Poetry Book 2

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I’ve been working on my second poetry book and so far this is what I’ve discovered:

  • The poems that I’ve written are direct resources to resolving challenges of perspective.
  • The energy in the poems are informing me (and others) about unique gifts.
  • It’s gonna take me a bit longer to publish this book because there’s a lot more work to sort through, process, and; because, my work matters more to myself than it previously did. [i thought that I was only going to write one poetry book ever and then never again]. I didn’t think I had more to give. Alas! 7 years ago was a beginning.
  • I feel like the ‘me’ that I am is showing up more in the heart reflections and observations I share.
  • Since it’s on the list of many more projects and also a lower priority (priority is continued studies and services for others), it’s gonna take a bit longer to complete. But I will do little by little-just like I did with my finger painting above. 👆

That real rainbow (from after our heavy rains on and off) was even more vibrant against a backdrop of heavy gray. Sometimes light just conveys better more unconventionally, organically—without all the extra bells and whistles of editing.

I believe our art ought to create and open worlds, help us ask and answer questions, reveal new avenues for exploration, help heal what’s unresolved transpersonally.

May you enjoy your day however you like!

Thanks for reading, viewing, and being part of things here. We are all moving together. Enjoy your own style and dance steps! Christopher Walken inspires me here to a “move my body Monday.”

** I saw Christopher Walken in a superbowl commercial last night. We happened to have the superbowl available to watch for free, and I used to watch the Steelers all the time when I lived in Pittsburgh. It was so cool to be part of the collective consciousness of that town, btw. Anyways, that choice was great. It was the BEST Super Bowl game I saw in a very long time (and I hadn’t watched any for a long time so that’s not saying much—but my sisters’ family watches football 24/7 and they agreed). It was so FUN, edge of seat fun. 🤩 The team we were rooting for lost, but it was a stellar game: to be talked about for years to come. Lots of unique moments: fumbles, kicks blocked, amazing yardage for kicks, and on and on like the Overtime, “Second game.” It was history-making (just like our weather!).

Bet you didn’t think Art and Football (and poetry) mixes well together! lol 😝 Have a fun day. I seriously needed the light-heartedness. I hope you can enjoy it to, with me. Thanks for being here!

Mars is on the verge of Cojoining Pluto in Aquarius, ♒️ waking us up to our primal masculine awareness. How can the divine masculine show us the way forward at this time?

Yang Wood Dragon

With the recent New Moon we ushered in the Lunar New Year tradition of the next animal to be our inspiration for the year. This year as most of my readers already know is the year of the Wood Yang Dragon. As i work with Traditional East Asian medicine and acupuncture, I am very keen on how to balance the wood element. You can use these acupuncture points to help regulate some of the extra ‘angst’ and tension that comes with the surging forth of life (or the life that tries to push through the blockages and stagnancies created from non-movement). I wish it were as simple as just doing just these two points, but people are complex and it takes time to do a full assessment and intake. For now, may this be helpful and serve you in your year with the Yang Wood Dragon. Sending you all the blessings for an auspicious New Year.

In honor of AQUARIUS

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The New Moon is coming round! But most of my readers already know this. You might not know that it’s pretty much exactly conjunct (at the same point as) my Natal S. Node in my FIRST house of Self Presentation. Haha. Those are just “key words.” Words are little containers of meaning, but they can also get packed in with energy. So the words I’m about to share are my declaration of “in honor.” I will capitalize on my skills from the PAST (S.Node) and how Aquarius features so strongly in our current world: Pluto into Aquarius on Jan 20, then conjoining transiting Mercury, next up is Venus and then Mars. My past skills are needed here. Also, Here’s why I express myself today, for tomorrow and for always:

In honor of my love of chaos, crazy KALI.

I embrace you dark goddess of unpredictability

you turn on a dime, with your full fury or peaceful

enlightment in quiet poise.

and it makes no difference. Who is there really to judge your presence?

For no one really exists.

I honor you brokenness, your hardship, and loss,

and all your irreducible enigmas

that riddle us with great cost.

I honor your presence, your beastly appearance,

I honor your faceless, nameless, force of nature– open tongue agape

I honor you as you ARE: unbridled, rare, unique and unexpected.

SHAMELESS

I honor your wild vapor of ethereal twirling edges folding pages, closing books..

Thank you for your brilliantly misunderstood energies.

Thank you for your grace and enlightment in unseen ways.

I honor what I do not understand, cannot understand, and will never summon to reach…

Thank you, for being Untouchable, unknowable, and a pure deep, dark velvety mystery.

It’s time for me to go meet with my client soon. Thank you for reading, your presence, and your enjoyment of all the things under the sun, including those shadows where the sun doesn’t shine. We want more peace, harmony and light. We have to see things as they truly are. Being in the dark is the way of this life. We are born from the dark, blasting into the light, and then we leave in the dark–with mystery abounding. The dark is our central root, our harpsichord of suffering. To embrace this suffering, with full acknowledgement is the way to inner peace.

Water movin’

Release me

A flat page before me, is not flat. Sometimes I wonder if water runs through more dimensions than the ones we see or science knows about. Water joins worlds in so many ways and certainly changes phases and organizes differently adapting to its container.

Is there anything more marvelous than water? Maybe not.

So we are bucketing out water from our yard today. And we will be doing so, overnight. My life is disrupted but all I can enjoy are these vibrant colors…

My art is my lifeblood. It doesn’t feed me. It doesn’t put food on the table, but it’s the most “me” there is, of substance. Everything else “me” is ethereal and immaterial. I am immersed in you, in everyone. I am a shadow. I am a collection of memories. I am so many things, none of which are substantial. But I aim to be free of the body one day. Until then, I’d like to be happy being in it, moving it freely, enjoying pleasure. That is what my bodied life is here for. So I’m slipping into dimensions that allow me this. I’m opening up my own floodgates to my personal heaven and I’m gonna wash myself in its splendor.

The quickening

Dimensions opening

This one had such a layered sensation to it. I don’t think I finished it, but there is the selfsame experience of imperfect symmetry which is something I love because it mirrors our imperfect faces. The imperfections are so lovable to me.

May we find the love within the process of imperfections allowing us to find the perfection through the openings of dimensions in time, creating space, illuminating purpose and aligning ourselves within our highest light of awareness.

Acclimate

Right now I am writing for my own personal sanity. The extreme weather that the planet is experiencing is not really just “the thing” that we have to adjust to. We just got flooded out in San Diego, getting estimates of 4-7 inches based on geographic area in just a day or several hours. We usually get approximately a little over 10 inches a year. My “newer” old house is not only not designed to weather, it’s also in a location that is prone to getting all the run-off, and no where for it to go. There’s supposed to be another atmospheric river next week, and it’s forecasted to have a greater impact than the water we just had–which was the 4th wettest since the 1850s. That said, the forecast shows rain for 7 days in a row. So, I’m not even sure what to expect. Last season we fled before the hurricane, which turned out to be “nothing.” This most recent event, as far as we knew, was going to bring “rain” but we didn’t know the amounts–so it really did catch so many off-guard. The disclosures when we bought our house were less than honest. Some people are borderline crooks. Some people really are crooks. I think, in good faith, no one really expected the weather to change–even though CLIMATE CHANGE IS OBVIOUS.

That said, I am an optimistic person, and I always write about hope. I wasn’t always optimistic; yet, this isn’t just optimism. this is commitment and crawl-out-of-my-own-shallow-grave determination. I will not let anything else nor anyone else get the best of me. I spent 43 years doing that. I’m done.

Our society is capitalist. Wow, we all know the problems of capitalism–the push for non-stop growth. As a matter of fact, I am currently in the process of forming a corporation (at the most insecure time, i might add) because I have a vision. I have a vision for peoples’ health. I have a vision for helping more actual health-care providers to actually do their work and inspire others through options. This is not an easy task. My birth wasn’t an easy task. Although, my mom did tell me that the doctor kissed her after I was born and said, “you must be very blessed.” I’m not sure why the doctor did it. Maybe because I was the 4th kid. Maybe I came out easy. Maybe there was a look in my eye. Maybe there was a look in my mom’s eye. 

I need to survive. I need to make money.

We all do.

Not only do we need to make money, but we need time and support to acclimate in the most rigorously changing circumstances. Infrastructures need to be reconfigured. Oh heck, even the soil needs to adapt. Adaptation, well, you know what? It takes some time. At least a little bit of time? Where does the water go when the water table is already high?

People in San Diego joke about how San Diegans are weenies because they can’t “handle the rain.” Well, isnt’ that insensitive? I’m from Pennsylvania; I can tell you that the rain here is different. The Earth is different. The land is different. It cannot handle extreme changes, when it’s been a temperate, and stable place. The infrastructure (the people-made stuff) is designed for another climate. My house already had issues that weren’t resolved. The house was built in 1937– it’s the oldest one around. But, it does get all the run-off; and then that will affect the others, too. I managed to prevent that earlier this week by insisting my husband go get a sump pump and also being in touch with my neighbors. I recruited as much help as I could find, and i told him to also. We are still not out of the “flood.” This el nino was something I watched and anticipated. I tried to alert my family and friends that we need some assistance.

I’m not an idiot.

People need help. That’s why i work so hard to be resource for others. I work so hard to be a resource, and then I have to work even harder to earn trust. It’s an endless process. Why? Because we are tragically human.

Happy FULL MOON in LEO. Here this LEO ROAR. I will not give in nor give up. More poetry to come, more art… more of everything. If our systems and infrastructures could give us more “space” and “time” to acclimate instead of the mad rush leaving us no option than to just “survive,” we need to make the space, we need to create the options. That is my goal and agenda. I’m not here just for me.

Thunderous tears

water falls from the sky

tired of holding back,

release me from this cloud.

she snakes onto the ground

finding surfaces that take her downhill

slipping at moments, running fast

she gets stuck along the way;

pooled up, tears surround her.

the ground gets so heavy; it’s so wet.

how can she hold back anymore?

there’s no where to go..

she’s the farthest downhill she can go

she’s at the bottom.

The bottom’s bottom.

How unique are we really?

Humans are so incredible. On one level each one of us is so unique with fingerprints that are like snowflakes; if we look closer even, I’m sure the tiny, fibrous patterns of the iris of the eye reflects the distinctive light with respect to its unique balance of melanocytes to its surface dips, pits, and ridges. Or consider all the unfathomable possible variations in size and shape between each person’s stapedius, the muscle slightly larger than a millimeter that mobilizes the stapes, the smallest bone in the human body, if your measurements are small enough.

But, emotions? Mental chatter? Self-doubt, anger… We all have these components. Most of us have these components in different ratios, but the formula for provocation is usually the same. There is a trigger. There is a feeling that’s coated with a thick (or thin) layer that reflects an experience from the past. If the observer believes it still, it gets looped 🔁 around again. That false narrative attaches to similar thoughts and beliefs which can become a spiral.

We are mostly the same. We have families, friends, structures. So many of us even live in group think. There are collectives and factions and the tendency to group together and congregate is also what makes us similar, or work to together collectively. Then again, lots of us are separators, runners, and hiders. We cannot trust that even in our closest affiliations with others that they are loyal, trustworthy, or just.

The way that we are complex and dynamic is often similar, which is why we are—in the end—simple creatures.

Meanwhile, the depth of character and richness of experiences makes us, each one of us, as a song played only ever once. That which will never be repeated in all of history and into the future of all the worlds.

That makes this moment, this very, very moment: very, very precious. Who you are is you who is looking out, watching the expandingly infinite universe continue to grow into ever-forming eccentricities of new variation, all connected to the same consciousness. 💗

Trailblazers

who are we to feel small

when god herself is the silver lining behind our

identities

who are we to tremble

when we hold the only answer to the question

that really matters

in our hearts

who are we to hide inside the fabric of our overwhelm

when every step forward we take is

pure magic

contributing to the collective

in ways yet unknown

**Big days are here. We have Pluto moving into Aquarius and the Sun in just a couple of days within each other. Followed by the full moon in Leo on the 25th! I’ve been recently in touch with so many founders, visionaries, leaders, quiet friends who have found that gentleness towards the end of their journey where their contributions have been, indeed, immense. I am in awe to even be able to have the audience seat I get in this life. I’m moving closer and closer to the front and center ability to “observe.” There is nothing but joy. It doesn’t mean that politics is OK. It doesn’t mean that there isn’t destruction to the Earth. It’s not ears closed, eyes shut yelling happily “lalala.” It’s bonafide peace. It’s the place that exists if you just choose to focus on it, hitch to your star, anchor to the ground, and then just GOOOOOOOOooooooooo DOOoooo it! Make it real.

Building the new structures

Ka Malana Photography 2024

Hello loves and friends,

Construction 🚧 and art 🖼️, design and building. Here we make things from the “brick and mortar” of our imaginations. Putting out fires 🔥 and riding on trains. The city is always bustling just like the movement in our brains.

If you are new to my blog you will find many different displays. What I do know is that you will not be dismayed. Creativity is fuel for the soul!

This space is being constructed as we think and speak! 🗣️ Come, come, and join us!

Alignments

2024 New Moon Schedule

  • New Moon in Capricorn – Thursday, January 11 at 6:57 a.m. EST
  • New Moon in Aquarius – Friday, February 9 at 5:59 p.m. EST
  • New Moon in Pisces – Sunday, March 10 at 4:00 a.m. EST
  • New Moon Solar Eclipse in Aries – Monday, April 8 at 1:20 p.m. EST
  • New Moon in Taurus – Tuesday, May 7 at 10:22 p.m. EST
  • New Moon in Gemini – Thursday, June 6 at 7:37 a.m. EST
  • New Moon in Cancer – Friday, July 5 at 5:57 p.m. EST
  • New Moon in Leo – Sunday, August 4 at 6:12 a.m. EST
  • New Moon in Virgo – Monday, September 2 at 8:55 p.m. EST
  • New Moon Solar Eclipse in Libra – Wednesday, October 2 at 1:49 p.m. EST
  • New Moon in Scorpio – Friday, November 1 at 7:46 a.m. EST
  • New Moon in Sagittarius – Sunday, December 1 at 1:21 a.m. EST
  • New Moon in Capricorn – Monday, December 30 at 5:27 p.m. EST (source: women’shealthmagazine)

In my shamanic work apprenticeship, I have a process where I work with, meet and develop relationships with new teachers all the time. I have been doing this informally for all of my life before I joined into structures already created by other humans. Overall, some of my teachers are in the flesh, but many of my teachers are plant spirits–in fact, for every single human teacher I have, I have probably 10x as many plant teachers. I’ve had a lot of human teachers over the years. One day I think about making a list of all of them. It’s overwhelming to be honest. Hah! However, the plant allies are not overwhelming at all. They can easily be missed without recognition. Which is why it takes careful attention and cultivation of the observation aspect of consciousness. We are awareness.

I’ve attached these New Moon dates for your convenience. It’s a snapshot of the year. For the solar calendar and the Western world, the New Moon with most relevance is the one at the start of the year, January. However, for the lunar calendar focus of the cultures of the East, the first moon of relevance for predictive and preparation purposes, is the moon in February. This is in the sign of Aquarius. I find this to be very significant because of the role that Aquarius is playing in the dawning of our new age. Pluto is moving into Aquarius this month, with certainty. There is no doubt about that prognostication. It is more than a “weather” event. It is a description of a galactic clock. While we observe from Earth, our observations are still further based from the energy of the Sun, and extending beyond that. It’s a very small world that we ever get to “see.” Scientists are now currently discovering newer and newer galaxies, thanks to the James Webb Space Telescope.

The Beginning.

New moon is dressed in rags to riches

it’s a new style you wouldn’t know it

It’s called “look here now”

and see that you have everything, already

All you simply need is to BE it.

Hello Friends, Happy New Moon in Capricorn!

I had been sick–this had slowed things down, which was really necessary, because my world of contacts with other people is currently exploding; and the work I have to do with working on my business is growing incredibly. So, my agenda is filled, while conveniently giving me some room to “breathe.” I am delighted to have my business moving at this incredible and dimensions-wide pace, but it does require some calibrating, some balancing. For those of you who already follow astrology, I don’t need to tell you that it’s a big month. The biggest move is Pluto dipping back into Aquarius — my rising Sign, and S. Node. This is a collective shift for all of us. Be a beacon of light.

Stay tuned. Things are going to get very, interesting. I’m working on another site, branding, website construction and gonna build a “HUB” for all that is to come. It will be my own home from home. I’m thinking of linking this blog to it, but I’m not altogether sure I want to merge the worlds. Let’s see what happens! I’m so pleased with all the comments on my last blog post about the unread letters. I want to spend time and connect with each of those responses.

For me, the letters will be coming back around (I am conveniently busy and full to the brim but I know when the time opens, they will be gently and lovingly read). For now, let me leave you with softness.

May your heart feel soft and nourished. Talk to you again very soon!

A wonder; those letters

This is more of a “coffee chat” blog post. Although I have not tried to write in that style per se. There’s a blog share that I often read with the topic of the “coffee chat” but I’ve never tracked back to who hosts it. Well, it’s not the time to do that now because I’m just flowing…

Tonight it occurred to me that I have a pile of letters that I wrote to my grandmother while I was growing up. In 2020 when she passed away at the age of 99, and maybe a year later, I received the letters back.

I put them inside of a drawer without a deeper thought than, “woah” as I bumped up against versions of my former self I wasn’t quite ready to visit, yet.

When the time is right, I’ll know. But it’s been at least over a year since I actually put the letters away in a drawer. Those juicy memories might all come flooding back. There might be uncomfortable memories…too…

And, then, there’s gonna be just a lot of emotions. So I am on ‘pause’ with it.

Has this ever happened to any of you? It feels like a treat, or a special pastry I’ll be able to enjoy at some point in my future once I get over whatever fears of triggered memories might be inside—or maybe just missing her and the past, and getting those strange glimpses into the past through a time capsule I hadn’t planned on stowing away for later opening? Sigh. When the time is right.

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Astrological pairing:

Universal: Mercury (planet of communication) stationing Direct

Personal: Mercury is Stationing Direct in my 1st house (4 house from my 10th house —father’s mother), conjoining my natal Neptune, which is currently still transiting my 1st house (which relates back to paternal grandmother). The fact that it’s in Pisces ♓️ shares a little bit about dreams and ideals, and maybe I just convinced myself to get to reading those letters sooner than later. Or start with one a week or something, so I don’t get overwhelmed (Pisces). Natal Neptune is in Sagittarius, so it’s likely I will be inspired by the letters and the topic will probably be about traveling the most of all.

Collaboration

One of the most fun aspects of parenting is sharing the joys of color and movement with new/emerging artists. Art is so inherent to all of us.

I doodled a drawing ✍️ and my daughter saw it and got really excited because she wanted to color it in. So she did.

Today is New Year’s Eve and freshly cut flowers are on the table that I wanted her to pick out. We are on our way to our church and appreciating the foggy 🌫️ and rainy day which is a unique occurrence in our sunny home city. 🌆. New beginnings are so exciting. Especially because we also begin ‘again’ at the Lunar New Year 🧧 where we will be welcoming the Fire 🔥 Dragon 🐉. I’ll be running a class at that time, called “Reluctant Shaman.” It’s meant to be a small group, so the spots are full for this iteration. If you are interested in joining, use the contact form and I will add you to a wait list which is approximately 7-8 weeks from now.

Let me use this moment to ask you about your small, perhaps unnoticed collaborations. You might be working with roommates, family members, or even pets. If there are none of these friends to buddy-up with around, then maybe you can invite in a spiritual guide.

Wouldn’t you like to collaborate more in the New Year? Here are some thoughts for your consideration.

1). Name one of your favorite flowers.

2). Go to the internet (this one should be easy) and look up as many different images of your favorite flower.

3). Either go clip your flower from outside after asking it permission. Or, go to the grocery store to purchase your favorite flower. If neither of these options are available, then just look at the image of your favorite flower and IMAGINE the smell.

4). After you have done this, write a little note to the person who you would like to collaborate with. Tell them they are a great friend, sibling, roommate, and list one quality you love about them. Then if it’s not a real, in-flesh person, put the note next to your nightstand, and sleep with it near you for 31 days.

Happy NYE!!

P.S. Even if you did none of the above things, still check back later to see if your seed planted and it might even take root simply with your focused desire while reading. ☺️