softly drawn is dawn

Opening to green

It’s birthday time.

and, I’ve been lighting candles

with fervor

burning away what is not working

illuminating the path, to show me the way.

in response, perhaps, the years have been softening me

though, I have not directly asked for that ~

showing me, in all my wrongness, there’s one thing I have right:

my love.

my growing capacity to love.

personal love,

impersonal love,

love of thyself

love of the moment

love of fleeting passion present

love that burns through time and space, with such eternity

knowing no end can ever come of it, because it would only do it to itself, and it really wouldn’t, because it’s matured.

This is my communion, my continuity, my flame for this life. This is my time, and this is its purpose.

and, I am so sincerely present.

without a doubt, I’ve never hidden under a basket.

nor behind a cloak.

I have been the bare me all along.

I have born myself of raw flesh and spirals

I have broken skin and wishes and daydreams.

My knees have been skinned on so many near-almosts…

…absolute misses…

while

Going for it, going for it all.

and there is never a guarantee in the program

the program is not built for guarantees. The whole thing is based on risks and risk assessments.

They say that only the courageous or the stupid put it all out there.

how about the one who knows

that there’s nothing else that’s worth it. Holding back is actually the norm.

and the more i can dig in, this year and next year, and maybe more years after that,

the more dirt under my nails, the more fires smoking in my eyes, the more the holy reckoning,

the more moments of absolute REST after the sheer ‘enoughness’ of my irrevocable ALL

I know I’m living.

I’m doing it.

HBD to me.

🎉

and if I should part before too soon

or even near soon at all,

I shall know that what I’ve done here,

is really, really lived.

Leo New Moon 7/24/25 – Let’s Face it Together

I shouldn’t rush this one.

There’s a lot about Leo that isn’t captured by popular culture, or by “culture of astrology.” Of course, I am a Leo Sun (haha in my 7th house of others!!) So I will tell you what a Leo is! And you will believe me, of course! (silly!) Silliness is definitely a thing. It’s part of it. A bit of a performer… that too! Guess what else? Can you guess? Yes, yes, playful. Anything else?

If you guessed Shameless, well, no.

Brave.

Brave!

I wrote brave twice– you wanna know why? The first time is with a period. It’s the behind the scenes brave. It’s the actual brave. The show up and be brave behind the ready to be brave. Then there’s the other brave! is the one that looks cheery and courageous, but is probably just the product of this equation:

My LOVE > My Fear = Aligned Action

If you are looking at the truth: there’s no real difference between you and me. We have all the same possibilities and potentialities. Choice is what makes us different, and to a certain extent, circumstances also make us different. We all have different backgrounds, groups, families, environmental pressures, legacies and genes, and even experiences. Please keep reading for the substance…. You are special

This post is not going to be one of those posts that tells you “this is an excellent time for: x, y and z” It’s not even about what the sign Leo means. It’s more about an exploration into the depths of you. This new moon in early Leo at 2 degrees is in opposition to the planet, Pluto (overhaul), in Aquarius (each and every one). It’s in trine to Uranus (innovation) in Gemini (the mind). There’s a lot of pressure right now to find ways to survive. What are we surviving? We are surviving difficult living conditions that still manage to mostly look like the luxuries of modern life. However, underneath it all is the existential tension of not knowing the future, not having a stable sense of the cost of goods, not knowing how the slashing and burning and bridge dismantling of our institutions is going to affect America and the entire world. It’s already affecting America. What’s worse is the backdrop of environmental degradation and decline. The climate is changing so quickly that the *very* systems designed to protect us with early warning signals and organized response teams, even research around these pertinent topics: FEMA, EPA, and more, are being dismantled completely. How will we even know the true impact of what is going on until the years past when we are long and gone? This is not an easy landscape my friends! This is not an easy life. Yes, meanwhile, we have positivity consciousness telling us to “be grateful” and how each one of us can just “put our minds to it” and “have the life of our dreams.”

What is true?

Well, that is a moving target. So that sense for the scammers hunting us every day and the people who want to steal from our trust– well, are they creating a culture of distrust? I would say, “yes.” Now, I’m not laying all this out so that we all come together and agree to just give up. But there is a lot of war going on (in our hearts and on Earth, across nations) and very, very shady, nefarious characters are acting freely from their place of power. So, I must ask you, I must beg you to keep going. Keep finding the reason to LOVE. Keep finding the reason to TRUST. Keep finding the ways to soften your heart–while getting increasingly smart to the real danger that lurks for us. This is a life of survival for ourselves and our families. The values we have fought for need to stay intact. We do not sacrifice our freedoms for anything other than a higher vision. That higher vision must come from our hearts. It must come from the most courageous part within us. It’s the anchor that links us to the very air we breathe. The heart and lungs work in tandem, you know. So be the voice, be the hope. Be the authentic gift of your own life– and give to give. Love to love. You are not alone. I am not alone.

I’m just gonna do the same, okay?

I started a youtube channel and I talk about authenticity. Spoiler: I didn’t come to any conclusions. Go ahead and take a look; feel free to tell me what you think! Thank you 🙂 Do you like the silly poses I get caught in? What are your thoughts on the topics I introduced? Oh, and apparently you have to tell everyone to “like and subscribe” so if you noticed that in everyone else’s youtubes–that’s why I’m doing the same thing. 🙂

Freedom in Love, Love as Freedom

I just finished working with a client in the Entheos energy work that I do, and the moment opened up following it, with the opportunity to do some writing and sharing here. Right now the energy is so strong for liberation, freedom, and unwinding from the trappings of attachment, ego, and that which veils us from the reaches of Spirit. Today Neptune, planet of illusion and tricks of perception, retrogrades at the beginning of Aries, while Venus and Uranus echo a strong conjunction at the last degree of Taurus 29 (anaretic degree)/ beginning of Gemini. Traditionally this Neptune retrograde points to a time when we lift the veil and peer beyond it; seeing our delusions and addictions more clearly. It’s good for people to seek out therapy services and make honest progress towards overcoming their addictions.

On July 7, Uranus will begin its approximately 7 year long stay in Gemini. That same Gemini fueled Uranus will be in trine with Pluto in Aquarius for a while to come. Resultantly there’s much opportunity to change the way we communicate, and to free ourselves from out-dated concepts and constructs of mind. Underneath the labeling of the mind in terms of naming and conventions there exists a more pure consciousness. One without the trappings of past nor other mental overlays of experience, emotion, and memory. This is a very individual, airy dynamic, this “untouched consciousness.” The Taoists called it “Pu” or the uncarved block, to represent a natural, unforced nature of mind.

The pathway forward can be innovative and liberating, as yet unknown. Its roots run deep, as these changes require us to be deliberate and conscious around our choice for liberation. Our actions will have reverberations for a long time to come. Also, it might require several applications of our divine will to progress. Re-focus again and again into our purpose and marking our intention for liberation.

Change brings with it grief, almost always, because we cannot go back to the old ways–they are permanently severed. What matters is how we “choice forward.” There’s a lot of ways that the majority is not getting what it asked for. It doesn’t look at all like the Golden Age nor any new era of awakening. It looks a lot like the “same old,” old power, oligarchy and the governance of the few with the consolidated power at the top. I guarantee you that inside of you is the place and space where all the most profound changes are happening for this new era. Right now that Venus/Uranus conjunction is in a trine (easy flow/quick) energy with Pluto in Aquarius. This is not a simple day for America. It’s not even a simple celebration that you are either evading or celebrating–or captured in between a dynamic of both positions. If you are drawing from history, there’s a lot of inspiration around overcoming of obstacles, around coming up against powerful despots.

Each individual must choose what path to take into the woods that we are being shown. We are indeed in the woods, on our own journeys: separate but together. The only things that separates us is the way we conceive of and respond to the changes that are taking place. If we can really dial into our resourced place, today, and the days moving forward, it will help. Dial into your point of nourishment.

As you awaken with yourself on this path and journey into unknown lands, deep into making decisions you must make along the way, you will be asked to make it very clear to yourself and others: your purpose. Do not shy away from your inner clarity. Your inner clarity will be your guidebook, but it might even startle you at first. Spend some time journaling today and in the next several days around the following prompts:

1). What actions can I take that help me to explore my freedom today? tomorrow?

2). Where am I too sticky and too attached that is keeping me from seeing my options?

3). If I could embody one important value on this planet, what would I choose? How about now? And now?

Sending peace to all; May love always lead your way. May all beings be free from suffering.

Affirmation Saturday for your Aries Vibes

I know that greatness begins in the minds of the great. I know that what I believe about myself is what I will become–so I believe in the best for myself.

I am practical and realistic, and I keep my feet on solid ground. But I also give myself the freedom to live up to my fullest expectations.

I never limit myself by the short-sighted beliefs of others–instead I open myself up to the broad horizons of unlimited possibility.

When someone says I “cannot,” I answer “why not?” When someone says, “It’s impossible,” I answer that nothing is more impossible than I believe it to be. And I truly believe with my individual fortress of faith, with me, anything is possible.

I have drive, spirit, stamina, and endurance. I have a good strong winning attitude about myself and about everything I do. I am practical and realistic, but I also believe in the best possible outcome of any situation.

If I ever had any doubts about myself in the past, today is a good day to put them aside. It’s a good day to throw out any disbelief that ever held me back.

I know that I am headed in the right winning direction, and I look forward and never look back. I have the ability to focus on one thing at a time, so I concentrate my attention on the job at hand–and I get it done!

Today is one of those days when nothing can stand in my way. When I need extra determination, I’ve got it! When I need more energy and drive, I’ve got it! I’ve got the power to get it done and the patience to see it through, no matter what the job or challenge may be.

Right now, even while I am telling myself these truths about me, I know that I can succeed and I am succeeding. At this moment, if I think of any challenge in front of me, I know that I will become even more a winner because of it.

I keep my chin up, my head held high. I look, act, sound, think, and feel like the winner I am! Any-time a problem starts to get me down, I get myself right back up! I tackle problems and I solve them. When frustration or defeat threatens me, I just become that much stronger, more positive, better organized, and more determined than ever!

Right now, today, this very moment, I am capable of giving myself the gift of absolute self-assurance, self-belief, and powerful non-stop confidence in myself.

No matter what it is that requires the very best of me, I can do it and I know I can.

Today is a great day. And I’ve got what it takes. So I choose to do it right, do it well! I choose to live today with joy and love.

I know that it’s all up to me. One hundred percent!–every bit of it. All of it is in how I look at it and what I do about it! That’s what winning is. That’s why I am a winner.

I set my sights. I keep my balance. I don’t hesitate. I don’t hold back! I know that the world is full of opportunities. Look at what I can do; look at where I can go! Look at what I can do just by saying, “Yes!” to myself!

Just look at what I can do today! I am incredible… and today is a great day to show it!

Source: Shad Helmstetter, Ph.D. (1982), from What to Say When You Talk To Your Self.

I want you to know that it doesn’t matter where you start, or where you want to go. What matters is you remove any resistance that you have to reading and believing the above affirmations. You need to see your worthiness, and know that the world needs you. These are the two keys: 1). YOU MATTER 2). The world needs you to be fully in your own power.

If today is the day where you lost all your motivation, then let it drain out of you and commit the first thing in the morning tomorrow. Start making promises to yourself that you keep. Build your rapport with yourself and don’t wait for something ‘outside’ of you to make you feel worthy. No one and nothing can do that for you.

In peace there is confidence. That’s how we rest: we know the good that is on its way because it starts with us.

Rollerskating the Solar Eclipse March 29, 2025

User error had me lose my blog post that I wrote this morning about the upcoming solar eclipse. I selected “yes” to discard my draft. I meant to only discard the picture I posted because I wanted to remove the “location” from the photo for security safety before I posted it. So when I meant to say yes to “discard?,” it was to the photo, and not to the whole post draft (at least to me, but not the computer). Whoops!

That photo will show up later in my post. It’s a good idea, PSA: remove your location from the settings on your pictures before posting them.

So I’m writing (trying) to write the post again. It will be easier to type this on my computer so I will save the draft, now. Before I did that, the issue with updating a photo to my new draft was that the photos screen was no longer working! I deduced that I probably needed to update my jetpack software app on my iphone. This actually worked. Many interruptions, but problem solved. Now, to keep the flow with writing? Haha—

But… Before I could write this post, I also needed to treat a patient in my private practice, and now I want to get this blog post done before my meeting in 40 min. So I will write quickly, but efficiently. (Did I mention that I roller-skated for two hours on Sunday!?) The picture above was from the time I rollerskated before that. I got new skates a few weeks ago! The old Chicago skates were not meant for the serious skater. I went into the store to get a new stopper for the toe tip, and asked about the stability around the plates on the mounting hardware; as a result the woman directed me to buy new skates. I decided since I want to keep my wrists, spine, knees, and all my bones healthy–reduce the chance for falls, I ought to update my skates!

What does this have to do with astrology and the Solar Eclipse in Aries? Well, yes, Aries and mobility: you got that part. But, the first post was more integrated and I helped the reader (YOU!) look back to the following dates:

March 29, 2006

March 29, 1987

These were the last Aries eclipses in the series. This Saturday will be the last in the Aries series until at least 2032. Where is Aries in your chart? You are always welcome to contact me and I can help you look deeper into your personal astrology.

(Honestly the post I wrote before this one was much better) but it was missing the PSA, so I think you know, it’s okay.

For me, the eclipse is going to be taking place in my natal 2nd house of values, earning income and what I claim as mine. For me, it also contains the sign of Pisces, so yes, this aspect of my life has acted like a slippery fish. However, I will say that I am a generous person, very giving and very selfless. In fact this Aries energy has me really eager to meet with my Buddhist class tonight. My Reluctant Shaman group will also be meeting again as I’m starting to get into more and more “group work.” The previous group members all want to do the sessions again, so I will need to pick the date and get started. We have the time figured out that works for us all. Each step at a time.

I’m just gonna move on and share all sorts of stuff from my 5 year old daughter:

She won 2 gold medals this Saturday at her first ever Karate Tournament: She earned it in FORMS and FLAG SPARRING. I’m really proud of her. Also, I can see her personal artist style emerging already! Unlike me (i’ve been an eclectic artist with no real discernible “style,” her style is becoming unmistakeable to me!)

She made this gorgeous mantra box in her meditation class on Sunday–and I photographed it from several angles so you can have a looksie. I see her style in her drawing, coloring, and also in her other artistic media. Her school is really neat and they have a Great Artist event night coming up in April. The student’s grade levels each study an artist who is making social change with their artwork. I’ll share more about her class’s chosen artist to study in the next month or so (hint: She’s Indigenous Australian).

Below is her most recent LEGO creation. She is a genius with following instructions in order to build. This particular set has 3 different things that can be made. Of course the unicorn is the cutest of the 3, so it will probably be showcased for a while before it gets converted into the peacock and the seahorse.

See her box: Please ignore the napkin and the other things I had in my hand. Our lives move so fast, it’s tough enough to capture what I captured! She’s always creating and solving problems. I think it’s lovely there’s a precious mantra inside. “Om Mani ____ ” We don’t know. It’s not OM Mani Padme Om. It’s something else. Oh, it’s “OM ah HUM” which means, “Body, Speech, Mind”

Well, I ran out of time!

Yes, this eclipse is part of the bigness of the Neptune move into Aries bit! You know, that transit will last until 2039. So enjoy! We are definitely living in fast-moving and self-starting times.

How can you motivate yourself this Spring to be with the energy of Aries and also let go of the whole part about the future and all the unknowns? Aries is the fire that gets us moving. Have a great day, week, and apologies for the less than awesome post today–at least for what I wanted to write about astrology. I have a lot to share.

Remember to look at those dates I listed above and spend a wee little bit of time recalling what happened back then for insight into this week and the next 6 months of development.

AUM AH HUM

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Narrative discussion:

This exercise of posting every day with the theme of a Tao Te Ching passage to be revealed at the end of the month… is a lot of fun 🤩

I’m already beginning to come up with a theme for the month of December. Reading blogs and interacting adds a lot to my life. During this time of holiday seasons, being cozy at home stirs my senses with creativity and rest: the perfect combination. I feel so comfortable and at home. I’m nurturing this feeling by being in this space at this time of year. Meanwhile I’m planning book reading from lovely authors I know through blogging as well.

Astrology:

New moon in Scorpio ♏️ is coming up on November 13. It touches exactly our family’s charts, so it’s a pleasure to share as the cosmic growth continues to happen. Mars features strongly and pulling an opposition to Uranus in Taurus ♉️. Uranus is known as the “unpredictable” one, expressly surprises us in ways that can fast-track our path forward and/or toward enlightenment. Jupiter shares the sign Taurus ♉️ during this transit. The energy is all about building and expansion, solidity—and, it’s opposite. We are undergoing deep transformational processes (but I don’t think you need me to tell you that.).

Why astrology? It’s “added.” It’s a bonus way to track your journey. After all, the Earth is flying through the solar system. It’s natural to look out the window and read the signs. Sure, you can do it all with your eyes closed (but that’s just not as much fun!)