Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy!

I feel heard 👂 and connected 🤲 🙌🏻 🤙 in the Pepperdom of this November’s Nano Poblano.

Will be visiting folks as often as I can this week, peppering the time of day.

Here’s a reminder for the 21 day Empowerment Meditation at the online Chopra center. If the link doesn’t work, I’ll come back and update it. Each meditation/mantra audio is available for 5 days from the date. Today is Day 2. I listened to Day1 & Day2 back to back because of my free time due to not sleeping while everyone else was.

A Haiku

her eyelashes drew
from my mind’s eye before she
curled up in my arms


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2019

To love is to grieve

that pit in your stomach
that moment you wake to
each new morning crusty,
to greet that dull emptiness –
memories of laughter, still lingering
but when you try to reach the energy of
it, and saturate yourself within it, it’s
gone silent.

the breath of your friend
on the other side of the phone
fully dissipated

your confidant, has been removed
the first person you think of
the first one with whom
you share anything that
excited you, no matter how silly, bizarre,
trivial,

the shape of your breakfast,
that small squirrel who winked at you,
and the corner of your room where
that one spirit of your ancestor
resides, and from where they speak
to you at certain hours of the night.

all those human updates,
removed from the planet

By the action of an
accident

Those you love, grieve
for you, because your love
And your tattoos and
the time we spent together is on
your skin,
which has been incinerated

You have now become a Cherry tree,

and you have become one,
with all
who grieve for you.

your best friend and all your friends
continue to collect and congregate in
your name, just to squeeze out more marrow
from the life you lived and shared,

and we will take and treasure those pieces
with each other, and do it over and over
again, as the sun sets over a vision of
your better outcome,

on the other side of our same shore,

in the twilight of your smile.

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Please don’t make me explain this poem. I think it doesn’t need anything extra. Mourning is a shared activity, sometimes we carry some of the heaviness of our friends’and our own as well, maybe, they can energetically bear the burden of the love that was lost, because of this poem.

2019

Cheer Peppers 🌶, Mercury retrograde, Nature – Nano Poblano

2019

I signed up to participate in this year’s blogging festivities/group challenge knowing that there’d be a strong possibility I’d be feeling dried up for inspiration by the time I got to this day, having recently overworked myself attempting to accomplish goals, but also surprising myself as well by accomplishing more than I expected I could. It was worth it! So here I go again trying to be a part of things. Usually, I’m trying to catch up with what I signed up for, or watching from the sidelines, wishing I was participating in what “everybody else is doing.” And inspiration is something that I am both always looking for, and trying to share. <—- that’s the key point, I think!

The best part about the Cheer Pepper NanoPoblano goal this year is to spend time visiting and commenting and supporting other blogs and bloggers. It’s built into the intention, and the design. As always with Cheer Peppers, this is not a hard and fast rule, and we are encouraged and we encourage others to do their best, gentle nudges. I believe it’s 10 days of commenting, 10 days of posting, and 10 days of reading other bloggers, or something like that. I need to go back and read the fine print. Feel free to let me know in the comments if I missing something.

The beauty of all this, of course, is to be present, be part of a team, and have some fun! This might be the only blog I post of my own – or there could be 9 more – or why stop there? (I don’t know what tomorrow or the next day will bring) but at least I’d get the word out, and you can click on the image above to see what the other Cheer Peppers are up to, so many of them talented, kind, and with fresh perspectives served, so many of them I don’t know yet!

Today, and for the last few weeks, I’ve been sneezing like crazy but not officially sick, just congested. I’ve had insomnia, and it’s been a rather uniquely difficult Mercury retrograde start for me! I usually respond to Mercury retrograde with becoming more talkative or ‘creative,’ out of the blue, or maybe just more communicative – to my better or worse judgement. In other words, my mind gets busier. Full and New moons often (but not always) have an effect on me too – hence why I began an astrologer at a young age.

Today I am showcasing two simple images from the outdoors, as being outdoors always brings back a certain undeniable positivity and connectedness.  The first is leaf bug, as I called it, until I identified it as the California angle-wing Katydid. This particular bug struck me as exotic, even though it’s probably lived here for a while in the greater area. It is still new to me!  We definitely felt the presence of our visitor and have a strong totem in the last several years with the greater grasshopper and cricket 🦗 family.

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The second image below is of a dove’s feather. It’s been a while that I have been seeing these and crow’s feathers, while I’ve had fewer of the Hawk variety that graced me with many during the years of 2009-2013. Surely, all these finds are related to messages, even if some of them have to do with the differences of where I spend my time geographically. I look at the dove feather as my greater purpose to find and create peace within, and being honest and acknowledging what’s in the way of it, and how to get more focused on being more present in my life, within my community, building community… etc etc, being more comfortable with being seen as I am in all the various forms I show up, and really having very little power over that – being online is where I find myself the most socially awkward, which seems unusual because most people say it’s the opposite. I prefer being in person with people (as well as enjoy my time alone). Anyways, I digress! The dove feather also shows me that I am also a part of the bigger planetary effort of the peace process, and living in harmony with nature.

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I hope you enjoyed what I wrote here, and you enjoyed the pictures and contemplations. A Mercury retrograde like this might help take me into deeper reflections, as the holidays seemed to have a really enthusiastic kick-off this year in my observation. I saw more people participating this year with costuming and having fun. It was neat to witness! The Scorpio intensity has been especially intense this year, lots of memorials and grief surfaced over lost loved ones this year, as well as previous years. There was even a mourning for relationships that seem to be cut off because some friendships don’t seem to do well with space and distance geographically. It’s not that way with everyone, but sometimes friends are locked into their own lives, and no matter your history, they don’t want to continue connecting for whatever reason to “who you are today” – that does hurt. It’s very painful.

Anyways, I’ve rambled a bit more than usual. I wish you all a great weekend, a wonderful Nano Poblano, and a fruitful Mercury retrograde! May your days be filled with love and wonder!

Happy baby pose, sharing more of me.

the focus, the point
of any moment’s contentment
is the delicate
reality

of right here, now playful ~
cross crawl,
ipsilateral,
in a ball:
when hands touch soles of feet, and
reach
to touch
toes!
this pose –
is made

for giggles, and wiggles.

the sacrum is flat,
and the body is a bowl
nimble and ready to roll,

figure it out as a baby, and
then, forget it.

then spend rest of life,
practicing yoga,
and watching your love baby grow.

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Happy Full MOooooOn in AriES!

I finished some of my board exams for practicing acupuncture and licensing! I have 5. I did 2 so far in the last couple of months, but will have to wait to take the one for this state once I graduate. The other 4 I can sit for now, so I did 2 National Board exams past couple of months, passed and completed! However, they are doing a restructuring of the exams and scheduling is a thing, so I might have to wait until July 2020. I did return to school, so I’ve been busy with that, and midterms, and being a new mom: which is the most fun, and helps to balance the hard work! Being a mom is also hard work, no doubt, but it’s more immediately rewarding. Trying to plan for next semester, returning to the clinic, and slowly finishing the few classes that remain until I graduate and I will be finally done with this very long 6 year journey (only 4 class left).

I will draw a card from my Wild Wood Tarot deck and bring you into the woods to play with me this autumn!

Also as an 8th ray ritual magician apprentice, where I have been working directly with New Zealand First Light Flower Essences, I’ve been working this month with the moon as an alchemist, where I can see the future I am creating, and it’s marvelous.

Astrology worth sharing

Sarah Vrba really shines the light in the dark on this heated-up, up-coming (but can be felt now) full moon in Aries. She speaks about the poetry of Astrology, and I know we are speaking the same language!

When you see it directly in the way we have these line-ups at 20 degrees and the intensity with square energy. We could go on and on, using the planets to describe what is energetically available beneath these descriptions and expositions.

Though, I love Sarah’s here!

Poetry brings us into direct relationship with what is beyond symbolism – while using symbolism!

Sometimes the most direct way, is indirect.

How Tao are you, today? Tomorrow? Yesterday?

For more helpful astrology, including a great do it yourself Tarot spread idea, go here

My birthday gift to myself: a blogging hiatus

Hello friends,

As my birthday approaches, and my life has changed in a new influx of abundance with the birth of my daughter, and projects that demand my full attention, I think more about scaling down my life. I’ve started going through my emails, and reducing and eliminating every subscription, that even if I have enjoyed it, clutters up my mailbox. I have nearly eliminated all social media, over time.

This blog has been a wonderful gift to myself when I gave it me and started here all the way back in 2011 – 8 years ago!

I enjoyed having a place to share my poetry book offering, connect with many like-minded friends, and share in the experiences of other bloggers.

This blogging hiatus is indefinite, as I do enjoy and will likely miss contact with so many of you. My blog will be switching shortly to personal mode and from there I may still participate occasionally in visiting other blogs, but will for the most part “go silent.”

The time has come for me to renew my relationship with art and with all that I am doing in a more focused way, and spend more of my time and energy locally. No doubt, I have enjoyed reading poetry and browsing pictures and contemplating and living an examined life with other bloggers and writers and artists. This is what makes WordPress blogging a unique activity. I will want to improve my craft, so I will hopefully be back at some time in the future with fresh energy and fresh offerings.

In the meantime, know that I will miss contact with you, but am giving myself this space, so that I can be the best “me” I can be.

With great aloha, my love to you all, Ka

The new guide to life

The new guide to life
consists of simple pleasures

watching the shapes form
from out of clouds in the sky

the smell of the house
when dinner is full of
browning butter

fresh fruit on the counter

my baby daughter’s cheeks
when she smiles and
the sound of her squeal as
she kicks with enthusiasm

the sound that the trees make
when wind is whisking through

the splashing of ocean water
as it laps at our ankles
and the sand tickles and
exfoliates the soles of our feet

our morning walk to beat the
late summer heat

squeezing a lemon slice into
a glass of water and watching
it swirl

celebrating Lammas by gathering
ideas and updating the altar

singing simple songs in
foreign languages
and making up rhymes

just for her.

Mama and baby feet _ found online

Photo credit: source unknown

You don’t go in silence

🐞
grief belongs to the living,

only the
breathing cries.

your life is free now,
for me to remember-
🐞
how you spent your time
for years

is still unknown to me,

but i release the writing
from the diner’s walls of history
during our after-midnight booth meetings

where and when
we shared words from our notebooks
🐞
no words needed to make sense-
to understand and be understood was
the essence of our connection,

this was a first soul friend,
the artist path unveiled-
and then re-clothed in black.
🐞
you were a friend
who with non-explicit language
blended music, energy, art

and lived a raw & real life
🐞
shared booze, cigarettes, relationships,
all examined through emotion
with our paints while we chased our shadows,

i held your hand in deep sisterhood.

🐞
i am told you found a path of health
to walk for a while, and ever more
people who would love you.
🐞
you always were loved, and deserving,
may you find your way back to me.
To us all. for in my heart you have not left,
and the news i received, is still not real.
💗

Here’s a new song I discovered while grieving and healing. I know you would have liked it.
Forgive my inability to be poetic, or write exactly what’s in my heart. This is the best I can do. You don’t go in silence…

*Recently heard of a dear friend from my teenage years had passed away. That gives new meaning to “I don’t want to say Goodbye” poem. I hesitate to explain myself to others, because I know that the truth is beyond saying. Most of my closest friends understand this. My poem was in part prophetic. I just didn’t know it at the time.

Setting the record straight?

Is being a Leo Sun really about sassiness and celebrity? Is it really all that over-dramatic and self-seeking egotistical etc etc? I’ve seen the dark side of all the signs… and it doesn’t exist quite like that, or does it?

Are Scorpio’s really manipulative and jealous? Do Gemini’s strike you as shallow and Cancer’s as over-sentimental and stuck in the past? Is it impossible for a Sagittarius to commit? Are Virgo’s really all that uptight? These are some of the pejoratives that circulate the ethos.

To me, these are examples of the worse side of astrology, yet tabloid types of horoscopes continue to fascinate curious and desperate folks and circulate everywhere. After all, this is where it all starts. Why feed that?

Even people who aren’t even interested in astrology and who “don’t believe in it,” they are still aware of the stereotypes given of their signs, because of culture and media; these ideas are pervasive. So what’s beneath that? That would be a reasonable question for people to ask. Penetrate.

Is it human nature to make a caricature of human personality traits? What is the cultural obsession with personality all about? I hope more people begin to realize that reading lists of “pros and cons” and “positive and negative traits” overlooks the beautiful and rich nuance that is available in the art of astrology. When more people realize that astrology is not a fortune-telling game, but a deepening and meditative glimpse into the mysteries of all the things, it offers the ability to transcend them – even culture, even the transits themselves. Good astrology transcends itself by moving through the dross, asking the questions, and freeing the assumptions. It takes study, examination, and above-all, observation.

In our statistics we understand that correlation is not causation. So say it is with all observations. How do we know if we are creating self-fulfilling prophecy? The answer is through examination. It is through lightly holding ideas.

The path and the journey are not the road to transcendence, but the obstacles along the way are the gifts that make transcendence possible!

New Moon in Leo, July 31! Looking forward to it! One can be present in the here and now and also enjoy the possibilities of the future. The future is ‘now,’ dressed as time. We can transcend time by using time.

of unique talents and interests

Anna-Maria Hefele’s intriguing voice stretches the bandwidth for what’s possible with human voice and its acoustics. Check out this video where she describes, very well, polyphonic overtone singing. Here is her website for more information.

Recently I began my training as an 8th ray ritual magician with the Medicine Woman series of programs. Also, I aligned my meditation series with Deepak and Oprah again for this July 15th’s initiation of Miraculous Relationships. Celebrating this July 16, 2019 Capricorn lunar eclipse has been part of the way of my existence and sacred path, noticing what signs and correspondences show up along the way.

Keeping a meditation practice and embarking on a journey to deepen my astrological and stellar connections while being initiated as a new mom, simultaneously enjoying time spent with visitors, after the brief illness of my husband and the extra scrambling required, all while preparing (and deciding) for the autumn schedule has been a unique challenge.

I’m not sure if there are any unique talents related to what all I have been doing, but I do hope to continue to purify and prepare myself for whatever work I’ll be doing in the future, as I am continuously guided along my path. Completing the Medicine Woman Rites of the Six Moons with my pregnancy was a very special and unique gift to me in my magical life and the magical life of my family. Exercising and eating well has definitely been the way of this warrior.

My grandmother has been persisting and she’s just “wow’ed” our family so many times with her strength and endurance. Turns out I don’t have to say goodbye now. She’s now at her newest home. Thank you to everyone who read my poem and left some love for us (and her) here.

too good go slow

penetrating the shadow
from the line that holds the
alphabet

allowing the words to fall
into the empty bucket
of my mind

from voice to page to back
around again, inside voice
inside my head again

a box opens with mind
in gaze and the landscape
is more perfect upside-down.

too good go slow
for passing speed is
not ideal these days,

no HOV lane near the solid
line of thought, in sight
go slower, still,

until you wake.

Ka Malana©2019

There might have been music to this but it sort of started itself on its own and wanted to be written and shared on Fiestaestrellas. It was more about the energy behind the words as I embarked on an entirely new, and yet normal-for-Ka, mysterious journey that will continue for the next 16 months.

Nourish your Soul

i woke up this morning
and saw my whole life
rise with the sun,

the flame burst over the hill
and all the land caught fire
with its golden gleam
made sunbeam

the light became a twinkle
in the center of a songbird’s
lively eye,

while crows perched and drew
their wings from the shadows
made from passing night

glowing orangely, a warmth
slowly saturated the
soil and made shapes
on the land

i drew up my mind and
forged a pen, found myself
as clay-like animated
raw material

born from spirit in this fleshy
business for a time
to be situationally present

i watched the clouds form and fade,
the critters stir
and scamper,
my soul laid content as
a non-layer, non-entity

a force without a face
the gaze of the sun as
if by the sight of the land
were to trace…

unlimited openness,

born from the fuel of grace,
born from the magick of fusion –
born from the spark of a new union.

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May you all feel the soul nourishment this Solar Eclipse

On Data Mining

I appreciate Savvy’s way of writing here. I have long wanted to put this into words, but couldn’t somehow, and I’m glad because she did a great job! Yes, this “data-mining” concerns me, and so I will always be limited on what I share online for pragmatic reasons.

Savvy Raj

Every bit of your doing is visible
Your social media profile is in display
But so are your searches and history
Of sites visited and clicked
How about that?

We are living in a fast paced world
With too little concern for ethics
Every harmless search by you
For you or for another on the internet
Is a window of opportunity
For someone to make bucks.

Are you ready?
To let it go on
Dont you feel invaded?
Your privacy is your right!
What’s worse it’s up for sale!
Data mining is the culprit

I am no technology geek
But tech savvy enough
To realise the infringement
Of the online into my real world.

Tell me how you feel
Sharing your every action
Without your knowledge.
To know someone unknown
Has your likes and clicks down pat
And sells it to a third party for money
What are your thoughts…

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Tis Summer in the Northern Hemi!

Happy Summer 2019!

It’s that time again! We are about to change our tunes and our runes over here! (Google is cute as usual.)

Well, at our household, anyways, we are being musical, including singing to the baby, and being silly.

This blog is being written extremely slow with my left hand, btw.( then i switched to just the right hand).

I wanted to look at the astrology and write up something since this is why i blog, but having so many of my own planets in the sign of Cancer, I’m pretty intuitive (though not psychic, so leave a comment). I’m intuitive enough to “feel” most the astrology so the rest of it is managed (Aquarius rising and S. Node) by my intellect and my “objectivity” – and sometimes, EH… it’s not that interesting to talk about in that way, especially when “feeling it out” is far more compelling. After all, Leo Sun here: should explain the rest (if explaining is your thing ((not mine))). Nested parentheses included.

Since the transiting N. node is in Cancer, we are lined up to be in touch with our more personal, household, domestic/family affairs, contrasting with those planets in Capricorn in opposition (career, business, reputation), and we’ve been dealing with some interesting squares… What have your dreams been telling you?

How will you enjoy your summer?

What are your plans?

I just love the solstice time and am having an inner celebration. Looking forward to those awesome moments that arise when I get to head outdoors and take pictures and explore nature, and maybe get back to rollerskating again. There’s so much to look forward to! I can’t wait to show my daughter a waterfall for the first time. Right now, however, she’s just learning how to focus her eyes, and binocularly yoke them. What fun.

Also, I’ve been making space to study on my own more, and that’s a real treat for myself, and nerd cavort with my colleagues, and take numerous free classes that are available through my associations to keep me busy while away from Acupuncture school.

I will definitely finish my acupuncture program, it “feels” inevitable, but we shall see – just two more semesters of coursework left. Lots of discussion and time spent on working that one out…

Speaking of programs, meanwhile: I’m two weeks away from completing my certification for Medicine Woman Rite of the Six Moons! It’s mostly self-guided with teacher essences from New Zealand.

Needless to say, life has been intriguing, beguiling, challenging, and relatively fluent!

I did just complete my last Journey Quest with a specific group that I was working with for the last 4 or 5 years, and had an (unplanned) graduation ceremony on the day of my daughter’s birth, as well as a ceremony for her birth and my labor and our gateway into transition. The ceremony happened at the hospital with another shaman medicine woman, midwife, facilitating.  I did tell my teacher for JQ that I was going to have a baby for graduation, so if you call that a plan… it could have been! It was really just a statement of what I thought was inevitable once I sensed my process and flow.

I’m looking forward to visiting everyone soon and will be over at your blog.

 

the Struggle is real

No sooner does the fog clear
and the way ahead looks
like – coast clear,
another event and more
unsolved. unresolved.

time out from the rush
of ordinary life is
not enough,

ease and care
and all the right things
done is still sometimes
not enough.

the truth is up and down
and the challenges are real
and enduring.

maybe tomorrow the light
will shine again
and bring us into grace and
ease.

transitions are happening,
and asking for relief –