It’s been a while since I’ve had a childhood pet, since it’s been a while since I’ve been a child. When I was in my early 30s, I had been a sort- of-parent to a dog that my ex mostly raised himself, having had already ideas about how to do that, that he learned from his family and the pets they’d had. This lovely dog, I still think of her, and remember her puppy years, and how she was so close to us, sleeping as a puppy. But, naturally, I encounter my childhood pet more often on the etheric plane. She was my sister-dog. We had that sort of relationship. I wrote my first poem ever, about her. She captured my tears in her golden coat, and played with me easily and joyfully.
My parents had a bunch of cats around when I was born, but I was born allergic, so the cats went elsewhere. There was one cat in particular I remember shouting her name for hours and desperately missing her (I must have been around 4 or younger), but she never came. I wept. I felt guilty for being allergic. It made me sad.
I’ve made friends with a number of outdoor animals over the years, and never claimed them as “mine.” There was this kitten that I named who I really was very fond, of but I didn’t see her around consistently, and so lost her to the elements of who-knows-where. But I would see her a couple of times after I got off the school bus; and for a day or two, she felt like mine. After my Shamanic Healing today with my Shamanic teacher, I met this cat and felt deeply towards it, only to quickly learn her language, get her to come over so I could make contact, and then for us both to be on our ways again.
I’m thinking of making my blog private, I sort of don’t know what I want to do with it right now, and I’m not sure why I felt like sharing this, either. But it made sense, somehow.
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I am certain you will make the right decision about your blog privacy.
Best of luck.
Thank you, Andrew. I appreciate that!
As long as you allow me to read your posts, I will.
Aww 😊
I know you will do what is best for you.
Thank you. I am doing so much behind the scenes work. It’s mind-boggling, but I also am attached, and I so appreciate these connections which add to my life, too! Your confidence in me matters.
You’re welcome Ka. I had a feeling a lot more was going on. I sometimes consider shutting my blog down, but know I would miss the connections, maybe more than the writing.
I’m thinking I love everything equally – and my needs will always show up and need to be listened to. So I’m honoring the journey, and embracing the folks who embrace me, in whatever form, and for however long, regardless of how available I can be. Seeking alternatives and adjustments within until I figure it out. My depth grows behind the scenes, my roots running deeper, while the surface does what it does. Thank you for sharing, Brad ~ for visiting and for choosing as you do on your blog, each day at a time, to honor what matters to you. 🙂🌸
Thank you Ka. I honor you and your journey. You continue to be a beautiful mystery. 🙂
Cool 😎! Thanks!
i’m happy for you, dear one.
many go off into the sunset
after meeting their match 🙂
Hanging out in the sunset right now 😊🌅 while working through paper jams and paper work. Love is always in the air. Thank you for being happy for me! We will see what happens.
I wish you the best of ease and joy in all that you choose. I have often wished for a parallel time space for my blog and the interactions. I relate to you that much of growth is happening and is needed for me offline, yet I find myself unable to give up on this blog space – it feels a precious time with such amazing interactions. It is a true dilemma at times. I truly wish you all that works best for you.
Thank you, Pragalbha. You communicate so much understanding 🙂. I really appreciate your thoughts.
Animals show so much unconditional love. And as for you making your blog private or closing down, I, too, felt like that a few weeks ago but continued to write. You’ll make the right decision. ~ Bernice
Yes, I’ve considered making it private for a long time , been blogging for 8 years. Thank you for your kind comment, and I appreciate your sharing , too. I’m glad that you made the right decision for you and continue to, as fortunately we have the flexibility to do that! So nice to meet you, Ka!
Animals are so much fun to interact with! I love their different personalities! Sometimes we come across some that are just so special, even if they aren’t a permanent fixture in our lives – the encounter truly mattered!
Thank you! Pleasure is all mine. Looking to reading and getting to know you. 🙏
All those moments of love were valuable ripples of positive energy extending across time. I’m telling myself that, too of all the animal friends I’ve connected with over the years.
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What a shame you are allergic Ka… Cats I was brought up with, and Cats have always found me, and I gave them a home.. One lived to 21, and was so loved..
We are pet-less right now…
Loved reading and the image Ka ❤
Thank you! This is the cat 🐈 I met. It’s a picture of her I took while I pet her. I’m glad you were able to share such wonderful moments with the pets you have had in your life! 💗