Run with it: Aries Full Moon Oct 6

As always, check your local time zone for the timing of the full moon in your area.

When I was tapping into the energy of this upcoming full moon, I was given a picture in my mind of a person with a bright yellow moon crescent under their shoulder, catching it and clutching it (the said moon looks like a football). This person is running for that touchdown, or running like a “run for your life” energy, or a “run with your life,” energy. It’s a wholesale: ‘go all in for it’ kind of feeling. Hold nothing back. You need to claim-your-space-in-order-to survive-this-challenge kind of energy.

So let’s break that down.

In a full moon the Sun always opposes the Moon. It’s symbolic for illumination, realization, the culmination of the previous work. Astronomically, its when the Earth is directly between the Sun and the Moon. They are distant from one another when viewed 2-dimensionally (astrology), and that kind of makes it easier to differentiate. One body, the Sun, is on one side, and the other body, the moon, is on the other side. Human minds are notorious for confusing things. A singularity may become a plurality and overgeneralized or vice versa. This confusion is also a tool that can be worked with, but not the point of this post. The point of this paragraph, however, is to say that a Full Moon (in general) is a developed and packaged, ready-to-deliver message. That message is *your* football, or personal moon in this scenario. It relates to the collective moon, but it is not that.

Here’s a tiny bit more about perspective.

This distant view, one body on the one side and on the other side, the other body : the opposition. It allows for contrast and distinction, like the way subject and object are not confounded with each other. One can “see” “other,” via cognitive contrast. Aries and Libra are actually a continuum (the astrological pairing of opposites). That’s right, the two sides of the same coin are really a continuum. The Aries energy is the “individual” the “self” and the Libra energy is the “other” or “object.” Libra is often expressed as the sign for “balance.” It’s important when talking about the energy of Libra, though, to signal the fact that ‘balance’ is dynamic and not settled. Settled would be done and dead. BalancING is an act of FINDING and maintaining equilibrium against moving forces, pulls, movements in disorienting directions. Therefore, one ‘could’ say, Libra is inherently unbalanced, moving towards balance. That’s the running part of my mental picture. The individual is RUNNING (moving toward) the goal line.

Let’s talk about the “fast” energy in the astrological picture above and why the mental image probably has the character/person running. Pluto forms a trine (120 degree angle)with Uranus and they are both in Air signs: Aquarius and Gemini. That’s a lot of fast moving Air energy. Air energy is associated with mental activities, but it’s also a transitional element. From its origination, this was debated.

Anaximenes, a Pre-Socratic philosopher, identified air as the fundamental principle of the world, transforming into fire when heated and into water, earth, and rock as it cools. Diogenes Apolloniates also associated air with intelligence and soul, although some sources suggest his principle was a substance between air and fire. Aristophanes satirized these ideas in his play The Clouds, featuring Socrates praying to air.1

Let’s return to the fact that air is not as slow as, say, Earth. Earth is much slower and more material–it’s all about the atoms. Air particles are generally smaller and lighter than solid matter. In gases, particles move freely and rapidly, often at higher speeds than particles in solids.

But why, astrologically (besides the elemental part of astrology), are these air planets acting “fast“? It’s the aspects. A trine is the fastest, and the sextile is bit more “productive.” I’d like to you to think of the metaphor of a bicycle gear. When you are going uphill, you want your gear to be on a “work harder” and “productive” setting. (The work *quite hard* gear is the square or 90 degree angle/aspect). A trine is like the “easy” gear. There’s little to no resistance: you can fly…..weeeeee

On top of that, both Uranus and Pluto are both making a sextile (60 degree angle) aspect to Neptune and Saturn. A sextile aspect is slightly more productive, as it’s considered to have less resistance than a square, but more anchoring ability than the trine. When you push the bike pedal down you are gonna have some resistance, but there’s gonna be moderate progress with each push–that’s the sextile.

Enough about the aspects, let’s recall our planetary environment.

Neptune and Saturn have been very busy sussing out “reality” and building “fantasy” and working on those themes (and will continue to) and I have mentioned in this post, and in this post, reaching that pinnacle point of their actual exact conjunction in Februrary 2026. The conjunction works differently than the opposition because it’s confused/merged/fused as to which is which (in the collective consciousness–and for the individual). Reread those posts, and you will see the themes. So, the “objects” in our consciousness dream are difficult to differentiate: are they real or are they false (illusory). Is this dream a pipe dream, or a vision for the future that’s possible with the right kind of focused effort or alignment (no effort)? That’s the kind of thing that happens when Saturn and Neptune co-join and start a new synodic cycle. They create a new project, so to speak. WE are in the process of that. The synodic cycle of Saturn and Neptune is roughly 36 years. This February, 2026 is the exact conjunction, which is its start of the new synodic cycle in Aries (same sign as this full moon!). That is, in approx 36 years, Saturn and Neptune will form another conjunction in another sign. In June 2061, according to my ephemeris, Saturn and Neptune will conjoin in Gemini.

But let’s look now at ‘just this’ full moon in Aries for the individual.

The Aries Full Moon has a lot of “breaking free” energy. It’s a person who is now having their emotions in their hands, their life force, their history’s soul-story: the moon. This person is now in control. They are not in control of anyone else though, nope, not at all. They have to break free from the past (which might include other people, see below addendum). They have to break free from the “losing game.” The stories they have been telling themselves have to change and become more individuated. The stories are no longer going to help them stay idle, stagnant, and keep them from growing and moving into more “unknowns,” aka the future. They must individuate themselves and get very clear on how they are a unique flame who has come to Earth to make their own way. Truly this is the universe’s invitation. I do find that there’s different degrees of “coming with kicking and screaming,” according to the soul, that is. The soul is the one (like the football) that is motivating (the moon) everyone to act according to their own path and trajectory. As we saw from the eclipse, our souls’ growth and development was reconfigured.

So run with that ball!!!! Run for your life. Get your clarity and your message, and start to see the spark of promise that will be enhanced and advanced in February 2026. There’s a dream that can be realized, that is what I am claiming. You do have the ability to differentiate ‘even more’ from your lineage, from the collective, from the soul’s habituation, and make your dreams cut from a new cloth.

I hope you had some fun reading here. I certainly enjoyed writing it.

Addendum:

There’s another theme (that is not small) that I did not write about that of which I will only make a quick mention. During this Full Moon, Venus will be in Virgo and still conjoining the South Node in the karmic past (this aspect is ‘active’ and current forming)— and this will be loosely opposing Saturn in Pisces. Old relationships are deconstructed, along with the sense of disillusionment around them. It’s part of the puzzle leading up to this newfound freedom for new ways of relating (Libra and Venus) to our values, and with company we keep!

Whatever you face and however you are living right now, may your heart be wrapped in love–becoming more You, every day. This life game is fun. Thanks for being here! Thanks for playing.

Source:

Air_(classical_element). (2025). Chemeurope.com.

https://www.chemeurope.com/en/encyclopedia/Air_%28classical_element%29.html

Release illusions to activate the essential dream!

Hello friends,

I’m writing to you about the Lunar eclipse event coming up on Sept 7, 2025, in Pisces. The places to view the eclipse are Europe, Africa, Asia, Australia and New Zealand, not North or South Americas. Here’s the eclipse path from spaceandtelescope.com.

This eclipse is tied to the solar eclipse on Sept 21, also in Virgo/Pisces axis, but this time in Virgo at 29 degrees. The real theme that will come forward here is linked to the February Saturn/Neptune exact conjunction: February 20, 2026, at ‘0 Degree’ Aries. I’ve spoken about that in a previous post. Here are the dot points on the Saturn/Neptune conjunction:

  • Dream vs. Reality
  • Making dreams into Reality
  • Feeling forced to give up dreams by Saturn limitations
  • Uncertainty about what is fantasy and what is real
  • Saturnian discipline helping to parse out and work out Neptunian dreams and ideals: Vision to Form
  • Daydreams and escapes of fantasy— and Saturnian consequences!
  • New forms of artistic inspiration (Neptune) with different forms (Saturn)
  • Saturn/Neptune conjunct is asking: “What really is possible here?”

Here’s that chart for the Sept 21 eclipse that I’ll talk about more in a post that is closer to the date:

The reason why I think these eclipses, and especially this Sept 7 eclipse in Pisces, are linked to the Saturn/Neptune conjunction is because:

  1. This eclipse is immediately followed by the Aquarius eclipse in Februrary 2026signaling the beginning of the end of the Virgo/Pisces series (It’s not the last one, but it’s the beginning of the new series, marked by Aquarius/Leo).
  2. This Sept 7 Lunar eclipse comes right on the heels of Saturn’s retrograde back into Pisces for a final pass (Sept 1.). Saturn originally entered Pisces on March 7, 2023 and transiting into Aries on May 24, 2025: leading to an ALMOST conjunction with Neptune. But since it retrograded back, it’s also not going to be re-entering Aries until February 13, 2026— just days before the great Neptune/Saturn exact conjunction. An exact conjunction means that the energies are potent and have matured!
  3. The Saturn/Neptune conjunction will happen in February while Neptune (the Modern Ruler or Pisces) is still its retrograde zone, after just have spending time in its original home: Pisces.
  4. Saturn in Pisces is going to be closely opposing the Solar Eclipse in Virgo on Sept 21, 2025 at the anaretic degree of Virgo 29. This is a very potent point. Saturn will be at 28 degree Pisces which is a pretty close/tight orb. Anything below 3 degrees has the strongest potency. The tighter the orb, the stronger the impact.

So, overall, there’s this very interesting story going on in the sky to help you to release illusions and sort out what is real. It might not be very easy (it might FEEL impossible), but it will be worth it. With Saturn’s influence, not much is easy; there’s often restrictions and redirection. You really tend to utilize your blood, sweat, and tears, when moving through life during intense Saturn transits.

So what is an essential dream? Why is that a part of your title?

The word essence means (https://etymologyworld.com/item/essence):

  • The fundamental nature or core characteristics of something
  • The concentrated or pure form of something

Etymologically it comes from “esse” the latin meaning “to be.” Inside of us is all of creation, the potential to make or create anything in our experience. That potential extends from our essence.

No matter what is going on in the world right now (and I know, it’s grim: war, politics at their worst, and the divisions and misinformation is up more than we would like), we still have a certain amount of time to enjoy whatever freedoms we have. It’s our freedom to create, to bond with one another, and to learn from our experiences and also to tie these experiences to the “bigger picture.” Neptune and Pisces are very spiritual. This symbolism is rich (and for some of us, it is more than symbolism) but for you, take it at whatever level is one that ‘works’ for you.

Notice we are each the architect of our own dreams. Every dream is unique. Some dreams reflect unfulfilled desires, repressed impulses, and incomplete experiences, or serve as a substitute for and pointer toward realities beyond them. The symbols we project in waking life are part of the story we weave for ourselves. Symbols we project into our experience are like ghosts. They offer insights into the true self by revealing our conditioned beliefs, how connected or disconnected we are to our heart and the Earth. We each have the power to rescript our symbols, shift energy we receive, decode and transmit to transform from the core.” —Liara Covert

I don’t know if I tied this message together well enough for you all. But, if you are feeling shaky and disconnected at times and other times *very* connected and then doubting that, it’s all normal. What you are experiencing is really in the stars. Each and every single person is going to experience it differently– some will think life is “just the same.” Our perception is really what matters, but I want to encourage you to connect yourself with a greater vision, magick and dream, one that really fills and fuels your soul. It’s here, and its available: AND ABSOLUTELY NOTHING can reduce the essence or make smaller the importance of your dream. So I ask you now: What can you let go of? What is standing in your way of realizing your own potential, right now? Virgo is all about the details. Those details are going to be completely unique to each one of you, but Virgo carefully crafts. Your craft in life is definitely tied to your essence. Like a kite in the sky, your kite is your craft (how it flies) but the essence of your kite is the WAY it connects with the unique weather pattern at any given moment. How will you build, fix, and fashion your kite?

Love you all, so much! Use the comments to reflect on anything I’ve written here.

With gratitude,

Ka

Fly the kite: Aquarius full Moon 2025

In astrology world, we have been looking at the grand trine formation of Uranus in Libra, connecting with Pluto in Aquarius, connecting with Mars in Libra. Everyone will have their own interpretation of this. The astrological wisdom is to to say that a trine is the “easy flow” between energies or aspects of consciousness tied to these planets as archetypal themes in our matrix. The kite is further formed because of the Mars opposition to Saturn: Mars in Libra is on the opposite sign/side of Saturn in Aries. Saturn isn’t by itself either–its been working through “Dream/Illusion/Spiritual Transcendance” Neptune. Saturn and Neptune are one of the most talked about transits because they won’t come into exact conjunction until February 2026. They are currently retrograde in Aries, soon to go back into Pisces, and then will go direct again and head into Aries for the full, long stay. Neptune the further away planet will be in Aries for a very long time, approx 14 years. So its trend is much more persistent.

Themes for Saturn/Neptune conjunction — (that has been squaring all the Cancer planets one by one through transit.)

  • Dream vs. Reality
  • Making dreams into Reality
  • Feeling forced to give up dreams by Saturn limitations
  • Uncertainty about what is dream and what is real
  • Saturnian discipline helping to parse out and work out Neptunian dreams and ideals
  • Daydreams and escapes of fantasy— and Saturnian consequences
  • New forms of artistic inspiration (Neptune) with different forms (Saturn)
  • and the possibilities go on? For example: Saturn/Neptune conjunct is asking: “What really is possible here?”

The bottom part of the Kite is another harmonious aspect with Uranus in Sextile to Pluto. Sextile, is just 60 degrees and yes, the metaphor is “as above so below,” so a sextile aspect in astrospeak is a productive energy of communication between themes of novelty (Uranus) and transformation (Pluto).

This early week, upcoming, we also have a beautiful conjunction with Venus in Jupiter August 12, right after Mercury stations direct on August 11. That plays into the fold as Venus and Jupiter make their annual conjunction this year in the sign of Cancer. The place where the sun just was! Family is soooo important. It takes center stage importance. Jupiter amplies. Venus softens and beautifies. Venus wants to relate and create. We are best to lean into our comforts, to help make lives more comfortable for others, and to get settled into the big feelings that come up with a lot of Cancer-type energy. Thus, in comes the perfect balancing support:

The Aquarius Full Moon

I’m delighted to say that a good Aquarius Full Moon can help with detachment. It helps us to get a bird’s eye view and step aside the very intense yet meaningful energies of all the other planetary happenings. We have also more support from the stars. This is a magnificent time of the year where the Perseids are streaming like the best annual show you ever saw! If we take a moment to look up at the stars in the expanse of the dark night, we get to see, truly see, our connection within the cosmos and it’s not a mystery, completely, this science of space and meteors affecting our planet’s experience! I hope you can enjoy!

*images from wallpaperaccess.com free milkyway wallpaper

One beautiful Full Moon is not going to eliminate all our problems, but alas, it might help us to get some distance from them. When that happens, the spaciousness can lend itself to some new energies which can give rise to new experiences and maybe, just maybe, that can help you to take a break, or make a break for some better experience.

I wanted to have more time to find some better videos and write a better post, but this is what was available. I hope you all enjoyed! Let me know in the comets if you are gonna get a change to see the Perseids this year. I am going to miss them at my favorite viewing spot, but I hope to see them next year!

Happy Star Gazing! Thanks for all the Birthday Wishes. I’ve got Aquarius Rising and S. Node in Aquarius so this Full Moon leaves me a bit satisfied to take a step back and feel some SPACE.

(My typos were almost perfect 😉 , esp at the end, so I left them! ) comet fully. 😂

The joy of Mercury retrograde in Leo

Let us turn to joy.

Can we be in joy while the whole world is in tumult? Are we allowed?

For some of us, we ache from the insides, deep in our healing—all we’ve been exposed to, all that has dimmed us, our hopes, our hearts’ desires.

But the heart’s energy field is bigger than a brain as HeartMath will tell you, the following about the heart’s field. The energy produced by the heart is more than 100 times greater in strength than the field generated by the brain and can be detected up to 3 feet away from the body, in all directions, using SQUID-based magnetometers (Figure 6.1).

The Heart's Magnetic Field

Figure 6.1 The heart’s magnetic field, which is the strongest rhythmic field produced by the human body, not only envelops every cell of the body, but also extends out in all directions into the space around us. The heart’s magnetic field can be measured several feet away from the body by sensitive magnetometers. Research conducted at HMI suggests the heart’s field is an important carrier of information.*

With Mercury retrograde in Leo it won’t be surprising to get clear on a number of things to review:

*How you put yourself out there

*What you do in life purely for the sake of joy and love

*What is your true need to be seen and heard by others

*Where you’d like to build more courage

I’m no stranger to this Mercury retrograde in Leo. Where Mercury is standing right now, He/She/They/It are directly on my natal Sun. ☀️

That very sun I have “given away” to “other” born in the house of “others.” (7th)

I have memories and contacts to explore. I have new relationships to consider. I get to PLAY with what possible wisdom may come from exploring those areas I need to show up with more courage.

At this point I have so many certifications, so much experience and expertise in a number of different fields that are all similarly related. I started a YouTube channel, and I’m maintaining this blog, my business, my house and plants, and my family.

Another BIG exam is slated for me to demonstrate my expertise in a new, deeper category of my TCM work: skin as an extension of my external medicine work. That exam will be at the tail end of the summer, during the “pause” right before a ton more astrological “action.” This is a category of achievement in my field where few have actually tread. The exam passing rate isn’t so high. That’s not why I’m doing it. I do it for love. Just love. I constantly and consistently invest myself in improving FOR others; to be of service.

But I’m human, and I’m making peace with a lot.

Much walking and physical movement, music, and catharsis decorates my summer Mercury retrograde party 🎈 banners/streamers and they look like balloons 🎈 around healing ❤️‍🩹 AND grieving at the same time.

I think we all know Trauma at this point. It’s become the collective consciousness’s main dialogue! How could it not? How many disasters are we recovering from, losses, interrupts, missed opportunities— at ANY given time?!

So, what can I offer you that has not been offered before? What will really make your heart sing?

Maybe… even just take some time out for some singing 🎶 and dancing. 💃 go outside and scream like a banshee, or if you realistically can’t, do it in a pillow.

No one needs to watch. Your own audience fills your inner world; it’s your shadow. Your shadow is your audience!

So don’t listen to anything that might hold you back from your purest heart’s desire. See what stands the test of time. See what stands the test of “this time.”

Mercury will retrograde from July 17-18 depending on where you live, until August 11/12.

What has been through the fire 🔥 that looks so shiny and sparkling now but has a lot of blood, sweat, and tears 😭 behind it?

You know. You are the one who been through the fire, through hell and back. You know: It’s your capacity to love.

During this Mercury retrograde when things might be better examined, slowed down, face unexpected technical challenges or fight inner demons.

You have a hand-holder, over here, in me. Somethings that REQUIRE courage, and the real movements can sometimes only be BABYSTEPS. I’m your girl. Your cheerleader. 📣

When you face those demons, you are not alone.

By next year I will also be offering my coaching programs and probably a slew of other carefully cultivated offerings. But I’ll still always be here— just like this. And this is MY love. To be here. With You.

*Source:

https://www.heartmath.org/research/science-of-the-heart/energetic-communication/

Poem 19 Day 19

The Medicine way

The gift you gave me

as your conduit

fresh fruit

Ready made magic marker

from the invisible pen of the divine

Sparkler

Each soul I serve

Adds light to my footsteps

Traces grace to my smile

So much love

So much peace

Rains down on me

The roots from the ground rise

Up and join thee

Nourish us

You, medicine hands,

Have shown me guidance

Shown me the

limitless source

of blossoming

Humbling me

Bringing me to my knees

In gratitude,

The opportunity

To soul-climb

Ascension, raising vibrations

In all dimensions, no negations

Secret serenade with

Jupiter and Uranus amplifies inventions

With intentions

I let it flow

My voice speak low

Oscillates,

The drum of my belly

The sound descending,

The spirit incarnating,

The Earth reforming,

My lips entraining,

We are re-gaining,

Ground.

Poem 8 Day 8

verdancy,

fresh tendrils,

spiral spun.

jewel of the woods

flourishing’s begun.

The slow twist of the mist

from rainforest’s rug,

where vines like anchors

can swing and tug,

from delirious duff

to dizzy canopy

airy soars,

treetop balcony.

air so dense and

wafting streams,

leaf cutters crawling

among sunbeams.

nightime jaguar

onyx-blue flickering

stalking past trees,

she’s writing the

rainforest’s grimoire.

Poem 7 Day 7

The morning

Is richer when

coffee is brewing

and the steam is

mixing with the

frosty windows

A little voice opens

the cash register “Ka-ching”

sells you a turtle from

your living room

and bonus surprise is

It’s a turtle baby inside

You give her cash but

she says her shop is free

and so you insist, I better pay

thee

How else is a shop gonna be?

The morning is yawning

with crusty eyes

that coffee doesn’t fix

tired sighs

but on a warm wash cloth

one relies

Good morning loves

the day’s a dove

cooing in the warmth,

apricity

winter lingers longer

making bird song

stronger,

Coffee. Water. Warmer,

Cinnamon for sure.

I’m hoping that the spacing turns out better than it did with my last post. I have written the poem in notepad and copy and pasted here. That changes the layout.

Poem 6 Day 6

spirit diving deeper

into the ravine

a black opening

whence

this void holds the choice

in virgin dust it forms

for an emerging pregnancy

to incarnate

and send ripples

through the curves of space-time

tap tap on

the black top hat

the magician weighs

the rabbit beforehand,

make sure it fits

a universe inside it.

**

Moving through this challenge! Let see what tomorrow brings! It’s actually more fun to write poetry when all I have is a few moments. 🤪🎩🐇

Ka’s Guide to Mercury Retrograde

I didn’t know what I was going to write, exactly, until I sat down and click-clacked away at the title. Apparently I am going to be writing a guide. If you know me well, you will know that the mere idea that I would provide you with a guide that you will immediately read and ignore is hilarious to me. There are many times in my life, when I have tried to share my wisdom but it has absolutely fallen on deaf ears. Sometimes people forget my advice was mine and they took it for their own and thought it was their own idea. Eventually they catch on. One of my first pieces of advice for you is to skip everything that I am writing and go directly to the song I have posted. The song is everything you need. The end.

But I am still here and click-clacking away. I’m doing this instead of cleaning the toilet. If you know me, they you would know that it is ridiculous for me to spend this time writing before my warrior training; I should really be cleaning the toilet. However, if you also know me, I think I’m going to bang out this post and still have time to do a glowy job on the toilet and make the good old porcelain shine. My voice feels different, but I assure you: it’s mine. It’s even more “me” because of this Mercury retrograde shadow period.

Essie Jain – my new favorite singer-musician

Source from above is Cafeastrology.com

Mercury Retrograde September to October 2022

  • On August 20, 2022, Mercury enters the Retrograde Zone (pre-retrograde shadow) at 24° Virgo 12′
  • On September 9, 2022, Mercury stations and turns retrograde at 8° Libra 55′ Rx
  • On October 2, 2022, Mercury stations and turns direct at 24° Virgo 12′
  • On October 16, 2022, Mercury leaves the Retrograde Zone (post-retrograde shadow) at 8° Libra 55′

KA’s 10 STEP – GUIDE

  • 1). Create comfortable space between your people and you.
    • Do this by taking more time to understand what people are saying. Recognize that even if you give it more time, you might still have a misunderstanding.
  • 2). Spend more time in quiet, journaling, and/or expressing yourself with the AWARENESS that you may not be understood as clearly as you’d like. Work on refinement.
  • 3). If you HAVE TO sign a contract, realize that it may not be perfect and it will likely need a “redo” so try to be as clear as possible by understanding that you may change your mind later, or need to do extra work around it.
  • 4). Use your time to get better acquainted with your technology, car, neighbors. If anything requires extra attention, expect to have to pause to take care of things more frequently. Pace yourself.
  • 5). Have an outlet for your frustration that is not another human or an animal. Practice deep breathing.
  • 6). Allow your spirit to guide you in a whimsical way but don’t sway too far off track. You need to give your spirit a wee bit more freedom to be “airy” during this time.
  • 7). Ventilate your space and keep your air circulating.
  • 8). Participate in movement activities to help nourish the energy that can get restricted during the retrograde movements. Any frenetic energy needs to be channeled into brainstorming or even scribbling. It’s okay to be messy during this period, give it an outlet. Your systems will improve when you observe yourself as a “train off the tracks” so you can be more mindful of your habits.
  • 9). REALIZE that this and every and all retrogrades are phenomena that don’t need to drive you crazy, because they are helping you to improve and become a much clearer and more direct version of yourself within your environment (3rd house, domain of Mercury/Gemini).
  • 10). If people from the past come back, ask yourself what you can learn from this period, so that when Mercury goes direct and into the post-shadow phase, you have clarity around your relationship.

Toilet cleaning is about to begin, at its best! LOL

My jaw hurts

how strange it is to notice it
clenching less often
while still anchoring itself
into itself,
as though it will save me
from all of my fearful thoughts.

or from words ~ useful
communication, where muscles
loosen, and the space that is created,
has options to offer others.

(so glad I’m not an expert).

what would i say if i
said everything that I wanted to say
as beautifully as i wish i could,
or if i simply accepted –

this moment,

exactly as it is?

>>>pain is a reminder of life, and living:
it is a reminder that we are all equally
subjected to

all the feels.

the good, the bad, the ugly ~
why settle for only a bland sky?
why settle for that which catches your eye?

why settle at all…

move through it ~
this is life, and it is living through you, but your
body is not the extent of your consciousness – it is only
a small part.

***
I’m very much looking forward to my retreat with Francis Lucille at the end of the month. Consciousness is having fun with pain here, why not?

Scarab Beetle with Wings

http://www.universeofsymbolism.com/scarab-symbolic-meaning.html

Yesterday, at Balboa Park, I was greeted by an interesting type of flying Scarab beetle.

During our somewhat brief interaction, I went into a position with my arms out, as though I was being smudged with sage before a ceremony. It even took a couple of passes across the length of my body and around my heart chakra. SO COOL!!!! How do those little wings hold up that big, green, sparkling body?! The energy of it felt wonderfully soothing, there wasn’t a touch of fear in my body. Otherwise, a big, buzzing bug, that seemed to arrive out of nowhere, might startle me.

I had some computer trouble this past week, and car trouble; so the computer didn’t get resolved yet. I’m also looking at a loss of files. This was classic Mercury retrograde (and we’re still in it!). Natal Moon and Mercury in Cancer, and a Jupiter and Saturn in Virgo- plus the “more-or-less-there” grand cross activates my personal planets –especially my natal Moon square Pluto. Not to mention the Chiron retrograde at the Solstice, and my natal 3rd house (Mercury/Gemini) Chiron. I haven’t been able to practice my Chinese since my laptop firmware issue – the Apple Manufacturing defect required them to wipe everything – that I only partially backed up, due to perceived time constraints. See my former Mercury retrograde article. I’ll come back and edit this article eventually.

Meanwhile… amazingly awesome and mystical encounters…allow me to know that I am

 

 

http://www.universeofsymbolism.com/scarab-symbolic-meaning.html

Mercury Retrograde – June 7 – Cancer/Gemini

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Hello!

I’m feeling the Mercury retrograde in Gemini early this time! Mercury will not officially go into the retrograde shadow, the apparent area of the zodiac @ 25 degrees Gemini, until May 23rd.  Yikes, everything keeps getting rescheduled! So my schedule keeps changing before my very eyes. Also, I keep feeling the desire to organize and get my data worked out. That is, get some of it saved onto my external drive – because goodness—all of a sudden it seems like there’s not enough room on all my electronic devices.

This Mercury retrograde will be primarily in Gemini, so it’s doubly-mental-witty-chatty. Double for a twin (astrological twins of the zodiac) is really saying something.

Usually my advice about a Mercury retrograde is to slow down. I use that same advice for a lot of aspects in life. This time, my intuition is telling me that if you can keep a steady pace while allowing for lots of flexibility, you can “master” the art of levity. One of the gifts of Gemini is that it’s light and airy – not deeply enmeshed in the details or in emotional attachment to details/information, but is subtly mentally aware of them all.

So, if while juggling during this Mercury retrograde, and your hands get tired, and you drop a ball or two – the important thing would be how much you don’t dwell on any one ball or occurrence. With Moon square Mercury on the retrograde chart, you should focus your energy on catching the next one, and once the astrological air clears, you can recover your other balls and make amends with any situations that turned up. Ultimately, the lesson is to juggle:  gently releasing the ball, each one, in order to gently catch the next one. The sign of Cancer (ruler of the Moon) has a tendency to emotional attachment, and wants to nurture each and every step. Don’t cling to one of the balls! Mercury and Gemini help us “lighten up,” and keep things in the air – where they are constantly moving and adaptable.

Details from Swiss Ephemeris:

Mercury crosses retrograde shadow May 23rd at 24.28 Gemini

Mercury stations retrograde on June 7 at 3.09 Cancer

Mercury stations direct on July 3 at 24.28 Gemini

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New Moon Virgo, Mercury Direct, Jupiter Retrograde

New Virgo Moon

New Moon Sabian Symbol: “A merry-go-round”

This is your invitation to step-off of your own personal Gerbil wheel. Recognition of the endless nature of the current path, we can see excuses we give ourselves for continuing in the same fashion. Seek renewal, true renewal.


I’ve noticed that this new moon had a lot of movement! I’m sure you did also. With the Sun/Moon (New Moon) conjunction in Virgo, a trine (easy aspect and zippy fast) to Jupiter in Taurus, and a trine to the retrograde Pluto in Capricorn, what we have are a number of celestial events that all reinforce the earth changes. Virgo, Taurus, and Capricorn are the earth signs, all involved in the major aspects listed above. No surprise that the East Coast was affected by an earthquake and a hurricane! Earth changes and collective consciousness changes abound.

Celestial event: Mercury retrograde ends (August 26, 2011)


Mercury started retrograde at 2 Virgo, backing up to 19 Leo (1st pass on July 15th). On August 26th Mercury stationed direct motion. Virgo themes are health, work, our pets, and the way we offer services. All are in a state of renewal and have been under review. The Sabian Symbol for Mercury Retrograde is “A large white cross upraised.” Blain Bovee, Sabian specialist, says this symbol is about setting a higher standard, and raising the bar. More is expected, requiring solid, tangible results. He also writes that, “When standards are hoisted… or foisted… a definite change in the atmosphere can be felt.” (site reference).

When we work with the earth energies, more is felt, as it is experienced on the physical plane. We can see the evidence of this without a doubt; it’s measurable and tangible. Yet what we are seeking is direction. Now the Sabian Symbol for the degree that mercury retrograded back to, Leo 19, is called, “A houseboat Party,” also what Bovee calls, “a keel-less boat.” The keel is the main structure of the ship—all the ship’s seaworthiness rests on the keel—apply this metaphor to our minds, and communications. How’s your mental keel? The keel is also defined as “the median ridge on the breastbone of birds that fly.” See, the keel is fundamental by design. The vision we communicate (Mercury) is in need of leadership and guidance, and that leadership must be built-in by design. More structural changes are ahead in your work-life and daily habits of mind (Virgo).

Clarity of direction

Mercury retrograde also helps to show us where our illusions are likely to be burst. The mercury retrograde cycle itself is good for re-viewing items, and that’s why it’s not a good time for signing contracts or starting new projects. The reason is that mercury brings its gift of clarity at the end of the retrograde cycle. During the retrograde cycle, we are in a muddier state, needing to return our attention to things already started. Mercury’s retrograde was from August 2 to August 26th, and if you tried to start something new at this time, it simply may have met with resistance or other types of inertia. Important to note is Mercury’s retrograde cycle extends beyond the visibly direction-change, meaning that when the planet turns direct, it’s going back over those astrological degrees in the sky it formerly passed before the retrograde. This records a cycle spanning back to July 15th. By September 9th, Mercury will have exited the retrograde path, Virgo 2. By then, all the mental dust ought to be settled, and the communications will be easier—even the thoughts will be more geared to forward movement with a likely re-direction of mental energies.

Celestial Event: New Moon in Virgo (August 28, 2011)

This new moon simply opens the door for the implementing the necessary changes that Mercury’s retrograde cycle helped to bring to our consciousness. The areas concerned are swiftly changing, however, regardless of whether or not consciousness has caught up with the knowledge. Let’s refer back to the Grand Trine that includes the New Moon with Jupiter, and Pluto. Pluto’s role here is about tremendous transformation. Pluto unearths (naturally it governs Scorpio), and will exhume what has been untouched for years, bringing it to the surface. What it brings up has a lot to do with Jupiter (your joy, abundance) in Taurus. Taurus is the astrological sign that represents our values and our resources. Taurus shows us the condition of our resources.

Celestial event: Jupiter Stations Retrograde (August 30, 2011)

Jupiter turns retrograde tomorrow in the sign of Taurus, on August 30th, 2011 until December 25, 2011.


When a planet retrogrades, it’s said that its energies are introverted, making the energies even more personal. That is, retrograde motion gives the consciousness the opportunity to reflect on itself. We will reflect on our excesses, where we “hold abundance” and those areas of life that bring us hope. This is also a time for considering where abundance is blocked in our being, our energy, and our personal vision about our life. As always, this information is shared with love and is my gift to you. Be blessed!

Aspects involving New Moon:
Grand Trine: New Moon conjunct Venus, Pluto, and Jupiter
Grand Trine: Mercury, Lilith, transiting N.Node
New Moon opposite Chiron and Neptune

Events within days of New Moon:
Mercury Station Direct (Aug 26) -2 days
Jupiter Station Retrograde (Aug 30) +2 days

Larger aspect cycles, independent of New Moon:
Uranus Square Pluto
Mars Square Saturn
Saturn Opposite Lilith
T-Square: Lilith, Mars, Saturn

Photos courtesy of http://lunaf.com/images/zodiacal-signs/zodiacal-sign-virgo.jpg;
http://screensaver.qweas.com/3d/jupiter_3d_space_survey_screensaver.htm; http://planetfacts.org/planet-mercury-facts/

Mercury Retrograde Aries, March 30, 2011

Mercury Retrograde in Aries

On March 30, 2011, Mercury goes retrograde (Rx) in Aries during the planetary hour of Saturn. Mercury will retrograde at the Aries point of 24 degrees 21 minutes.  Traditional Aries associations tied with Mercury are impatience, impulsivity, and overall fast and full-force action. During a retrograde phase, the apparent view of Mercury’s motion is backward.  Mercury’s apparent motion will turn direct on April 23, 2011. During the retrograde period the process is finding new solutions to old problems. Mercury retrograde is associated with delays in communication, travel, and scheduling. It’s a period allowing for re-thinking and re-doing. Mercury retrograde does not lend itself well to making new commitments (such as signing contracts) or starting new projects. It is simply a period for re-view.

At the point and time Mercury retrogrades, it will septile (51 degrees) Venus, Chiron, and Ceres in the sign of Pisces, sexile (60 degrees) Neptune in Pisces, and trine (120 degrees) the transiting N.Node. A septile aspect suggests the numinous, being 1/7 of 360 degrees, and expressing the 7th harmonic.

What all that means is the following:

We will review our artistic talents and concepts of healing and spirituality by reconnecting with areas in our lives where we experience a deep sense of purpose. Parent/child relations involve over-attachment, separation, or letting-go issues and we might receive or be seeking divine intervention with this. On a more mundane level, we need to be watching what we say and using our heads very pointedly to push through delays and stay on task. We may have moved too fast to begin with and need re-direct our energies into the most purposeful end result.