This morning I wanted to ride the upcoming Piscean wave 🌊 out loud. I’m about to jump on a call with my colleagues for a study session for our continuing deep dive education. This year 2025 is a year of culmination for me. It’s a 9 year so that’s fitting, but numerology aside, it felt like 2024 had too much in it and left undone as certain milestones are set to be complete this year and into the beginning of the next, just one or two left over to finish.
Eventually I will be opening up my energy work to everyone, far and wide. This includes offerings for those here and those who join later. I am not just practicing Reiki but another form of energy medicine I have been training in for the past year called Entheos Energy Medicine. It’s a fusion of all the stuff I was doing before on my own but also with the solid foundation provided by my teacher, Briana Borten, who has put it all together within all that she has trained in for over 20 years. She gives me a glimpse of what it would look like when I start fusing this all and providing it to others in a format. I’m about to begin year 2 while I finish working on year 1 of her Spirit Medicine Academy.
Meanwhile I am an apprentice in the Shamanic Medicine Woman Studies and my teacher plants 🌱 are my highest formal guides within the work. I practice and work many energy sessions per week in addition to my acupuncture and herbalism work. So much is already fusing together. I made some herbal oils and some lip balm.
In the meantime, I make the smallest effort to return to painting. 🖼️ I figure small effort is better than no effort, considering in all the stuff I am already managing ( I didn’t even share the half of it), I’m feeling blessed enough to get moving with sharing some visuals:
Mountainous inspiration
For me the unfinished white of a canvas as something I was trained NOT TO DO. Therefore, I suppose I can’t help it. That white feels deeply satisfying to me and gives me room to breathe. This mountain from my mind reminds me of an oil painting I did when I was 16 of a location I visited when I was 15 in Ireland. They look different but there’s something similar there, which got me to thinking: we are always “adding up” on top of what we’ve done before.
My father in law said the wise words I will never forget: “Learning is cumulative.” I think each part of each thing I do touches each part of everything else that I do. This is holism.
Something emerging
This morning, as I’m about to jump on a call to study skin conditions with my colleagues as we prepare for our next big exams coming up this year, I thought… you want to just make some swirly marks this morning. And so I did. It’s like calling in the snake 🐍 energy I enjoy working with.
Finally since and only since I brought it up: I’m gonna share two pictures of my herbals and then get to work (other work).
I was laughing with my husband and saying “I am always working.” Regardless if I bring in any money, I’m always increasing my “worth.”
We live in weird society and things are rapidly changing. Who knows what to rely on besides our creative strength to adapt and heal. Coming up with new ideas might eventually get me in the place where I’m a solid contributor to the collective. I have a long way to go yet but many of my other dreams have some true. As I prepare for this Pisces New Moon, I’m tossing those dreams in the cauldron for good cooking and easy digestion (for one day it will all come into form in the most beautiful and aligned way!)
Rose and Cardamom Lip BalmCooledThe raw beauty The yummiest herbal oil I ever made with Thyme
Well, here’s to more thyme! (time) and making the best of the time we got here. I gave away half of the lip balms I made so far. They are lovely and light on the skin. Highly recommend! Haha.😆
Stay tuned for my real Piscean New Moon Post around the 27th! Happy flowing!
This is more of a “coffee chat” blog post. Although I have not tried to write in that style per se. There’s a blog share that I often read with the topic of the “coffee chat” but I’ve never tracked back to who hosts it. Well, it’s not the time to do that now because I’m just flowing…
Tonight it occurred to me that I have a pile of letters that I wrote to my grandmother while I was growing up. In 2020 when she passed away at the age of 99, and maybe a year later, I received the letters back.
I put them inside of a drawer without a deeper thought than, “woah” as I bumped up against versions of my former self I wasn’t quite ready to visit, yet.
When the time is right, I’ll know. But it’s been at least over a year since I actually put the letters away in a drawer. Those juicy memories might all come flooding back. There might be uncomfortable memories…too…
And, then, there’s gonna be just a lot of emotions. So I am on ‘pause’ with it.
Has this ever happened to any of you? It feels like a treat, or a special pastry I’ll be able to enjoy at some point in my future once I get over whatever fears of triggered memories might be inside—or maybe just missing her and the past, and getting those strange glimpses into the past through a time capsule I hadn’t planned on stowing away for later opening? Sigh. When the time is right.
Ka Malana Photography 2024Dive right in! Ka Malana Photography 2024“Retro” Ka Malana Photography 2024
Astrological pairing:
Universal: Mercury (planet of communication) stationing Direct
Personal: Mercury is Stationing Direct in my 1st house (4 house from my 10th house —father’s mother), conjoining my natal Neptune, which is currently still transiting my 1st house (which relates back to paternal grandmother). The fact that it’s in Pisces ♓️ shares a little bit about dreams and ideals, and maybe I just convinced myself to get to reading those letters sooner than later. Or start with one a week or something, so I don’t get overwhelmed (Pisces). Natal Neptune is in Sagittarius, so it’s likely I will be inspired by the letters and the topic will probably be about traveling the most of all.
In November I promised myself I would get back to making art in the form of something more like free-flow drawing and allowing. I had a big ambition which was to do one drawing a day. I set out with these inspiring supplies of water color pencil which were magically on sale for 50% off. This has been a favorite medium of mine throughout the years. I think my first love was actually oil pastel, but it shifted. No sooner did we get to this spot in the month did I realize that I did make my mark on the paper but I would have to revisit the same image, because it just wasn’t going to be completed in the short amount of time that I allotted. I didn’t meet my challenge but the point of a challenge is to put forth a sufficient FOCUSED effort sometimes, not to necessarily always reach the intended goal.
When I was younger and I made art, it would be for fun, for exploration, but also I was working out things. Sometimes I made art that was ‘ugly.’ Yet I have always held this dream to one day make art again that (other) people like.
I remember to well the early admirers of my art. They really did make me feel “seen” as a child and teenager who made art.
So, I’m posting over the years my “starts and stops” my spurts and my blurts. I’m not sure if I will ever turn my art into a steady meditation (or if I even want to) because I’m exploring and explorers look for some kind of “gold.” So maybe I’m a wandering one, and I get off the visible path and trek in the unseen for periods.
So there’s its own process “the art” and “the unfolding;” and, it simply needs my respect and my love.
Dimensions Quality of light as a living organism
When I was younger I always noticed the passion in others. It became easier to fan their flame than to dedicate myself to my own creations. Maybe my art can become an extension of my self inquiry. 🧐 I always picture myself doing installation art “commentaries” once again. I only ever did one once and I thought it was gonna be the start of my art career. It was not.
I wanted to re-blog my older post in honor of the 29th degree of Aquarius, during our upcoming New Moon on February 18. It “took place” at the same degree as Venus Conjunct Neptune (@ Aquarius 29) in 2011 (03-25-11, date of my orig. post). I am wrapping up some themes here in my life as we embrace this “Nth” degrees of these signs (Next month Pisces 29). I’m happy to say that this is the second post I’ve written here at Fiesta Estrella, and I really wouldn’t change too much. I’d also like to dedicate this post to your celebrations of Valentine’s Day &/or MahaShivaratri ❤ (in our case) The marriage of Shiva & Shakti, with my sweetheart. We’ve had a wonderful journey, and I’m happy to see how far this blog has come, as have I. [I took 2012 off completely as part of my own transformation.] I am so grateful for my readers and commenters who have just shown how AWESOME they are on their own blogs – and who have taken the time to comment, engage, celebrate, and just Be with me here. I Love you All. ~Ka Malana
Wishing for you all kinds of Lovin’ this New Moon in Aquarius! LOVE-EQUALITY
From personal to impersonal, we make the leap to transpersonal
When are Ideas about Love Ideals and not entirely realistic?
I was discussing with a friend the ideals we have about love and relationships and how, over time, our ideals have both informed and misinformed us about true relating in our relationships. It’s occurred to me a good reason that he and I are having this conversation is because of this transit. I’d like to examine this aspect here in my blog today: Neptune conjunct Venus
A conjunction is an astrological aspect described as two planets or cosmic bodies co-existing side-by-side in an astrological chart. The planetary energies fuse together, combining archetypes. Two archetypes are at play in the sign of Aquarius (detachment, and humanistic /impersonal love). The archetypes are Neptune: the submerged, sea-god Poseidon, who represents sacrifice and transcendence; and, Venus: representing Eros, personal love, and relationships.
Occasionally, I seem to have this natural ability to wake up in the middle of the night and ask myself, am I in denial about something? It’s so funny because life is just humming along, and then I have this new sense of awareness. It’s also interesting to notice that this experience coincided two days before Neptune went retrograde. This is just one of the reasons why I always say astrology found me – I didn’t necessarily find astrology. I simply realized it.
Today I am using the power of Neptune retrograde to shift my consciousness to the positive experiences, without drawing very deep and dark lines around what ‘is’ and ‘is not’ positive or negative.
It’s very simple, and one not need to make a big fuss about it – it’s actually a very subtle movement of consciousness, a light gaze. The mind brushes against everything ever so lightly. I’m simply allowing my experience to be delicate and imaginable. There’s no need to assign the order of “true/false” dichotomy to experiences that simply are all delicate veils and visions. I choose consciously the “color” of fabric for my mental filter.
In this scenario, I see rose or pink-colored. However, it’s more the experience of a lightness of being rather than one of “seeing,” but an analogy helps you understand a little bit better at what I am drawing with my mind, or rather what I am un-drawing. In fact, I’m un-touching everything, and feeling only those things most delicate and accessible.
We’ve got a New Moon rising on the dark horizon. She’s busy going inward. And, as she slinks into the darkness, she is actually helping us ALL clear the canvas and paint the picture of what we Spiritually need to “see” in our lives. On top of that, Mercury is going direct, and right back into Pisces. Who could ask for more…. Pisces? 🙂 (smiley face)
“Men (and Women) Seeking Illumination” — Sabian Symbol for Pisces 11
With all the Pisces energy I’ve got in my natal chart, coupled with the current Piscean trends… I’ve been swimming a lot. Not to mention that his current Piscean New Moon is conjunct Neptune! My natal chart has Sun trine Neptune in Sagittarius on my 10/11th house cusp. Neptune, in this lifetime, will be transitting my 1st house for 27 years! And, much of it, will be in the sign of Pisces. Yes, my Placidus 1st house/7th house is huge, and Neptune slow and nebulous… ( which is why I must use ellipses)
I’ve been working on more projects than I want to mention–and I totally love them!!!
In all this inspiring energy… I must take a breath, because I have an exam to prepare for… and because, I just like to *breathe.* Now more than ever, I’m very aware of how perfect everything already is… and the Virogic experience of slicing and dicing only serves to prove that all is exactly as it should be–
Neptune is the higher octave of Venus. I don’t need to polish my post today. I love it already. Today, I get to just *show up* and be here with you all, sharing in that beautiful, all-encompassing energy and expansiveness that is Pisces. The Virgo/Pisces axis is about busting illusions, and learning to feel deeply loved in the imperfect/perfect version of ourselves that we are–
Blessed be, YOU ALL…. ❤ My Orchid wanted to say “Hi.” Remember, feel the beauty inside you!
The planet Neptune is important right now because the full moon back on August 20 was conjunct Neptune (meaning next to or beside – as appears in the sky from Earth). Also, we’ve been experiencing a Sun opposite Neptune transit. When the sun is opposite Neptune, we may have more awareness of our connections to the illusions or tendencies within our minds to dream while we are awake. We also may have been experiencing a heightened awareness of our dreams. As with all opposite aspects, or when one body appears as 180 degrees from another, there is some level of awareness of the energies.
More about Neptune
In Greek mythology Neptune is known as Poseidon, the god of the sea. He gets his name, Neptune, from Roman mythology, where he is also god of the sea. With trident (3-pronged staff) in hand, it’s easy to conjure up depictions of a sea god-king from the movie, “The Little Mermaid,” where Ariel’s father thunders through the deep sea on his chariot of seahorses. In astrology, Neptune is the ruler of the unconscious and the watery realms, spirituality, and a host of other nebulous things. So the mythology and astrology are very similar. You get the idea. Metaphorically the ocean or darkness associated with the deep sea has been an analogy thorough out time to describe the unconscious, indiscriminate awareness. This brings us to understanding how the planet Neptune functions as an archetype.
Neptune in his “worst light” signifies deception or illusion. One afflicted with Neptunian issues may have drinking or substance abuse problems; he or she may even suffer from psychological confusion or delusion. Neptune rules the condition where one form blends into another without much distinction, the distinction often being associated with the logical brain, or that which the ego permits to see as concrete. Neptune’s ruler-ship domain in a chart is in the 12th house, also known as the house of “self-undoing.” Self-undoing can be for the good or the bad, or neither…
Neptune is the higher octave of Venus
The ruler of the sign Pisces is Neptune. Many astrological associations will give Pisceans (Sun in Pisces or Pisces Ascendant) a special knack for being dreamy, kind, and spiritual. We can see how these associations come up because Neptune is the Higher Octave of Venus. Take all that you know about love and that which is most pleasing to your senses, your tastes and transcend that. Neptune represents the faith and unconditional-ity that expresses in deepest compassion without a drop of reason needed. Neptune is present (in a chart) where the greatest form of acceptance is needed, and where we can let in the light of grace through the cracks of suffering. Also associated with artists and other realms, Neptune shows us the multi-dimensionality of existence – the invisible quality to an object, and to an object before it is born, as an idea.
Neptune as dream maker and dream weaver
Wrapped up in the archetype of Neptune is all the mental modeling we do for what we wish to see, and often what we think would be ideal. The experience of Neptune is a bit like being on “cloud 9” though, so we’re not usually aware of all our pre-conceptions. Nevertheless we will find that if we withdraw from our illusions, our wishes and wants, and even our fears, underneath that mental net that we cast upon everything we see, is the potential for accepting for what really is.
Neptune will help you weave dreams, but not see those “seams” or what else “seems” to be there, clearly. Neptune as an archetype teaches about areas where acceptance is needed and where we can – and often do—go with the flow.
I wanted to re-blog my older post in honor of the 29th degree of Aquarius, during our upcoming New Moon on February 18. It “took place” at the same degree as Venus Conjunct Neptune (@ Aquarius 29) in 2011 (03-25-11, date of my orig. post). I am wrapping up some themes here in my life as we embrace this “Nth” degrees of these signs (Next month Pisces 29). I’m happy to say that this is the second post I’ve written here at Fiesta Estrella, and I really wouldn’t change too much. I’d also like to dedicate this post to your celebrations of Valentine’s Day &/or MahaShivaratri ❤ (in our case) The marriage of Shiva & Shakti, with my sweetheart. We’ve had a wonderful journey, and I’m happy to see how far this blog has come, as have I. [I took 2012 off completely as part of my own transformation.] I am so grateful for my readers and commenters who have just shown how AWESOME they are on their own blogs – and who have taken the time to comment, engage, celebrate, and just Be with me here. I Love you All. ~Ka Malana
Wishing for you all kinds of Lovin’ this New Moon in Aquarius! LOVE-EQUALITY
From personal to impersonal, we make the leap to transpersonal
When are Ideas about Love Ideals and not entirely realistic?
I was discussing with a friend the ideals we have about love and relationships and how, over time, our ideals have both informed and misinformed us about true relating in our relationships. It’s occurred to me a good reason that he and I are having this conversation is because of this transit. I’d like to examine this aspect here in my blog today: Neptune conjunct Venus
A conjunction is an astrological aspect described as two planets or cosmic bodies co-existing side-by-side in an astrological chart. The planetary energies fuse together, combining archetypes. Two archetypes are at play in the sign of Aquarius (detachment, and humanistic /impersonal love). The archetypes are Neptune: the submerged, sea-god Poseidon, who represents sacrifice and transcendence; and, Venus: representing Eros, personal love, and relationships.
Being a lover of love, it’s easy for me to allow myself to be very conscious of this topic. I have no problem addressing where my expectations in my intimate and love relationships have developed and where they play out. But this was not always the case.
Step #1 is the realization of the dream-idea, taking a step back from my deepest yearnings and realizing what is factual, and what is actual. The “taking-a-step-back” has been wholly a result of experience. At this point, I have more notches on my lipstick case than I’d like to make record. Everyone has a different approach to this, and for me, abundance in love was not a quest—it’s been more like the result of processing through a strong ideal, and then living out the reality. Thereby, I’ve only had to give up what was necessary, as a part of my experience. That which was unreal, truly just fell away.
The planet Neptune will always bring up the question of what is possible. It’s the spiritual aspect of love. Neptune is a higher octave of Venus. I recommend you take a step back from your current dream and just take a look at your historical relationship record: (Venus conjunct Neptune in trine aspect to South Node). The South Node indicates our past, sometimes this life, sometimes beyond. I recommend you do this because of what is to come.
Love that is to come: April 4 and beyond
The reason why Neptune’s movement into Pisces is so spectacular is because its theme will last until 2025. Get used to the fogginess. There is an obvious “foggy” affect that is making you feel like you are swimming through some unified field of a greater matrix that your brain cannot comprehend—in fact, you are not exactly “seeing” but experiencing this unity-consciousness on a bodily level. Venus is the ruler of the sign Taurus: all things that are sensory, tangible, and experiential. Take this BIG LOVE LOOK because Neptune is switching out of Aquarius (impersonal, human, individual love) and moving into Pisces which is the sign that it rules: imagination, spirituality, transcendence, confusion, and possibly deception. Don’t worry, deception is always a result of misinforming the self. Get honest with yourself and you have less outside of you that can strike you with deception. Neptune was in Aquarius since 1998. This brings up a lot of questions for people about the Age of Aquarius, but I’m sorry that is too complicated to get into in this blog on Neptune and Venus, and Neptune in Pisces. I’ll say this, we didn’t start doubting science on a collective level as “all there is” until this transit. Also, we who love science very passionately, were secretively exploring other “less science-y” things—in the closet.
April 4: A dip into Pisces, and then swimming back to Aquarius
On April 4th, Neptune will hang out in Pisces, starting here, and then will exit back into Aquarius in August 2011, as a part of its retrograde cycle, only to return to Pisces on February 2012, and stay until 2025. Yes, this is a long time. Neptune is giving us a clue about this transformation because it is conjunct-ing Venus at the last degree of Aquarius. I always pay special attention to “goodbyes” and “hellos;” what surrounds these transitional moments are hints. I know this because in 2012 Saturn is going to be in Scorpio, the opposite sign of Taurus. Our relationships and how we share (our money and energy) is up for review. You thought already that it was being reviewed because of our crashing world economy, but that’s the macro speaking to the micro. Get ready to look more closely at how the details play out on a personal level.
Transpersonal Questions
Last time Neptune was in Pisces was in the 1840s: consider the California gold rush and Spiritualism. Do you think these things could re-emerge? Is there a dream land where there’s metaphorical gold, and if so, is it in this world? If there are other dimensions, can we communicate and traverse these dimensions, by communicating with beings on another plane of existence? Do we even care what reality is… if we find a way to make use of the unclear messages and obscure wisdom emerging from “nowhere”? More people will be intrigued with these questions, and the progressive, high-science-minded may even follow suit. Notions of Past/Present/Future may seem more like arbitrary descriptions of time rather than clear, concise representations of time. Of course, we will always conduct our experiments and seek proof (thankfully)—but I have a feeling that our experiments will start looking wackier.
In Summary:
‘Reality’ is something that is becoming more and more spiritualized, as we personally re-emerge with the source of our individual lives, and shape our reality consciously. We will use our new sense of reality to evaluate our relationships, and many of us will set forth on the journey to making those dreams reality, as we believe we can truly cultivate this dream in relationship to one another. As long as we are clear with ourselves about what we deem to be real and not-so-real, we are good to go anywhere. Be aware of the danger of dishonesty and you are golden. The “new” golden age may look like a dark age, but it depends on your internal GPS. Have fun with this plot as it unfolds (Neptune was in Sagittarius at my birth) so I’ll also recommend having fun when things get weird and unexplainable. Maybe that’s just my generational coping-mechanism, but it is meant to help you swim through your life with joy—as I, without a doubt, intend to trust my life without the expectation that it unfold in a certain and particular way.
This should have been posted earlier today but it was more important to me to support my friend while she played piano, and be graced by her beauty in all her ways.
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