grow with me 🌙

words change like days
and moons pass as events
as moments uplift and letdown

the witnessing awareness
sees it all as a playground
or museum, or like a trailer park of
ideas “gone somewhere,” then stopped,
and decided to live.

we clear out our systems on cleaning
days or on days assigned for other
maintence activities, or just whenever
cleaning finds time for itself.

the fun of doing anything
is living in the unknown
is speculating
is just facing the unexpected,
and embracing it.

i can definitely find security in this:

everything changes


not long after finding
my belonging ~
i have to let it go,
trust that wherever i am,
is meant to be

i let the sense of community
form around me,
even while i miss being
with my friends,
and going to them,
the people who i care for –

going to the places i know

bring me joy and
help form me

those places must be all around
and inside me, too.

knowing recovery
is an act of self love
that sometimes requires giving up
certain medicines for others

and uncertainty nurtures me, too.

How can it be any other way? As I practice, so I pave the way.

Traversing the Wheel


I’ve been recovering as I’ve been in the hospital this last week. This is what ‘unexpected’ experience the eclipse brought me. My own patients were doing very well the last I saw them, and I missed seeing them last week as I was in the hospital for myself. It made me happy when my “team” let me know that I was missed, and I felt all the love from family and friends, and strangers. Now, I am catching up on school work/work and making decisions that are best for me, so I have no further complications. I appreciate all your love.

Wishing everyone a Happy belated Year of the Dog!

Patience, Patient

945CD0F6-D394-4F1E-BFF3-3A065D8C19E0why do those who seem
so effortlessly gifted
pay the price with their suffering?

is it for their gift?

one’s karma is one’s karma
and yet, when asked, and given
permission, an intervention
is possible, but it does not
interrupt ~

the process. it helps it along.

the permission piece is the most

so much beauty in those moments
of connection, of making peace
and settling, and balancing,
and playing a role in that

being deadly tired at the end
feels worth it,

for something
that is beyond anyone’s plans
happens when we meet.

As Venus ingress (enters into) Pisces
we dissolve our gifts into the melting pot,
and wait…

2 min sketch during lunch + fun

I can feel the Aquarius energy coming in through that eclipse “portal” that’s on the 15th. Even though my S. Node and Ascendant in Aquarius (natally) makes tough aspects to some of my “personal planets” (astro-speak), I keep coming around the bend year after year in a lovely spiral, seeing how it’s all coming together very nicely; and while busting through the tough times, I find the skip in my step once again. I’m tired of talking about my astrology. What’s your 3? Sun, Moon, Ascendant. Leave them in the comments. I do have a new favorite up and coming youtube astrologer, and I want to see her supported even more. Usually I don’t watch youtube astrologers because I have a lot of access to people who are in my local astrological community who have a lot of expertise, some friends; I’ve gone to classes, and enjoyed the camaraderie. When I see a strong astrologer who has a certain kind of delivery, and who is really going for it, I want to see her supported. She does a lot of work with her daily recordings, and that’s a lot of energy she’s putting out there. Also, I think she’s tapped into the universal nicely.

Though I don’t have a lot of time to visit blogs; I do anyways, while still immersed in deep study, practice, and my outside of blog-land projects and goals, work, aka my non-virtual life. It’s just perfect! I know all you bloggers know of this balancing act!

Wanted to share: been enjoying a lot of pentacles cards lately. Also sat inside of Steven Farmer’s aura for a few hours at a small workshop several weeks ago – it was a close knit group, so I’ve been playing with the animal cards he created lately. I was inspired to share because the Moose card played nicely off my previously written and inspired poem. (Quick reminder that my poetry book is still being offered over at Amazon.)


The above food combo is basic whole oatmeal with some black sesame seeds, toasted coconut slivers, almonds, cinnamon, nutmeg, and monk’s fruit. Not my best food photography, but it really tasted so yummy, that that was that: posted!

Finally, there’s the drawing/sketch, and I don’t have anything to say about it. If I had more time available for blogging and sketching, or photography, or astrology, or writing poems, or writing books or articles, I’m sure I’d use it to share a really lovely and polished blog posts, but that’s just not as much fun for me, *right now.* This is.

Happy trails!

P.S. I do have some animals pictures I took that will show up soon, just haven’t gotten around to it. Also, I’ve been thinking about the following quote by the unknown author,

“Go where you are celebrated, not tolerated. If they can’t see the real value of you, it’s time for a new start.”

Restoring Life to Life

Gentle words start to surface
in the private spaces
where patience allows
freedom to take root.

the authority is at home.

there is no overhead.

it is rent free for the authority,
because it’s
the only voice that belongs
here. All others have
to pay the price.

from within this centerpiece
is a fountain
and out around it, a moat.

the castle is designed to test
those who would seek to enter it,
this sacred space,
where the authority, the one
true authority,


life into life.

The holy grail.


Ka Malana 2018