I love the magic and mystery of the season – a season that reminds me of miracles and my place in them. At this time of year, I find myself wanting to be both present with my loved ones and meanwhile desirous to carve out a nook for contemplation.

This morning, on the first day of Winter, I find myself being with God. Which God? My pantheistic tendencies allow me to engage and interact with so many dynamic forms of god. For that, I am grateful. I’m not Jewish nor Christian, but I spent my early childhood with Christian mysticism and that followed me. I enjoy the richness of Kabbalah, and it’s led me. I’m not sure it’s the mystic path. Is it a pagan path, no, not entirely. Many would call it a name. I don’t want to. I found Taoism at 15, still a child, Taoism and literature was added into my “now-cauldron.” At 21, I traveled to India, was blessed by priests, and visited many countries as globalism was just being to explode; I added many other aspects and myths of many cultures to my then still younger pantheon through anthropology as my early undergraduate education. In my early 30s, I found Amma, Mooji, Gangaji and countless others. Each one who was there for me.

I find myself, today, seeking that unified voice of God, the one that isn’t a religious God – but I put the capital G because I am exploring this colloquial name, this non-gendered experience of “the one on the other end of a total transformation.” The one so preciously available at all times. The subjective-objective meeting point. The central one.

I enjoy my choices, as I know does God. Me choosing, playing, creating, being…

Finding the need and desire for my unique way of rejoicing, as I evolve myself in this body, is part of the fun of my life, and the life I Get to share with others. I’m embracing the God of my childhood, the one who was sometimes ‘there’ but often left me stranded. The one that seemed to morph at some point into a Sufi reflection, and now is just tenderly waiting for me to come back into union, to notice my self in her. To be one with me. The one who is always available for me.

Whatever faith or non-faith any of you, my dear readers practice, I wish you a very joyful time in your heart, even if you celebrate quietly or if it’s a roaring party for the next set of 20’s.

Thank you so much for being here!

May health, wealth, friendship, family, and contentedness be in store for us in 2020 – and miracles! Yes, miracles.

Oh, and 1 more important thing:
may we continue to improve ourselves so we can contribute to others, especially if that means: first we must care for ourselves.

9 thoughts on “Yuletide

  1. *When first published, comments were not enabled. Maybe this is a software change, that I have to go in and manually enable them every post? I updated the comments to enable them. Here is a comment from Linda @ Litebeing.com

    “I enjoyed hearing about all the different phases of your relationship with God, religion, culture, mysticism, travel, etc. I love who you were and who you are now. much light and joy, Linda ❤”

  2. Lovely sentiments, Ka. I can relate to your seeking through various pathways for the whole truth, for thatt capital-G, genderless God. As near to you as you yourself. Your love shines brightly, my friend, and is a gift to this world! Wishing you a blessed holiday season as well!


    1. Thank you, Michael. I feel like a little while back my “search” ended, and now I am living with the changing and morphing expression of the one in infinite forms. My relationship is always deepening. I’m grateful for that knowingness/beingness, whether I carve out time to contemplate it or not!

      It’s always a treat to have you visit here. Thank you for reading and for being with my thoughts for a bit. Thank you so much for your kindness, always 🙂 Much love and happiness to you and yours and all that we create. I feel pretty excited for you. You are quite an inspiring person/author! 🙂 Thank you so much, my friend! Happy Holiday Season! xo

  3. *Message from JoAnna @ JoAnnaoftheforest.wordpress.com
    “I loved your Yuletide post but didn’t see a place to comment. This line about God really resonated with me: ….tenderly waiting for me to come back into union, to notice my self in her. To be one with me. The one who is always available for me.” And I love, love, love the image which appears to be from my favorite artist, Amanda Clark. I wish you many beautiful miracles.”

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