My tears are touching everything but what I need

My tears touch my cheeks

But cannot spread into my heart

Cannot touch this wound and offer it

Still there’s flowing from both heart and from tears

The path forward seems dusted over

Every prayer keeps me in it for the day

But each day I’m missing out on where my

Heart wants to be engaged, in full capacity.

Moments ease and bring hope.

But, the same thorn in my back remains

My patience has been by my side for 9 years

But the dysfunction cannot be ignored.

I am tethered to it.

Only well enough for so long or so far

The variable “x” has been my one constant.

I want to run and sweat with all the energy I have built for transformation

But I am stuck sliding back in my circled walls so slick I cannot climb

Bone deep is misaligned

No muscle release nor stretch will remove the thorn, no deep breath, no daily meditation, no daily Qi gong wills it away.

Where I want to spread hope, I’m left wanting.

My tears arriving to keep me company and hear me lose my patience.

Enough!

14 thoughts on “My tears are touching everything but what I need

  1. Ah…my dear friend. I can hear the pain in your words and know that you are suffering. I am so sorry. I understand how that kind of pain can keep you planted in a dungeon…dark dank walls that, as you stated, are too slippery to climb up.
    Hang in there my friend. I send you so much healing white energy. I send you love. I send you patience. I send you light and love. ❤ ❤

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