Inspiration 🌱

This morning I wanted to ride the upcoming Piscean wave 🌊 out loud. I’m about to jump on a call with my colleagues for a study session for our continuing deep dive education. This year 2025 is a year of culmination for me. It’s a 9 year so that’s fitting, but numerology aside, it felt like 2024 had too much in it and left undone as certain milestones are set to be complete this year and into the beginning of the next, just one or two left over to finish.

Eventually I will be opening up my energy work to everyone, far and wide. This includes offerings for those here and those who join later. I am not just practicing Reiki but another form of energy medicine I have been training in for the past year called Entheos Energy Medicine. It’s a fusion of all the stuff I was doing before on my own but also with the solid foundation provided by my teacher, Briana Borten, who has put it all together within all that she has trained in for over 20 years. She gives me a glimpse of what it would look like when I start fusing this all and providing it to others in a format. I’m about to begin year 2 while I finish working on year 1 of her Spirit Medicine Academy.

Meanwhile I am an apprentice in the Shamanic Medicine Woman Studies and my teacher plants 🌱 are my highest formal guides within the work. I practice and work many energy sessions per week in addition to my acupuncture and herbalism work. So much is already fusing together. I made some herbal oils and some lip balm.

In the meantime, I make the smallest effort to return to painting. 🖼️ I figure small effort is better than no effort, considering in all the stuff I am already managing ( I didn’t even share the half of it), I’m feeling blessed enough to get moving with sharing some visuals:

Mountainous inspiration

For me the unfinished white of a canvas as something I was trained NOT TO DO. Therefore, I suppose I can’t help it. That white feels deeply satisfying to me and gives me room to breathe. This mountain from my mind reminds me of an oil painting I did when I was 16 of a location I visited when I was 15 in Ireland. They look different but there’s something similar there, which got me to thinking: we are always “adding up” on top of what we’ve done before.

My father in law said the wise words I will never forget: “Learning is cumulative.” I think each part of each thing I do touches each part of everything else that I do. This is holism.

Something emerging

This morning, as I’m about to jump on a call to study skin conditions with my colleagues as we prepare for our next big exams coming up this year, I thought… you want to just make some swirly marks this morning. And so I did. It’s like calling in the snake 🐍 energy I enjoy working with.

Finally since and only since I brought it up: I’m gonna share two pictures of my herbals and then get to work (other work).

I was laughing with my husband and saying “I am always working.” Regardless if I bring in any money, I’m always increasing my “worth.”

We live in weird society and things are rapidly changing. Who knows what to rely on besides our creative strength to adapt and heal. Coming up with new ideas might eventually get me in the place where I’m a solid contributor to the collective. I have a long way to go yet but many of my other dreams have some true. As I prepare for this Pisces New Moon, I’m tossing those dreams in the cauldron for good cooking and easy digestion (for one day it will all come into form in the most beautiful and aligned way!)

Rose and Cardamom Lip Balm
Cooled
The raw beauty
The yummiest herbal oil I ever made with Thyme

Well, here’s to more thyme! (time) and making the best of the time we got here. I gave away half of the lip balms I made so far. They are lovely and light on the skin. Highly recommend! Haha.😆

Stay tuned for my real Piscean New Moon Post around the 27th! Happy flowing!

Poem 25, Day 25

I said yes again

To more action

More spark

More passion

.

I said yes to open books

TBRL lists in spades

Scheduling my time

And looking under nooks

.

And crannies for

More to heal the fabric

Of my silken mind

With pulls and snags

And places where the flow

Gets stuck

.

There’s gotta be a yes

around every corner that

Gets us into trouble, and duly

Gets us out of said trouble

With a wiggle and giggle

And some more Yes,

.

A no is just as good.

when understood

It speaks peace in volumes

And slows the divine time

Into manageable parts and

Starts over, when ready.

.

But. This time. Again.

I said yes.

I said yes to this mess.

All of it, and to unraveling

and to giving my time away

as though

It doesn’t end…

Mercury stations direct again today. Aries sparks continue to fly. April has been a whirlwind. May you enjoy your birthdays ahead, and your springtime joys! Have some fun for me, too! 😆

Poem 22 Day 22

Unbreak this Earth

Kiss her feet, her skin

Let her know you care about

How well the oceans flow

.

How clean the air is

Unbreak these wars

The cries of children

gone silent

The cries of hostages

Tortured

The cries of terror from

Evil demonstrations of power

.

Unbreak these broken bonds

The ones in families

And in communities who can

No longer trust neighbors have

Got. their. back.

.

Unbreak my heart

Your heart,

Our ONE heart

As we struggle to unite

While forces tear apart

.

Unbreak the social dissonance

Lack of true embrace, connection

Conscience

Trust. Poverty of graciousness

Unbreak my head and heart full

Of scribbles and tears.

Nightime fears

.

It’s hard to sleep well with one

Eye open.

.

Unbreak the spell of discord

Of misstep, of Russian roulette

Economic exclusion,

Economic confusion

Economic illusion

.

Unbreak our hopes and

Strengthen our confidence

Fight for nothing but your soul’s

Kindness and Grace

Watch love with Lace

weave space,

and pace

.

Yourself.

.

We can do this.

Big thank you all for your encouragement. This is the last weekend of the challenge, and each one of you have contributed to my ability to pull through! 😍. I love you all more than you probably know. 🤗⭐️🌌 Earth 🌍 Day. 💕 Spread Love

Poem 21 Day 21

I am

Surrendering to

Rosewater and saffron

apples

while quaffing baby blue

and pink skies

white puffy clouds growing

with squinted eyes

Twinking and winkling

in the hues of rue

The fields of sun’s love

Satisfies my desire to run

With arms wide out

A breezy fun,

to run about,

To slow then roam

My nervous system at home

The sense of peace collecting

In degrees of openness softening

laying in soft Corsican mint grass

arms and legs out like a star ⭐️

Surrendering to

Eternity

Poem 18 Day 18

Breathe me in

This life is so rich like

complex chocolate

hits every level of your tongue

your being

maybe a hint of cayenne sparks

some extra moistening

an extra crunch of raw cacao

connecting with a touch of

mocha, the espresso bean

swishing in with rose notes

and finishing with mild

orange hints

All this but with your breath

On your tongue

Your awareness piqued

Breath, mixing with ocean

and sand,

Opening the senses to the mist

That yields a light

breeze on the temples

centering to the satisfied being

collecting energy

into the center.

Being present.

*this poem is dedicated to a mother of a friend who had suddenly recently passed away during our recently solar eclipse, she was unwell, but had bounced back before. This is a deeply spiritual woman who has left a legacy of love.

Poem 16 Day 16

The fairy

brought the gnome

into her home

at the base of the tree

she took him to her breakfast nook

And there she opened up a big book

A page from, “The Love of Thee”

Therein a poem about a memory

from when she met a butterfly who

Had woken her up ever so gently

as she slept inside a shoe

It landed on her nose out of the blue

thinking her nose

was a rose

Thus began their friendship

Her fairy self with a butterfly

who liked catnip

She was no ordinary butterfly

Absolutely, she would fly too high!

And dip so low

She played with her shadow like

An echo.

Poem 15 Day 15

The portal opens

To a world with tangled branches

Alive and gnarled, character-filled

some would say.

The little man runs and skips

even does back-flips as he dances

And acrobats his way to the bottom of a tree.

At the tree’s bottom a single golden ring lay

it shines so bright he covers his eyes

But the ring is a fairy in disguise

She was at tree’s bottom, root home

In the kitchen when she heard some

Polecats munching

And snickering

She came out to see what is the ruckus

When the little man was among us

And too close a call,

She rolled herself into a tiny, golden ball

That collapsed in the center

She’s lucky she didn’t get a splinter.

She moved so fast and

Sure, he did fall, as he ran toward her

He skidded to a halt

Not knowing what the light was about

He began to shout!

“Ahhh! Unseen realms do not pout!

Show me what you are all about.”

Like that she poofed out of a golden ring

And into a fairy again.

Soon she discovered this man is

Her friend.

She and he

danced around the tree’s roots,

went into the garden

and dug up some chutes

They opened the door to the fairy home

and she said, “Well this place is also good for you, Mr Gnome.”

So “Come on in,

and I’ll write you a poem.”

Poem 4 day 4

What does it mean

to ask?

For more time,

more presence

being held when sad

Can you please

hold a space for me?

In your heart

while I am struggling?

Can you please

offer your support while

I am trying to make a living?

What about him and her

who have no home?

what about that life inside them?

Do you really believe they did

not try?

to ask, to find a way,

to be listened to?

They say a friend in need is

A friend indeed,

but I see a lot of

loneliness,

a lot are penniless.

Having no pennies is not as

bad as having no home,

no belonging dwelling

How do we ask for help,

when even if we get the courage

~which is hard enough~

no one hears

and no one sees?

They remain unstirred

while we beg on our knees

mental illness on the rise

the genetic framework is the disguise

our society needs

a community

our economy needs

more unity.

How can we become a better people?

How can we ask: Collective please 🙏🏼

Please bring us sanity, compassion, and humanity?

🙏🏼💛

Will you join to support me?

Poem #3 Day 3

You are born from,

And live in, abundance

Your heart’s beating

does not require

Your thoughts

Your happiness

Your emotions

You live with a ticking. A Regular gift.

That helps your lungs join with the wind

That helps your mouth merge with the plants,

receive water through your

cupped hands

Your body is alive

Without your mind to govern it

only brain 🧠 and

body as one harmony

in call and response

In ups and downs

walking left, right, left

talking , opening and closing

breathing in, and breathing out

jumping

What a gift it is

to seek out another day’s senses,

events, sunstreams, roses

coffeetalk

How will the sunset look tonight?

How will your belly feel from your

nourishment?

How warm is your blanket,

how cool is your sheet?

Drifting now,

Drifting deep, into the clouds

deep into the woods

what shapes do you seek?

what shadows on the wall?

Abundant, malleable, earthy life

Transform it with your thoughts

Transform it with your might

Open and close your hands

A baby learns to clap

One more step

One more lap

Old and new, and new again

Walk this road

go around this bend

You are born from oceans

resplendent with fish

and starlight-reflecting

whale’s song, whale’s wish

a ginormous beating heart

Abundant —

in the matrix,

from the start

Poetry challenge #1

I stretch my leg from left to right

Make sure each set of toes are in sight

I reach to the right. I reach to the left.

Past each shin, beyond its crest

I reach my hands out,

loosen grip, within without

Bring my hair down;

Nose to my knees,

falling gradually,

straightening my crown

Bowing down to the roots of trees

Next I try to occupy the space of a split

still out of reach, I admit

Getting closer to the floor

Trialing each maneuver with my core

Breathing through each pore…

This is my first poetry day 1, for 30 poems in 30 days: one poem per day. I used the prompt “out of reach.” Using prompts to write anything is new to me. I think I tried once with a short story. So I am literally stretching myself. So how perfect for this to be my first poem! I hope to make it back tomorrow, and the day after that, and after that….

Happy writing!

P.S. Happy Mercury Retrograde! 🌟⭐️🌟

Entirety

The entirety of who I Am

Is wrapped up and co-mingling

with

who

You Are

We are connected anciently, dynamically

Metaphysically

the oneness of us is a snug

sung hug

Like an iceberg, but warm

melted but firm

Like submerged and unformed

But solid and chosen

Joined and intentional

There is a peeking, glimmering opening

To US

I can see it in my mind’s eye, glinting

I can hear through whispers, shivering

Our nature is rupturing in unbroken rebreaking, thread-bearing openness

I can see the strings where we are joined

turn golden

as the sunlight rises upon our fractures

illuminating our contours

I can smooth your edges with you

As you smooth mine.

We can weave together in a new way

as we recognize our separation together with our wholeness intact and replete

overflowing into new dimensional awareness

We are never not.

We did not ever,

never exist

.

The quickening

Dimensions opening

This one had such a layered sensation to it. I don’t think I finished it, but there is the selfsame experience of imperfect symmetry which is something I love because it mirrors our imperfect faces. The imperfections are so lovable to me.

May we find the love within the process of imperfections allowing us to find the perfection through the openings of dimensions in time, creating space, illuminating purpose and aligning ourselves within our highest light of awareness.

A wonder; those letters

This is more of a “coffee chat” blog post. Although I have not tried to write in that style per se. There’s a blog share that I often read with the topic of the “coffee chat” but I’ve never tracked back to who hosts it. Well, it’s not the time to do that now because I’m just flowing…

Tonight it occurred to me that I have a pile of letters that I wrote to my grandmother while I was growing up. In 2020 when she passed away at the age of 99, and maybe a year later, I received the letters back.

I put them inside of a drawer without a deeper thought than, “woah” as I bumped up against versions of my former self I wasn’t quite ready to visit, yet.

When the time is right, I’ll know. But it’s been at least over a year since I actually put the letters away in a drawer. Those juicy memories might all come flooding back. There might be uncomfortable memories…too…

And, then, there’s gonna be just a lot of emotions. So I am on ‘pause’ with it.

Has this ever happened to any of you? It feels like a treat, or a special pastry I’ll be able to enjoy at some point in my future once I get over whatever fears of triggered memories might be inside—or maybe just missing her and the past, and getting those strange glimpses into the past through a time capsule I hadn’t planned on stowing away for later opening? Sigh. When the time is right.

Ka Malana Photography 2024
Dive right in! Ka Malana Photography 2024
“Retro” Ka Malana Photography 2024

Astrological pairing:

Universal: Mercury (planet of communication) stationing Direct

Personal: Mercury is Stationing Direct in my 1st house (4 house from my 10th house —father’s mother), conjoining my natal Neptune, which is currently still transiting my 1st house (which relates back to paternal grandmother). The fact that it’s in Pisces ♓️ shares a little bit about dreams and ideals, and maybe I just convinced myself to get to reading those letters sooner than later. Or start with one a week or something, so I don’t get overwhelmed (Pisces). Natal Neptune is in Sagittarius, so it’s likely I will be inspired by the letters and the topic will probably be about traveling the most of all.

Blog House Keeping Mer Rx Edition

The above pictures are for your viewing pleasure! We are in Denver, Colorado getting ready for Healing Fest with Donny Epstein this upcoming weekend. We’ve had a blast 💥 These images are from a cute restaurant with healthy food called “JustBE kitchen.”

Now to get right to it:

It has come to my attention that a number of you are not able to comment on my blog. I have emailed WordPress to help me with this. It’s no fun that it is happening. Also I checked my reader and there’s a lot of blogs that are somehow no longer in there so I have to track back and find a way to re-follow you. It was never my intention to unfollow you. It disappoints me that this has happened. Finally, I found some comments in my spam that did not belong there.

My blog needs a lot of other housekeeping updates such as fixing the twitter auto share share function: since Twitter became X, it’s functionality is no longer working and I don’t even think I have access.

As for writing, I still had hoped to get another updated poetry book published, but that project has been very-slow-to-nonexistent.

I’ll be following up with a post soon of some of my daughter’s artwork 🖼️ to keep you entertained while I work out the nuts and bolts of things and make my way back to you all. Each and every one of you are so special to me. Blogging is by far the most meaningful form of social media that exists. Your thoughtful posts and your ridiculously kind comments are such an inspiration to me. You have no idea how much you ALL add to my life day in and day out! I love your creativity, passion, photos, philosophy, sharings.

Thank you for your patience!! 🙏🏼💗

P.S.

I am very Virgo-y

1). My progressed Sun is currently in Virgo (Honestly can’t wait until it gets to Libra ♎️)

2). My descendant is a huge chunk of Virgo in that house (albeit the cusp is in Leo).

3). My natal Vertex is in Virgo — right on this upcoming Full Moon 🌕‘s position of the Sun

4). My Jupiter is in Virgo

5). My Saturn is in Virgo

6). My mother is a Virgo sun

7). My husband’s moon is in Virgo

There————>

Now Let’s get organized and use that Mercurial Magic for the best. And no worrying, Ka!!! 😉

If any of you are interesting in consulting with me about your astrological chart. I’d be happy to do so in the beginning of the new year, 2024—just reach out! We can have a little meet and greet on zoom and share a beverage, smiles, and get to it! 😃

Mercury retrograde Dec. 2022

I don’t know how many of us have been even unconsciously/consciously planning for the Mercury retrograde set to start moving backwards on December 22 to January 18, 2023. I know for me, I’ve had to slow way down–take my time getting through being sick, and nurse myself into health. But also I’ve needed to feel into some more challenging emotions and allow them to move though me gently. It’s a Capricornian retrograde during the Capricornian season. I’ve got Capricorn in my 11th and 12th houses, and it’s never been my favorite sign. Career path and career recognition as well as earning enough income to live has always been a challenge for me. I think it’s because of this, I never felt like I self-actualized. I’ve never been fired from a job. I always excelled at all the jobs I did. However, I was always left longing for something more. I was looking for my purpose. There was a period of time when I was working in IT for a very well known company, and I thought that all I wanted to do was work up the line and gain experience through this career. The job benefits were great. I was always winning awards and making a decent income while working special shift hours. Then my boss was demoted due to his on-going health problems. It was then that I decided I need to do something radically different. I needed to work for an organization that cared about their employees. Even more than that, I wanted to go into business for myself, and sell something I actually cared about. So I started learning massage in 2008. However, it wasn’t until a couple of months ago that I actually started my own business.

Are you someone who is successful at business? If so, what do you think made the difference in your success?

Do you struggle with business?

Are you in a family of entrepreneurs?

Have any of you realized that business and growing business can be a an act of service?

Share you experiences here.