clothing and can be extremely poor. Kind of changes the status of designer clothing, doesn’t it? These old neighborhoods, before apartheid, these communities had street signs and livelihood. They had roads, and owned their own land. “

Quick Facts

Between 1960 and 1994 over three and a half million people were forcibly removed to the homelands.Their land was taken away from them and sold to white farmers at very low prices.People were unable to make a living in the homelands, and many had to work as migrant labourers in the cities of South Africa. (source)

I was there in 2001, and sadly, by 2014 (see article linked below), not much has changed. Racism is cruel.

From 2014 article, a resident explained, “When it rains, the public toilets overflow into my living room,” she says. “Water comes in through the ceiling and the electricity stops working (Guardian)” See links below for more information.

Ka Malana Photography ©2022

For more on Apartheid:

https://www.facinghistory.org/resource-library/africans-resist-white-control

https://www.theguardian.com/cities/2014/apr/30/cape-town-apartheid-ended-still-paradise-few-south-africa

For more on Cubism

https://www.tate.org.uk/art/art-terms/c/cubism/all-about-cubism

https://www.thecollector.com/african-art-the-first-form-of-cubism/

Commitment is strength inspiring — Fiesta Estrellas (Bonus post: ReBLOGathon)

In an age of fast development: technology, tv screens, constant-upgrades, new designs, “better,” “more connected,” webbed, and “seamless” living, I am amazed, and I Am inspired by those who commit to their goals. Now, life will throw us off track, time and time again – especially if you have a very strong relationship – for […]

Commitment is strength inspiring — Fiesta Estrellas

This ReBLOG came up on its own on another social media feed. It’s so cool to read these old posts—> I’m still going strong and living my truth. I know that for a fact. The evidence is here. 🙂 I’m also posting this because we have some strong Mars transits coming up. A message like this can be handy.

Unafraid to Stand Alone — Fiesta Estrellas – ReBLOGathon Day28

In this life, we might be terrified. we might feel alone, though we are not. we must work every day to give ourselves enough space, to be who we are. however we are, “dark” or “light” or the huge gamut spanning between even if not one single person feels that what we offer is valuable, […]

unafraid to stand alone — Fiesta Estrellas
Unsplash photographer: Yuriy Bogdanov

Today’s reblog links back to a poem I wrote, about not being afraid to stand alone. I think this is a good reminder for all of us while the season is all about “coming together.” For so many this season bring a lot of pressure, loneliness, and oftentimes tremendous grief. However for others it’s a time to really express our happiness and our love with our friends, families and everyone in our lives. Truly the holidays are days when most people have off work–even though not all do.

Yesterday I took time for myself to really appreciate the moments in my life. There’s this beautiful quiet descending upon me. It’s far from depression and it feels like inner peace. I’m not even chasing after it either. It’s there when all the chasing runs its course. 🙂

Happy Peppering!

Happy baby pose — Fiesta Estrellas -ReBLOGathon Day27-

the focus, the point of any moment’s contentment is the delicate reality of right here, now playful ~ cross crawl, ipsilateral, in a ball: when hands touch soles of feet, and reach to touch toes! this pose – is made for giggles, and wiggles. the sacrum is flat, and the body is a bowl nimble […]

Happy baby pose, sharing more of me. — Fiesta Estrellas

Howdy! I didn’t make it to the blog yesterday. Mr. Ka ended up getting a gnarly case of shingles 😦 and well, I spent the day having so much fun with my daughter! Please send him good, quick-healing vibes.

I chose the above post as my “make up” post for yesterday’s reBLOGathon Day 27 and Cheer Peppers Nano Poblano because its about yoga, and embracing the moment. 🙂 The World Tree is consistent in my previous images with my adventure tree so I thought it also connects up well, there, too. I’m planning on collecting my poems that I wrote since my last publication and gather them up, do some editing and publish another book. This is a very exciting project, indeed 🙂

Cancer New Moon, July 1 2011, Partial Solar Eclipse — Fiesta Estrellas (ReBLOGathon Day26)

July 1, 2011 Partial Solar Eclipse in Cancer/ New Moon The astrological sign of Cancer is given the element of water, describing what type energy it is, and the cardinal modality, describing how it operates. Cancer, like water, flows into any shape of container. It surrounds and absorbs. It is inherently adaptive. Water energy is […]

Cancer New Moon, July 1 2011, Partial Solar Eclipse — Fiesta Estrellas

This reblog is one of my favorites.

I remember writing this post, and it really was a collection of information and knowledge I gained through many years of experience. The one thing that stood out to me when re-reading, was thinking about how the signs of both Pisces and Cancer deal with the subconscious. Pisces because of its relationship to the 12th house of the unconscious (and its nature as a water sign) and Cancer because of its inherent relationship with the moon (and it’s a water sign). Scorpio also shares that water relationship. When you differentiate the water signs you want to look to its modality: Fixed, Cardinal, or Mutable. Cancer is a cardinal sign, the sign that this reblog is focused on (along with its opposite Capricorn). The opposite signs share the same modality–which is the hidden harmony in opposition. Astrology has many harmonies built-in, if you look for them.

Cancer has “direction.” The energy is focus and directed: it’s creative, which is why is related to the Mother-mothering principle.

After I published this post. I thought: hmm… why am I interested in this post as my reblog? How did it come up in my awareness? So I look at the transits for today. The moon is exactly opposite my natal moon (in Cancer) @ 12 degrees. So that’s how astrology works… it’s beautiful, and poetic–and you don’t even have to PAY ATTENTION to it or “FOLLOW IT’, for it to work; its just silently in the background, describing what is already happening.

Tanka Poem — Fiesta Estrellas (ReBLOGathon Day25)

Photography: Ka Malana ©2017 to grow with delight another kind gardener trims her best roses while the moss sleeps quietly awaiting magic hour 57577

Tanka Poem — Fiesta Estrellas

I hope everyone who celebrates had a good Thanksgiving, for everyone else, I hope they had a good end to their week and a nice weekend ahead. This Tanka poem is my reblog for the day. I didn’t manage to post yesterday, but that doesn’t bother me too much. This is my makeup post. It’s the first time I didn’t complete the monthly challenge in the years that I participated, that I remember. I am slowing down my energy, anyways. It’s fabulous! I love this slowed down version, soaking up the sensory experiences, reflecting on more memories, being one with my life. I hope you enjoy.