Enlightenment

don’t let me arrive too early
into enlightenment
for chance that it may be
incomplete
or some facade,
less than genuine.

let me speak my heart
with penetration –
gaze deeply into the abyss.

i don’t want to become a writer
who fears what the pen will
deliver, or fear anything,
really, for nothing rightly
has power over me.

Pluto transiting in my 12th house
does not make me sweat!

i’m not interested in being polished
like a diamond, or becoming too cute
and regular, to end up forgetting the forge
that burned me open again and again.

oh those sweet wounds that never heal,
make me into the endless supply.

art is my heart,
the eternal process, undying, unending!
unformed, and while ~
endlessly forgiving…

Ka Malana ©2017
Art for Art

Detachment from using the “mind” to perceive consensus

Oftentimes we are fooled into believing, from our thoughts, that we are capable of perceiving consensus reality or society. Sometimes we even believe that via polls and surveys, or quantifiable measurements from participating members of society, we are obtaining useful information about consensus reality. The thing is that our society, our marketing industry, and so forth, seems to only be able to reach the participating members: those who are vocal, decisive, etc. What about those who are reasonably silent on many issues, or haven’t contributed to the defining of issues? Maybe responders don’t perceive the time being available for responding, or maybe potential responders are still collecting more information. I think there’s a real need in our society for more people taking their time, and focusing on ‘being-ness.’ So this is not a critique. It is merely a reflection.

I do not believe that our feedback systems are perfect, or even near-perfect; and I don’t want to get roped into believing that the information available is often 1). Complete 2). obtainable 3). reproducible 4). empirically useful.

These are just some thoughts, and it is the thoughts and the transient passing of thoughts that change, as perceptions and what is observable changes.

As Mercury has gone retrograde, and though I “participate” in astrology (to a lesser extent currently) I still feel influenced by thinking in a different, perhaps more Saturnine way (likely thanks to the conjunction with Mercury at this Mercury retrograde’s actual retrograde start). I think the thought processes, and the perceptual biases must always be acknowledged and reflected upon. The thing I am most skeptical about right now, is being able to perceive a consensus society/reality. Oftentimes I detach from astrology, because it is perceived to be “all about the interpretation.” Well, I think astrology is really about the reflection and the observation, foremost.

For the rebellious among us, we often think we know which consensus norms we are transcending/defying/ignoring….

If we truly believe that we are all unique individuals, living in unity (by virtue of our obvious togetherness on the planet), can we honestly trust ourselves, that with the tools available – all the tools – we can perceive or rightly observe what is consensus? I do not think we can. I think we can estimate, and I think that we can use all our senses to get a partial, non-whole picture…

I think it’s important to acknowledge our perceptual limitations.

For Love, and wrapping up my November with a bow 🎀

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Here’s my 5-minute meditation that I’ve provided on my blog, where you can listen and also find it under the meditation drop down box -> mindfulness meditation tracks -> 5 minute guided meditation. I’d like to give this to you, as my gift to you: where you can listen and get in touch with all your senses as I guide you.

                Which senses bring you joy and delight? 

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All of them, as they are the ones that connect me beyond the earth plane! (best explained by Sue Dreamwalker, here.)

   How do they help you live a meaningful life?

My senses help me relate and integrate. My senses help me to connect with others, with nature, and help me to be a part of something bigger than myself. My earthy senses: sounds, sights, feels, tastes, and smells, help me to ‘ground’ and to meditate.  5-minute meditation.

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Yin-Yang Soup

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Today’s post is dedicated to the two challenges I’ve participated in for November, it’s also dedicated to me, for completing the NanoPoblano challenge when I didn’t think I would/could. At all. I still wanted to give it a try. I wanted to use this challenge to get through an ‘already’ challenging time. NanoPoblano, is a month-long posting challenge to post daily with no restrictions originated by Ra Avis. She is an incredibly inspiring blogger and human, and she came up with the idea for NanoPoblano. She’s also been a great friend and support to me in completing my book, She would always appear at precisely the right moments.

Here’s Ra’s words about the NanoPoblano challenge. It’s about Poblanos/Cheerspeppers and the team:

The thing about the Poblanos is that it adds a family dimension to the entire project.  You will be constantly looking at a list of people who are going through the same struggle as you.  Some will be better writers.  Some will be funnier.  Some will have bigger audiences.

It won’t matter, though, because we’ll all be feeling the burn.

After walking through the fire together, it’s hard not to love each other.  We’re a team.  My Poblanos are my first point of contact for any activity I undertake– because I know they are committed to what they want, and to what they do.  No matter what they want, or why they do.

These are people I am proud to blog alongside.

I am proud to blog alongside her and others; most of all my readers!!!!!

This month, on the 23rd, my blogger galpal Linda from Litebeing.com invited me to participate in her month-long Sense-sational Blogging Challenge, and she suggested that I could use one of my NanoPoblano posts for her Sense-sational Challenge. So, at this point I was thinking, maybe I could pull this off, and use Linda’s challenge to be sure I get to the end. Thank you, Linda! Check out her blog for astrological musings, synchronicity, numerology, and more!

Of course, I have to also mention another dear blogging friend & wizard, Dewin, who participated in this challenge on the 29th, since I can’t link to anyone afterward – as I am taking up the caboose – here’s a link to Dewin’s written submission. You can also follow his amazingly well-written, witty, passionate, and truly epic poetry by following the links on his blog. If you haven’t already. 🙂

About my book: Art for Art, in my opinion it’s the best first and potentially only book I could/would have written. Included in it is a wonderfully well-written foreword by my dear friend and writer, Michael, from Embracing Forever. He’s really been a huge support to my writing, as another writer, and a marvelous writer at that! He’s blown me away with his talent, and I am anticipating his continued success!!

Finally, here’s a link to my posts for NanoPoblano, where you will see a lot of photography and writings, poetry, and musings mixed together with the astrology that underlies it all. I’ve put the posts all here in one nice, tidy, accessible place – including my “lead in” posts where I prepared for November’s challenge.

Let’s get spicy and do the thing in November!

The Day Before…

Tiny lighthouse

Tanka Poem

undaunted at dawn

rooted tree of the taurus full moon

november swirls

Little Ka, Amusement Park

Complaints from an angel

Resting Haiku

the sky provided

friendship

yin of evening

brownie i wonder

crosswalk closeup

smiling bodhisattva in the garden

lotus

being one with nature

tap the feet to the beat

beach surrender

desert yawn

Waxing Tropical

A rose’s aroma

Lines & Designs

Thanksgiving in so many forms

Triskelion & flower

The center

across time (and space)

The wave

rose alchemy

i want to guide you

My readers are soooo awesome and I cannot wait to catch up with you, especially these last few days, **WHEW**!  This daily posting for the month was a challenge for me, but I’m glad I did it. I’m not sure if I will do it again.

Thank you all for your loving, supportive comments. You really made a difference!!!

So what’s next?
I’m not sure, but I definitely have a lot of “off the blog” work to focus on and so I’m going to completely enjoy my December (and that means working on what I have to do and read your blogs when I can) and prepare for 2018. This November’s end is sort of a wrap up for me for the whole year, 2017. I’m proud of myself for doing this posting challenge for me. I like the delicious choices that I get to make in my many moments! My dedication to my regular meditation practice has also benefitted from this month’s crazy activity!

What will you do in December? Did you have a good time in November? What was 2017 like?

 

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Thanksgiving in so many forms

It’s Thanksgiving here in the U.S., and throughout the years, for personal family reasons, it’s been a challenging time. We lost a precious family member on Thanksgiving day many years ago, and it’s affected everything.

The meaning of gratitude is constantly reviewed, and today, I found myself wanting to visit a special place where I took refuge when I discovered that my young friend had died, the end of October a couple of years ago, and I wanted to connect with her.

I had spent one Thanksgiving with her family and I am thinking of them now, as I know how much they miss my friend.

I feel her spirit now, and I am very familiar with the winds of change. I am counting all my blessings, all the wonderful people in my life, and I am always thinking of those who maybe want to feel a little less alone.

I’ve been posting here daily for the whole month of November and will continue until the 30th. Wishing everyone a sense of peace and a deep feeling of safety and connection with their loved ones, and if your loved ones have crossed over, know that they love you and are always by your side.

Many blessings! Thank you all so so much!!!! 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

 

Being one with nature

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I want to dance like that,
wild and free,
turn on my heels – spin
on the axis of joy.

I want to dissolve into
mountain flowers and disappear
into the wheat field without a
whisper.

I want to wake up when the
wind lifts, and merge my face
into the soft sun
while the seasons turn tides,
and space is infinitely infinite.

I want to breath so deeply
that my breath sinks far
into the soil, beyond the
earth worms, and down
around the core of the earth.

Ka Malana ©2017
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The sky provided

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The sky provided for me,
while I complained,
and stormed inside.

The sky provided for me
new thoughts, to replace
my negative thinking;
for a moment, I had to
pause.

The sky took over
in all ways, I felt
immersed and bathed in
pink puffs and
orange highlights.

The deep purple: sold!

The sky had me wrapped
within its luminescence,
and I felt the sky’s imaginary mind
reflect down upon me,
and scoop me up;

the sky
reached down,
and it touched
me.

Ka Malana©2017

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Rooted Tree Of Taurus Full Moon

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“If we represent knowledge as a tree, we know that things that are divided are yet connected. We know that to observe the divisions and ignore the connections is to destroy the tree.”
– Wendell Berry

What I enjoy about this photograph is the way the patterns of light and shadow blend the tree into its environment. It’s as if the subject is the dance of light and not the tree itself. The background and the foreground of the image contrast, where in the foreground the shape of the leaves are where the light comes in. It is as if the light is projecting negative space. While in the background, the leaves are positive and dark – much like a yin-yang (Tai Qi). Each component contains the other. I enjoy the texture and the movement of this image, and how the patterns of light and dark unify the entire image. It’s as if the roots are moving toward the viewer, inviting the viewer into a meaningfully, rooted experience.

 

Taking a big, deep breath… Let’s get spicy and do the thing in November!

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When you notice that I am posting even more frequently in November (hopefully). You’ll see that you, too, can join in. I will be participating in Nano Poblano, “the World’s Least Official Blog-Everyday-November Challenge.” Nothing gets me motivated like something that isn’t officially official-official, and really has the spirit of community, teamdom, and freedom. We all want to have fun. Here’s the official link. Especially if you are already a regular every day blogger, and want to reach more people, and participate more as well – go sign up!

Nothing says “potential over-commitment” like Jupiter conjunct Sun in Scorpio – so I thought it’d be a great time (or worst time) to take a deep dive. You get it, folks, I decided to go for the swim! Isn’t it exciting!? That said, considering my away-from-the-blog work/life/family balance, it should be an equally busy season off-blog. My throat already feels scratchy and my lymph nodes feel swollen, so why don’t we do it?! I’m gonna enjoy this, or at least enjoy trying! Oh, and the self-care… that’ll happen.  🙂

Blogging, for me, brings together my favorite things art, celebration, exploration, empowerment, and meditation, and growing together. I need the calm to balance the excitement. I need the bland to balance the spicy. I need the deep-discussions to balance the light-hearted whimsy. I need my own commitment to my writing/art/astro/photography space getting out there, and I need it to be okay when I don’t make it out the gate, or I just hide under the blankets.

This is my home beyond me. This is where I live, and I intend to keep decorating, or louse it up, whatever is my choice. If you stick around for my posts, I thank you all in advance for supporting me and my self-expression, as it ebbs and flows, changes and grows.

Gosh, all ya’all please join us, here!

The Planets Saturn & Jupiter

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This image above is a photograph I’ve taken from an image in the book: Astrology, Magic, and Alchemy.  The painting is called The Planet Saturn. It’s a miniature from De Sphaera, 15th century. Modena, Biblioteca Estense.

In the image can be seen the dual rulership of Saturn, the waterbearer image (Aquarius) and the goat 🐐 (Capricorn). In the image, Saturn seems to be represented as a man, carrying a sickle and also a cane, as if to indicate old age.

Perhaps as depicted in the image, the power over death, and that for a long life, is in our own hands – if only we are to realize it. Yet most of us gaze outwardly with fear, understandably. Often the power seems beyond us. This begs the question for a more nuanced stance, and a depth of inquiry that rarely ceases.

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Since Jupiter has moved into the sign of Scorpio, many of us are wondering what it means – what it means for us individually.  The image above is from a painting called Jupiter. It is a detail. It is by Jacopo Zucchi; Rome, Palazzo Rucellai, vault of Galleria.

In the image above we have Jupiter’s dual rulership represented, Sagittarius on the bottom left, and Pisces on the bottom right.

Are our heart’s asking for justice? How can we be more judiciously loving with ourselves?

Is there a being whose highest authority we can appeal to, who will listen to our woes, our trials and tribulations? A being more intimate than the one we all are connected to in our hearts? What about the peace within our own hearts? 

This New Moon in Libra is juicy and new – and it has a lot of energy to contribute to our  relationships. Take a moment and be present with who you are today, and in loving, full acceptance, say: “yay!” I am so grateful to share this space with all of you! 

Greetings my loves….

Happy Diwali! 🔥💕🌸

 

fill a cuppa

dew has rested on soft
ground,
resetting the land
and freshening the air

the birds
chirp into wakefulness
as darkness lingers,
the blankets of night
slowly lift

i find a younger version
of myself this morning
in this body that has lived
longer than its wisdom
lets on.

can we exchange our thoughts
for today’s perceptions?
begin emptying our heads
immediately,

as we fill up a cuppa
?

Her Open Glow

When first I met her
I needed a relationship
that wouldn’t pursue me,
in the usual way.

I needed an intimacy
that moved with me,
as I moved.

~

She will not lead you
to still waters, nor even ask you
to take a drink. she doesn’t even
care if you pursue her.

She just loves.

She met me under a tree,
when I called to her, I saw
that she was the tree.

~

She doesn’t demand commitment,
nor sacrifice,
she but notices it, and gently
encourages me to
keep pacing myself.

keep finding ways to be gentle with you, she says.

She shows me how to love myself,
in this way.

I met her when,
I needed her voice to be the
gentlest, clearest, cut-through-the-bullshit,

opening

she doesn’t define a gender.

she isn’t gonna hurt your heart,
to teach you a lesson.

you weren’t born for that.

she says, “oh honey, life just is,
love as much as you can”

Fine-tuning

you are an instrument, she said,
self-tuning,
and self-correcting,
and self-regulating.

isn’t it neat how you get to
play differently
every day?

yes, some of this is painful,
but there’s a lot of joy, too.

there’s enough room in this
world for you, my dear.

you are allowed to exist.

don’t let anyone tell you
that you’re not an instrument,
that you are not beautifully
made of all the
sounds and all the colors,

and what you do here,

it matters.
it matters.