softly drawn is dawn

On By Ka Malana - Fiestaestrellas.comIn Astrology

Opening to green

It’s birthday time.

and, I’ve been lighting candles

with fervor

burning away what is not working

illuminating the path, to show me the way.

in response, perhaps, the years have been softening me

though, I have not directly asked for that ~

showing me, in all my wrongness, there’s one thing I have right:

my love.

my growing capacity to love.

personal love,

impersonal love,

love of thyself

love of the moment

love of fleeting passion present

love that burns through time and space, with such eternity

knowing no end can ever come of it, because it would only do it to itself, and it really wouldn’t, because it’s matured.

This is my communion, my continuity, my flame for this life. This is my time, and this is its purpose.

and, I am so sincerely present.

without a doubt, I’ve never hidden under a basket.

nor behind a cloak.

I have been the bare me all along.

I have born myself of raw flesh and spirals

I have broken skin and wishes and daydreams.

My knees have been skinned on so many near-almosts…

…absolute misses…

while

Going for it, going for it all.

and there is never a guarantee in the program

the program is not built for guarantees. The whole thing is based on risks and risk assessments.

They say that only the courageous or the stupid put it all out there.

how about the one who knows

that there’s nothing else that’s worth it. Holding back is actually the norm.

and the more i can dig in, this year and next year, and maybe more years after that,

the more dirt under my nails, the more fires smoking in my eyes, the more the holy reckoning,

the more moments of absolute REST after the sheer ‘enoughness’ of my irrevocable ALL

I know I’m living.

I’m doing it.

HBD to me.

🎉

and if I should part before too soon

or even near soon at all,

I shall know that what I’ve done here,

is really, really lived.

44 thoughts on “softly drawn is dawn”

  4. There are many angles to this.

    Firstly, happy birthday. Every revolution around our local star is… “revolutionary”.

    Which, to my mind, is sort of the point.

    The life you portray is the revolution of love in one life seeking to set the world on fire.

    Happy birthday, and may the candles that really matter never blow out.

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  6. Happy birthday to the purest soul I know, the kindest, gentlest and the most loving person I know and my life has been blessed and enriched by your presence. May all you dreams be fulfilled and happiness and health your constant. Thank you for gracing my life ..love you ♥️

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    1. Once again, your words, YASSY, which I read, and re-read, and will probably re-read again, have managed to fill my eyes and heart with grace and light —that only this very close sibling twin anam cara could— love you too! Thank you for your gorgeous blessing on my birthday. It feels so gentle and powerful in one meeting, like I am now walking on clouds with the belief that all this goodness will come to pass through both of our lives! Love you, too!!!! 💗🫶💗🫶💗🫶💗

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  8. Happy Birthday Ka, you are indeed loving you beautifully. This journey is such a profound teacher, and you may have lots of skinned knee’s and a bit of dirt here and there…but the smile in your eyes will never be moved because of it. Have a great day kind lady 🤗🥰❤️🙏

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    1. Mark, Thank you so much for the birthday blessings! I had to circle back. I have fresher eyes now, at my desktop computer. lol. I just lack the icons here. But you get my energy, i think. Your words, “the smile in your eyes will never be moved because of it.” Yes, you are so right, Mark. It’s beyond words my friend. It feels ‘so good’ to have you here. Thank you for sharing this moment with me to help me to celebrate another year/trip. Hugs!

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  14. Happy Birthday dear Ka… I loved your muse.. And what else is more important that to LOVE and live that LOVE…

    Thank you for sharing your love and your special day …
    Have a lovely weekend Ka xx ❤

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        1. Yes, sometimes I feel it like a little “ping” moving through “the force.” I send a ping out to check in, not sure what initiates the check in sometimes. Then when the “ping” comes back in the life force might feel shifted or different quality or even less in strength. It’s a thing that’s been happening more and more on the periphery of my awareness. I hope that you are much better now! I’ll be right over to your blog my dear! 🤗 You feel like you are moving in the right direction. 💗💗💗
          I want to help buoy 🛟 and lend a hand, my heart, my love. Even in the after affect there is the experience of recovering from the expedience!

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          1. Thank you Ka for that energetic connection my friend, it is truly felt. And yesterday the 8th, was the first real day I seemed to be full of energy, 🙂 the Lion’s Gate no doubt kicking in 🙂

            Many thanks again, and have a lovely peaceful Sunday xx ❤

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