Cardinal Courage

This Aries Full Moon has a grand cross formation involving an opposition between Mars and Pluto. Slicing through this grand cross (square) of conflicting pattern is also the opposition of Venus in Scorpio and Uranus in Taurus. These areas of life (based on individual charts) are causes for either a lot of effort and focus, intense creativity and courage, or some level of frustration— even possibly breakthrough can result. The pattern is cardinal which means it has direction. The cardinal signs are Aries, Libra, Cancer and Capricorn and bring in the new energies of the equinoxes and the solstices. They are signs that point the way forward as the wheel turns.

Life goes on. I read a wonderful quote by Robert Frost, “In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.”

So we are at crossroads and impasses which are more or less one and the same. The outer experience of the world is unfulfilling as it is designed to be. The pursuit for happiness or contentment does not belong in the external landscapes of appearances.

Sun is trine to Jupiter with Moon sextile Jupiter which can show us the bigger picture. For me, I’ve gotten more spiritually aspirational and my disciplines and practices have benefited from my renewed vision.

I can thank Jupiter and prayer for the levity that has entered from the inside. It’s a functional levity and anchored to the awareness of impermanence.

If you should find yourself inspired or frustrated during this full moon general time, you can wait it out, or ride it out. Either way, even a very rigid pattern in the consciousness of being “stuck” or being focused doesn’t last long. If you have the focus and the energy, enjoy the flow—if you feel constrained, it will pass.

It’s a good set of days to journal on your motivations and reflect on what exactly inspires courage in you to face all the unknowns of regular life.

Have a full moon with wonder! Or have a wonderful, full moon! Enjoy being alive to live and to thrive, or just wait it out.

Briefly at home again

Meditation opened the gate

to the return to my reset’s fate.

Back on path with Kadampa,

Buddhist leanings into investigation

Karma full and vibrant

No hesitation

Understanding emptiness in a new light.

Formless awareness is my true sight and

condition. We are all in its fruition.

The illusions of mind are not the object

We project the all in our call for freedom.

This me is seen from another perspective

leaving behind the desire’s reflective.

The inside investigation is lit again.

As time measures space for moonlight

and friends. We are on our way to peace.

Reset Button – astrology for Oct 2 Libra Eclipse

Realistically, there’s a lot of good in this chart. Perhaps we can see it if we look: You see those blue lines. They usually mean “favorable” positions. What determines that is they are sextiles or trine aspects. That means in geometric terms: 60 or 12o degree relationships between the two bodies in question (usually planets, but could be asteroids, or even signs, or mathematical abstractions with meaning).

So astrology is 2-D. But we can learn a lot from a drawing or a painting. The planetary bodies have made us this drawing in the canopy above us.

The red is the challenging aspect that involves the planet Mars (in Cancer). We might be even more dialed into family, heritage and home right now. Some family might need extra support. Conflicts can arise or better yet, energy with the Mars (go get it) for the sake of caring and nurturing issues close to home, close to our hearts.

I’ll be flighting tomorrow morning to Mexico and will be in Playa Del Carmen for a special retreat. I look forward to “seeing” you all when I get back. I might even post while I’m gone. I will have more time to think and BE. Either way, creativity will have room to flow. I will be in alignment with more of my own energy.

So, that’s how I’m enjoying my “reset button.” Eclipse energy is usually active for several months. Enjoy the potential!

Love and Light to you!

She is my sunshine and my rain

“Bunny corn” By little K.

When love struggles

heart breaks.

echos from the past try to

flourish in new patterns

swirly emotional loudness

We do our best to

soften, gentle, ease

reminders that “never” is

really rarely ever,

true.

We did all our healing before

and somehow

there’s still more

Because life is more brilliant

than we know.

As any casualty will show

the angel points to your heart

asks you if you are

attentive to

what is not a circumstance,

is your reaction to one.

Breathe in the sounds of peace

as it’s your job to make it

be free: that mind.

measure your thoughts

against accuracy

and be obedient to your

soul’s acceptance

for love comes in forms

that marry us to the stars

forever hopeful

gazing,

And knowing

That whatever outcome may,

you gave all of your heart.

She said

“you poured all your heart into me.”

And she is right.

That is how beauty made you,

and will continue to.

Anaretic Degree

The Pisces Lunar Eclipse is coming in. You may have noticed. You may not have. Some of us are aloof to the feels and the nebulously non-anchoring energy that is the long-term Piscean swim through the cerulean cosmic consciousness, plunged into the pitch-black depths of an unknown watery terrain. The laws of physics apply differently than on land; gravity is experienced with resistance to the water molecules; we float. Density has its form and function in the water, and we are merging with the element that contains 70-80% of our innards. The word that comes to mind for me in its complete unadulterated fullness is surrender. The oxymoron here is that surrender is when you come up empty, and yet it is pregnant with the only next steps available to take.

There’s a caveat.

Surrender is not something you “will” like an Aries wish made to form (Taurus). Surrender is the experience of weakened knees, utter exhaustion, of hand’s up -white flag-mercy-praying-allowance. “Guide me, oh Spirit of thy savior.” Pisces represents the compete collapse of structure, program, direction, and it uses the narrative of redemption for hope as it moves into the full depth of that Pisces spiritual self-undoing. What Self? Who is there to cling to this rock? I have no hands. My grip is lost. There is no me.

Neptune is the modern ruler of Pisces, and she has been transiting her domicile of Pisces. Her full cycle transit takes 164 years! And, this is where the anaretic degree comes in. It’s a big word for: The end of the sign (29 Degrees Pisces). The end of Neptune’s transit in Pisces. Neptune entered Pisces April 4, 2011. We are harkening back to this time. This was within a month of when I began my blog here. It was intended to be mostly about astrology and spirituality. I did diverge, of course! Can you remember this time in your life? What was your focus?

When we talk about surrendering to love, it feels different, than losing, right? It is the same. We lose what we gain. We gain what we lose. This is the end that is the beginning.

This lunar eclipse features forward the inauguration of the next set of eclipse series of the Pisces and Virgo axis. Neptune won’t be entering into Aries until 2025, but this eclipse is meant to give you a whiff of what is to come. As they say, and I believe it is true: all endings are new beginnings. We might still be in the dark, yet. That’s a special place to be. What people neglect to realize is the “rest” that comes with “release.” Surrender is a way forward, but it must not be utilitzed as that in its full glory, or you will miss the gift inside its package. Surrender is the way out, the way in, and the way through. It is all that is left, but only when we are authentically empty--in order that we may be filled with the new.

I hope you can take a moment in gratitude, for all the pain and suffering in your life and in your lives that is on its way out. I hope you can remember to pray to your God/Goddess inside. For beyond words and illusions, beyond the pointings of spiritual masters, beyond even “good health, wealth, and mirth” is a calling to your soul. It is the only way to get to the redemption. The redemption that only you can supply.

May this full moon be like walking with your hand being held by the creator. May you feel the embrace of love and support, as you grapple with truth and surrender as your only anchors in an anchorless time. May you look to the light of the stars, and feel your feet on the ground. Praise your feet for their walking, your shoes for the supporting. This next age of Neptune in Aries, will help you with your warrior’s sword. The Spiritual Warrior awakens. The truth within be reclaimed.

“After tragedies, one has to invent a new world, knit it or embroider, make it up. It’s not gonna be given to you because you deserve it; it doesn’t work that way. You have to imagine something that doesn’t exist and dig a cave into the future and demand space. It’s a territorial hope affair. At the time, that digging is utopian, but in the future, it will become your reality.”

~Björk

What does love say?

What does love say when

the glass heart shatters

inside its fragile frame,

collapses

energy,

so tired from

holding on

to hollow spaces,

and angular wages

awaiting love’s return?

What does love say when the release

valve on the instapot pops

open because the pressures inside are

making diamonds from

charred wishes

that were soaked in red wine, then burned?

What does love say when ears

are too sensitive to sound, tears

burn the face

heat boils the blood,

white light at night

blinds the sight,

starving sleep?

What does love say, when the last

breath is waiting on the verge of

a biopsy’s precipice, and the

colors are always strange

because weirdness is

a non-stop and confusing limitation,

blocking any straightforward and

sensible path?

What does love say about

the absurdity of a peculiar

dystopia where entertainment

is valued higher than peace and

slowing down, and just the matrix has become

too much to bear?

What does love say about a world with

fleeting love?

Keep going, make more, hold on.

Breathe.

Airport

Checked in and

reading my newest, favorite book

It’s like carving a block,

which I also find pleasurable.

Sculpting, extracting the plot page by page

I chip away through to Chapter 3

It Ends With Us

I want to savor it, pass the time with

My indulgence of this

Bloody Mary: it’s really the olives and celery, healthy tomato spicy-salted vibes, soaked with Cutwater vodka,

Lemon and lime:

a wino’s salad.

But there is a legacy here, a history: Ballast Point

They created this Cutwater vodka

I used their bathroom last week!

another story for another poem. very regional.

Gelato store didn’t have a loo.

This was my introduction.

But I digress from here, as I’m about to fly.

I’m reading

about the cute, homeless man-teenager

that the protagonist

Takes Pity on, and herself so young, she

lusts.

Maybe it’s the curiosity and the mystery

Surrounding the circumstances

people find themselves in.

Him, a high school senior, homeless.

the boy with the husky-blue eyes,

worthy of being in a book.

She, an observer…

In the distance, I see

planes taxi in while others taxi to runway

I share the bar with other travelers,

Other Bloody Marys, and Espresso Martini twins. 2 sets. That’s 4 Espresso Martinis on the bar block.

It’s how people inspire one another. Get an idea,

and Relax.

A woman with a 5 year old

lost her ID and they wanted her to come in

4 hours early.

Patience for a 5 year old, is cultivated..

not natural.

There’s a code with travelers,

It’s unspoken.

But we do speak.

Our words carry more when we know—

“I will never see you again”

It’s the edge we are living on,

Like the seats.

As I brace my hip on the stool,

Protecting my back,

wanting to be more able to travel to exotic

locales in the future, like I once did.

Cuba. Was a surprise, but I’m so far from

that now. From Castro, from my 20s. From contemplating

Afghanistan. What a mess.

Los Angeles is my destination; and I know

Why it’s the City of Angles now…

Because it waits for us to fall.

An urban jungle of scavengers tangled with celebrity, sneaky seagulls, and azure sky.

This is where

The Homeless and the Home-Excessive

“Co-exist.”

There’s another plot here,

if you imagine it,

Taking off like a plane…

It eventually swims with the clouds,

glares with the mist of the light and sun.

If you have the window seat,

Which I do not.

It’s a short flight, and I have my book.

Books create worlds within worlds

We are both “here and there.” Mind’s resplendent, transcendent ability

to shift into multi-dimensional drive

at any time. No road or signals needed.

Airports are bustling cities, built for serendipity, for the observations of passers by

from the stationary. A contrast of moves and stays.

This is why airports are filled with both amusement,

and potential,

fleeting frustrations and happenstance.

Sleepers and baggage wheels,

Silence and suffering children.

A unique slice of humanity is the

Airport experience.

Boredom and Business mix.

Electronics and mindfulness, stretching, running.

Just get there on time.

Cultivating Gentleness

As we gather in awareness and build our

clarity, sometimes we come up against

edges. That’s part of our evolution and not to be avoided.

Learning how to tend to them, softening

Allowing, nourishing the central channel,

We begin to find a new experience can be felt

beside the harshness at first, just beside, doing nothing and changing nothing.

slowly and patiently we sit with the harshness

along the edge holding it with curiosity, allowing it to feel.

As we do, we gain more insights and clarity and then we can

Slowly and patiently invite in the softness.

How soft can we become when we are so in need of it?

The softness

that is strength

because it CAN

yield,

is the real

Eye opener.

💗

These words were wanting to be shared with you.

Free to be optimistic Astrology

Are you “into astrology” but tired of hearing the doom and gloom of “intensity” and “watch out for this or that” ?! Are you shamelessly optimistic even if you just spent time being fearful and retracting and reaching out for your stuffie or best friend support animal? Are you soft and empathic and just want everyone to get along already?

Then, you my friends have what I call a fighting spirit (Mars/Uranus). You refuse to give up on peace and positivity no matter how dark and gloomy the forecast.

It’s precisely what you need in this day and age.

It’s about courage to rise up in the face of your own fears, again and again. You will have a unique opportunity to do this in full vibrancy with the full moon in Aquarius.

You already know what to look out for. You live in this world and you feel the energies. So what is left to say after that?

You have unique opportunities during this Aquarius new moon to discover and reveal what is unique about you, and your community.

The Sun (conjunct retrograde Mercury in Leo) and Moon (in Aquarius) is in opposition. This is literally the definition of a full moon—-fully visible, fully illuminated.

The full moon is squaring Uranus: the Prometheus of the zodiac. What is uniquely lights you up? If you were to steal the fire from the Gods, just what would you do with it? Would you share it with the many? How?

How do you find the energy to express yourself in this world? Is it savoring nature, being fully in your own energy? Is it fraternizing with friends and loved ones? Do you feel lit up by your family? Does making art or writing poetry help you keep your inner lights on? What if you just love making brine, cooking exotic stews, or brewing tea leaves from your garden? What if you love words games or networking or going to the grocery store?

What is it you like to do that gives you energy? Watch Netflix? Maybe it does give you energy? What’s the show about?

With this Mars/Uranus conjunction in square aspect to the Saturn in Pisces and Venus in Virgo: Most of us are having trouble staying or keeping organized. Keeping up the day to day basics (Virgo) in a deliberate and orderly fashion. Processing speeds from life events and weather changes, system changes and upgrades are stressing existing systems. The formation of our lives is, for all of us, “under construction.” 🚧 Earth is out of order but still flushing.

There might be more frustration and surprises requiring for more and more adaptations, this is all old hat now. This is the new normal: extremes.

So, underneath the struggle, do you see yourself getting stronger, smarter? Can you admit that even though you have felt at wits end so many times, somehow you just keep going, going and maybe resting, taking breaks or experiencing small adjustments. Meanwhile you are waiting for real change and breakthrough in certain areas. What does progress even mean to you, personally? Have you put your values on paper in words lately? This is a good time to be uniquely focused on that.

This full moon is revealing to you where you are ready to reach and become your next version of yourself, of your human life expression. This full moon is revealing the ways in which you can uniquely motivate yourself to liberate and ‘be and bask in the acceptance’ of what it means to be you—you as an ever-evolving , ever-interconnected being, one with the Earth, one with the stars. One with your ego, your ups and downs, your knows and unknowns. All. Of. It.

This full moon is the time for remarkable acceptance and equanimity with “what is” as a dynamic and ever-revealing process.

Tomorrow is not guaranteed, so today you will make the most of your small moments, embrace your uniqueness, love your discomforts as you allow your metamorphosis to continue taking shape, meeting more like-minded friends and allies along the way. Your community is you. You can see it now. You can see your shifts and the community’s shifts are one. You are able to see outside of the matrix and choose to focus your attention on what really is here to speak to you, turning away from all other messages around conformity or pressure/struggle. It is time to develop your optimism, to actively cultivate it. It is time to focus your attention on what you can see is the world you can work to create. It starts with you. It starts with us. And, we can hold hands doing it, too. Kindness. support. gentle encouragement.

Chanting the world into being, where freedom and peace co-exist and co-mingle—where we can accept ourselves as we are *while* we strive for more. We can tune ourselves to this frequency and feel into it when we are out of alignment. We have choice. Time to exercise it.

Happy Aquarius Full Moon!

Make this a life to go optimistically mad about. Use your force, energy and power for the good, for the collective and most importantly for your own state of mind.

Mechanic

Sometimes I feel like a mechanic

for random things.

Ever attentive to the function,

movement of

Devices, finding out how you, or ‘that thing’ works

Observant and experimental

I shake only gently if I must

Powering on and off is easy for my handle

I do it with my identity all the time

There’s not much I’m attached to in a sticky way

I’m sort of “wait and see” and allow and watch.

I ask “what small thing can I do to encourage?”

Using the trimtab of Buckminster Fuller

I make a little tweak to this thought or that thought. I say a sentence on a page, or I give my orchid a trickle of water.

Never overwhelm her.

I shimmy the device without breaking it, bringing gentle energy into my palms

and letting it flow.

Dear broken things,

Let me be your whisperer

I can hear you when you talk in silent digital

data.

I know how to pulse you, and when to push and grind, like my vitamix I work with raw matter

tasting along the way.

Mechanics don’t taste, 👅 doctors used to.

But we can smell a leak and test if it’s water or something worse.

We know how to patch things up, and reboot computers. We understand simple pulleys and levers.

We invented the wheel.

Solstice and Full Moon

Hello lovely Spirits,

The full moon is in Capricorn (with the Sun in Capricorn and Moon in Cancer) squaring Neptune. It is this reason that I am advising to listen to whale song on Spotify. There are ancient mysteries and deep roots to be cultivated from the wisdom of the whales.

The surface as what is “shown” in the world, will never be more than the tip of the iceberg—A proverbial truth!

Dive deep also into this oracle card reading with Wombat Spirit. “Be at home.”

From Colette Baron-Reid

“Burrowing deep into the ground, remaining safe, sound, and well-fed with family, is a special trait of the wombat. Home sweet home is always available if you recognize that well-being is the truth of life. Wombat Spirit reminds you that to be truly at home in the world” [Capricorn], “you need to find comfort within your own skin. You do this by accepting all your experience without judgement, through a deep honesty and love of life. When you feel the freedom to be yourself, you can begin to truly feel at home in your life, with your family and tribe. Right now you’re in a beautiful place where you can hang up the coat of your identity and settle in to a true sense of home and well-being, understanding that all is well. Everything you do from this place rings true in harmony with Spirit.”

Protection Message, “Could it be that you are not feeling comfortable in your own skin, thinking that the only way you can be with others is to hide under the protection of a mask or identity you created to protect yourself from getting hurt? This mask or persona is supported to make you look strong, but it really just robs you of your integrity. Wombat Spirit arrives to nudge you to drop the false masks because it is not others who will hurt you now. It is you who are hurting yourslf when you aren’t being authentic.

It’s okay, though; you can course-correct if you are willing to be yourself no matter what comes. Even if others are not in agreement with your authenticity, you are safe with Spirit.”

Above ends the words from Colete Baron-Reid about her card I drew.

What speaks to me this day is the energy of ego surrender. I’m feeling it really strongly. It’s crunchy; it’s challenging. The discomfort manifests in different ways as I watch and observe it.

Nevertheless, I feel like it is the good work. As I settle into my experience, allowing it full expression unto myself, I am filled with a sense of gratitude for another up-leveling and uplifting of my consciousness. May you find that peace in your own skin, as you work with your own caring desires and heart-felt allegiances.

A client had lost a dear pet recently, and the grieving is real. You can see it manifest in the body as we gently heal and allow the grief to be present. Let us offer energetic support and space for the moving of the soul.

Please be tender and kind with yourselves. This is a reminder I give myself as well.

Not June, maybe Fall?

Seahorse for you 💕🪷✨

I did a quick sketch of a seahorse as an interlude to my hectic day, as I have less time than I thought I would at this time.

Each domain of my life where I started something (which is many) is expanding and that has meant that I’m having trouble getting to the blog.

This blog has been my great love since 2011 so it’s not going to disappear, but I have to accept the fact that, some things just get put aside until there’s energy and focus time that is appropriate for them.

I hope everyone is having a marvelous summer.

I leave you with a contemplation on seahorse. I noted that the commentary I am linking below mentions fatherhood. We will be celebrating Father’s Day this week in United States, so I thought it was validated that this is the sea creature I decided to draw quickly and offer up to your eyes 👀 here 💗💕🪷

My calendar is pretty booked in the fall too, so I hope to make it back here intermittently, as well as before the holidays. I really want to do a run of “sketching” and more “art” and since I’ve given my blog to that, I will occasionally just write about the energies and/or astrology and a brief update if inspired to, but not able to commit to a sketch challenge or project like I was hoping to, and cannot work on my poetry manuscript until the kitchen remodel and a few of the major projects and family business stuff has become more settled.

Loving you all the time, and continuing to hold our connections in my heart. I look forward to visiting with you soon in the virtual spaces!

About Seahorse Symbolism

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We had Mercury/Sun Cazimi (conjunction) this morning. Is anyone not busy? lol 😂 go ahead and chime in!

Joining in June

Creating Art all around me ♊️

I had the dream of doing more art, “For Art’s Sake” in June. This was the inspiration for my title for my first poetry book, “Art for Art,” published in 2017. This publication had so much spiritual energy in it as it felt born directly from the Reiki I had been working with since 2007.

Now, I find myself in 2024, quite tired, involved in so many different trainings and groups, having an elaborate daily practice that I often only end up having the time to do only one of 4 main parts of. Having started with so much momentum in so many different areas/domains of life, I made “healing and nurturing energy” my priority—and didn’t put so much emphasis on form.

Now, today. I find myself at a crossroads. I want to keep the momentum I gained in April from writing a poem every day, and work on the manuscript for my second poetry book during the rest of this year. I also want to draw in (pun intended) more tangible, visual art explorations.

So, this much I have begun! Here it is. We are beginning, at an unknown pace! Like a dance that starts with wiggling or shifting weight from leg to leg. Let’s see we happens!

June’s New Moon is in Gemini. ♊️

If your mind is going a mile a minute and you’re not sure where to put your focus: you are in good company! If in doubt, and there’s plenty of that: laugh. 🤣

Why do we even look for guarantees anyways? Are we aiming to protect ourselves from the very life that keeps us engaged, excited, and motivated? Human nature is a curious thing among more curious things such as nature; and aren’t we still nature? 🤣 I know I am!

I have a meditation for this New Moon, it’s called: let your cells drink from the energy of the universe! You can do this in your silence of your wild self! Today and tomorrow I am setting off as the fool on the journey, Tarot card 1. I am embracing my imperfections, my unfinished messy middle. I am embracing my chattering mind, my chatting mouth, and my sheer fatigue that makes me feel punch drunk on most days. I am taking myself exactly as I am and saying “I choose me.” I choose me for this task, for this rest, for this moment. I choose me to drink up the energy of the universe and experiment with time and magic. I choose me to embrace, however way I show up.