
It’s a new year soon, for me. I will be 43 years old.
Perhaps it’s this year where I realize it the most, that it is only myself who has the key to my heart. It’s not out there; it’s not even in nature. I’ve found myself ruminating a bit more this year, drawing myself inside–wanting more alone time. Is this my celebration? I ask myself quietly.
Leave it to Venus retrograding in my Solar sign of Leo…
What is the most important to me? This is a most pertinent question to me this year. I’m the only one with the answer to it.
My solar return chart.

This SR chart has my ascendant at 22 Gemini-which correlates back with my 5th house cusp on my natal chart. So, I’m expecting visual art to play a larger role in my year to come 2023-2024. I have a lot of 3rd house energy here, in addition: so mercurial with the Gemini ASC and the 3rd house SR sun. So, this is likely to be a highly communicative year. I wouldn’t be surprised if I have a lot of mental growth, networking, etc. Thanks to Mercury and Mars in Virgo (sigh) and I mean thanks, I can extend my organizational skills out into my house and home and my business/life generally, and specifically. Having the conjunction of Mercury and Mars in a trine aspect with Moon conjunct Jupiter in the last section of my 11th house of hopes, dreams, aspirations and group gatherings re-emphasizes that I will not be having a very “quiet” year. Taurus Moon/Jupiter, and loosely Uranus, squares my natal Sun, so there’s some friction there and enough to catalyze the many changes and mutability of what this 3rd house Sun year is asking of me. Saturn will be coming into conjunction with Neptune all the way in 2026, but the themes for how I relate to this big transit is already in the set-up or ‘wind-up’ stage. I like Saturn and Neptune to help me work more closely with the “essence of form.” Words are forms and working with them as containers and packets of light is a starter for me.
When I look over at the notes that I jotted down for myself on my Dreambook + Planner, I see that I wrote down “more reading and writing.” Also, considering this blog post: I am fast to get to work! What I love is that, even though Venus is retrograde, she is still conjunct my natal sun. I’m ready for a revamp. Leading up to my birthday, i found myself spending a week or two saying “my soul is tired.”
There’s this strong desire to redistribute my work so that I’m not wasting my time or energy. More energy in exercise and strengthening my body and mind to support my spirit is called for, this year.
When I was apprenticing under Franchelle Ofsoske-Wyber with the Medicine Woman studies, I did a really deep dive with each of the celestial bodies. I got to know them all in a very personal way, especially Venus! This was in addition to working with them for years and years on my own. I specifically learned how to “Draw down the powers of the heavens to ‘purpose good.’”
I’ll be working a lot this year with Venus, Virgo, and Gemini and using my 3rd and 5th houses to build my natal soul Sun in a more deliberate expression of that light. I do also expect to be driving a lot starting in September, so short trips and travel of 3rd house is already showing. While my SR chart has an empty 5th house, it’s current domicile is Libra which is ruled by Venus and my natal 5th house is being emphasized through the extra attention to Gemini themes.

My core values
- Friendship
- Honesty
- Trust
- Leadership through example
- Community
- Leaving places better than when I arrived: fixing them, enlivening them, cleaning them
- Business as a sacred path
- Abdunance as a reality
- Compassion and Empathy
- Spiritual Journey as the Spiral life path that ascends while descending into deeper levels of alignment and walking with the true way as guide.
- Integrity
- Kindness
- Cultivating calmness and equanimity as a refined soul state
Your core values are indeed a great recipe kind lady. You may turn 43 but with that type of heart…you’ll be ageless 😀❤️🙏
Thank you, Mark! I’m just chugging along. I so appreciate your kindness and your beautiful heart ♥️!!
Happy Birthday Ka and kudos on being so clear and conscious in your life path.
Thank you, Brad! 💗💗💗
You’re most welcome!
Happy birthday sweet Ka! I wish you an enriching new cycles. I always love hearing how you shift in response to what flows through you in feeling. Like you, I’ve felt more inward as well, even though I do love being outdoors and have had a full summer…my energy is still retracted in many ways. Sending lots of love!
Thank you dear, Tania! Your words are so perfect for me right now. Thank you so much for sharing how you are feeling more inward right now, too! Nature is so beautiful and leads me back to my heart and I wrote about here how the way I am connecting right now is beyond nature, even. I feel like God/Goddess/Great Spirit has me pointed really deep into the center of me. That said, the birthday part of the experience is one of being really glad to be alive; and, also really not taking the physical world as the whole of my reality at the same time as not taking it for granted. Maybe I am in-between dimensions right now. There is a quality of gazing into an abyss but one that emanates love. The inward desire is to focus on this space and gaze into it as deeply as I can! Love you!! Thanks for the Happy Birthday wishes! 💗🦁💚
I’m so glad to hear that my share was resonant and timely. And I have to say that you described this so eloquently and perfect! Gosh, I couldn’t have said it better…YES! That’s exactly how I am feeling too! Wow! So amazing to hear it spoken by another. I am feeling you so deeply right now with chills all over and in the best of ways. Love you so much! Thank you dearly for sharing this and putting to words the feeling and space I find myself also in. ❤
Love this reflective piece on the cycles you are feeling in your life right now and your intentions. ❤
Thank you, Layla! It’s been a deep dive this year. Like there’s no choice but to look deep into my mirror 🪞 of existence and feel all of it. Meanwhile, my goal is indeed to be more deliberate in how I am manifesting and playing in the world with my core values leading me! Isn’t writing just the most wonderful way to make discoveries?! I so appreciate you, Layla! Thanks for stopping by! 💗
Happy Solar Return Ka, may you have many many more
Thank you my sweet friend! Eddie: May you smile so much today and every day 🙂🙂🙂
Will do Ka! hugs
Here is to year 43. This is my 43rd year as well. I am learning a lot more this year than I think I have any other. I hope this is a great one for you.
Hello Kel! I really though I replied here. So I am confused as to why I don’t see it. I was just re-looking over this post when I caught it missing!
Thank you very much for the birthday wishes! Remind me please: is your birthday in April or May? What month? I want to wish you a happy one! 😉🎉 Thank you for stopping by!
I am actually a January baby; the 5th. My daughter is April and my son is May which may be why those months are associated with me. I think I replied to one of your posts about all of our birthdays. 🥰
Oh excellent! I’m looking forward to remembering *your* Capricorn Sun birthday. Yes, I think the Tauruses in your life have been the topic of a previous conversation; if I remember correctly. 😂 I love family! We are units, like little mini ecosystems… as I listen to my husband and daughter play hide 🙈 and seek!
You will experience an amazing 43rd year, dear friend. We all love you!!
I love all of you!!!
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Thank you so much, Christy.
Your blog is amazing. I am just so happy that we are connected. Thank you for helping me to celebrate xo
Happy birthday dearest Ka. I am so happy to have bonded with you over here. I will wish only well for you , birthdays will come and go .. age is but a number in the calendar. You will always remain you forever. That is the beauty of being Ka Malana. . Blessings ♥️
Are you sure we haven’t already met in person? Lol 😂 love you so much! I think my soul knows your soul well and vice versa! Mega hugs!! Thank you so much dear for this beautiful reminder and blessing! 💕💕💕
Yes.. we are soul sisters 😘 love you back very much.
Have a wonderful birthday 🎂 love the cake. Keep a slice for me 🤗
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I will try to keep the cake slice…
(For you.)
(And, not eat it.)
I will put it in my freezer until you come by 😃
Yes 🙌🏻 we are soul 👯♀️ sisters! Thank you! Very happy birthday girl over here! 🌻
Thank you thank you .. the cake slice will have to wait 😂 for me freezer or oven I don’t care 😀
I am smiling away ☺️
It’s a hap hap happy birthday your birthday your birthday it’s a hap happy birthday to you 🤗
An early happy birthday! And a great new year!
Thank you! Is this a Happy early Birthday for next year? Mine was on the 7th. It’s a relief when the birthday has passed, and I’m aiming at the next one! Lol 😅
Thank you very much for the birthday blessing. Your writing is elegant and I am so grateful for your taking a moment to wish me a Happy Birthday! 🎊🎁
My pleasure!! I guess I missed that post when it came out. 😕 Well, good wishes anyhow! 🙏🏽🙏🏽❣️💕
I view our writing spaces as timeless. We are afforded the grace of being present with each other beyond anything in the normal 3D world of time and space! I am so appreciative and feel them. Thanks for being here, kindred spirit. I keep thinking about your Ko-Ko. Hugs 🤗
Yes, all dogs 🐕 exude love. Well, most anyhow! But Ko-ko was a love doggie. Every time my husband and I hugged or kissed, she would jump up, wanting to be part of it! ❤️🤩
Awee yeah, so sweet! 🩷
Beautiful cake and thoughtful core values. Best wishes in the year ahead!
Thank you, JoAnna! This comment was pending. So weird. I’m trying to get this stuff fixed! Isn’t that cake beautiful?! I love the wild flowers. Natural colors are so gorgeous! Thanks so much! With Venus retrograde in Leo I’ve been clarifying my values as a gift to myself. Now with Mercury retrograde, I’m trying to go back and fix things! Like this comment shouldn’t have been pending. Also some people are having trouble making any comments on my blog, but others are not. It’s very strange! 😃🤷♀️
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Thank you very much!!! I just found this comment now 💗