Right now I am writing for my own personal sanity. The extreme weather that the planet is experiencing is not really just “the thing” that we have to adjust to. We just got flooded out in San Diego, getting estimates of 4-7 inches based on geographic area in just a day or several hours. We usually get approximately a little over 10 inches a year. My “newer” old house is not only not designed to weather, it’s also in a location that is prone to getting all the run-off, and no where for it to go. There’s supposed to be another atmospheric river next week, and it’s forecasted to have a greater impact than the water we just had–which was the 4th wettest since the 1850s. That said, the forecast shows rain for 7 days in a row. So, I’m not even sure what to expect. Last season we fled before the hurricane, which turned out to be “nothing.” This most recent event, as far as we knew, was going to bring “rain” but we didn’t know the amounts–so it really did catch so many off-guard. The disclosures when we bought our house were less than honest. Some people are borderline crooks. Some people really are crooks. I think, in good faith, no one really expected the weather to change–even though CLIMATE CHANGE IS OBVIOUS.
That said, I am an optimistic person, and I always write about hope. I wasn’t always optimistic; yet, this isn’t just optimism. this is commitment and crawl-out-of-my-own-shallow-grave determination. I will not let anything else nor anyone else get the best of me. I spent 43 years doing that. I’m done.
Our society is capitalist. Wow, we all know the problems of capitalism–the push for non-stop growth. As a matter of fact, I am currently in the process of forming a corporation (at the most insecure time, i might add) because I have a vision. I have a vision for peoples’ health. I have a vision for helping more actual health-care providers to actually do their work and inspire others through options. This is not an easy task. My birth wasn’t an easy task. Although, my mom did tell me that the doctor kissed her after I was born and said, “you must be very blessed.” I’m not sure why the doctor did it. Maybe because I was the 4th kid. Maybe I came out easy. Maybe there was a look in my eye. Maybe there was a look in my mom’s eye.
I need to survive. I need to make money.
We all do.
Not only do we need to make money, but we need time and support to acclimate in the most rigorously changing circumstances. Infrastructures need to be reconfigured. Oh heck, even the soil needs to adapt. Adaptation, well, you know what? It takes some time. At least a little bit of time? Where does the water go when the water table is already high?
People in San Diego joke about how San Diegans are weenies because they can’t “handle the rain.” Well, isnt’ that insensitive? I’m from Pennsylvania; I can tell you that the rain here is different. The Earth is different. The land is different. It cannot handle extreme changes, when it’s been a temperate, and stable place. The infrastructure (the people-made stuff) is designed for another climate. My house already had issues that weren’t resolved. The house was built in 1937– it’s the oldest one around. But, it does get all the run-off; and then that will affect the others, too. I managed to prevent that earlier this week by insisting my husband go get a sump pump and also being in touch with my neighbors. I recruited as much help as I could find, and i told him to also. We are still not out of the “flood.” This el nino was something I watched and anticipated. I tried to alert my family and friends that we need some assistance.
I’m not an idiot.
People need help. That’s why i work so hard to be resource for others. I work so hard to be a resource, and then I have to work even harder to earn trust. It’s an endless process. Why? Because we are tragically human.
Happy FULL MOON in LEO. Here this LEO ROAR. I will not give in nor give up. More poetry to come, more art… more of everything. If our systems and infrastructures could give us more “space” and “time” to acclimate instead of the mad rush leaving us no option than to just “survive,” we need to make the space, we need to create the options. That is my goal and agenda. I’m not here just for me.
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