Hold my hand
as we watch this morning rise
from distant skies.
I’ve known you since these planets were born.
Since we were born.
To touch the sky with our eyes
to feel the connection, and
to know that meetings come and go.
We only have moments here,
but within us, is that eternity, shining.
—-Ka Malana ©️2025
i want to meet you in the
holy now
.
Rumi and Kabir
arranged their calendars
around the beating heart of time
Kali bespoke the destruction of limitations
.
I wiped my hard drive
tore the clutter from the cloud
and dusted under heaven
.
I dug out all the roots of that invasive
horsetail grass, a true medicine in
other contexts
.
i threw out context
.
i settled on this flower
and that flower,
.
and the flowering of you.
.
just to meet you.
☀️ 🌙
living without a body
may be the real body
.
actuated/destroyed
.
all is contained in the one,
who is already open
.
unboxed.
…
eye of ra
crescent moon 🌙
.
goddess’s breath: kinetic
.
shakti-love steers conception,
spinning the multitude of
galaxies sunder —
like cotton candy confections
each one is divided just for you to taste and describe anew.
.
her breath
set into motion,
opens the door.
.
furnishing evidence for creation,
another offer springs up
with fragrant flowers at your feet.
.
step into this ‘other’ dimension
through rebirth,
an unadulterated heaven.
.
the gateway swirls with fortitude
sewn into the fabric of dark matter,
‘behold your sacred name’
.
her galaxy’s rotational curves
are the mere eyelash-bats
of her curiosity,
a nod to wonder in a tryst of passion
.
mind’s vacated,
cavernous function
echoes grace
.
one swing of her stellar tresses
provides the light for an eternity.
.
a blink of quantum
a pinch of akash
sparkling petticoat of richness and splendor
.
her magickal presence expanding,
demonstrating, in full opulence ~
the
.
pure generosity of her touch.
⭐️
Ancient one
Speak to me in between
lines
in between minutes
Breaths,
Rings of the bell,
Ticks of the clock
,
Ancient one
Feed me when my next meal is
unknown
When my
connection to the divine feels a
trickle
,
Ancient one
ease my impatience
my doubt
ease the jagged edges where
snags of thoughts
conspire to unravel me
into unrequited nothingness
,
Ancient one
Hold my hand,
Be present with me
Notify the world to be kind
When needing to hang a sign
on the door to say
“Out for some air.”
,
Ancient one
Let me grow into your grace
Feel the peace that openness
And readiness provides;
Let speak more directly
through you.
Ancient one
Walk this way with me
Today, Tomorrow,
and Always.
Unbreak this Earth
Kiss her feet, her skin
Let her know you care about
How well the oceans flow
.
How clean the air is
Unbreak these wars
The cries of children
gone silent
The cries of hostages
Tortured
The cries of terror from
Evil demonstrations of power
.
Unbreak these broken bonds
The ones in families
And in communities who can
No longer trust neighbors have
Got. their. back.
.
Unbreak my heart
Your heart,
Our ONE heart
As we struggle to unite
While forces tear apart
.
Unbreak the social dissonance
Lack of true embrace, connection
Conscience
Trust. Poverty of graciousness
Unbreak my head and heart full
Of scribbles and tears.
Nightime fears
.
It’s hard to sleep well with one
Eye open.
.
Unbreak the spell of discord
Of misstep, of Russian roulette
Economic exclusion,
Economic confusion
Economic illusion
.
Unbreak our hopes and
Strengthen our confidence
Fight for nothing but your soul’s
Kindness and Grace
Watch love with Lace
weave space,
and pace
.
Yourself.
.
We can do this.
Big thank you all for your encouragement. This is the last weekend of the challenge, and each one of you have contributed to my ability to pull through! 😍. I love you all more than you probably know. 🤗⭐️🌌 Earth 🌍 Day. 💕 Spread Love
The time of the sea
has come again
washing us all into one another
our arms are twirling
our colors blurring
hair woven wet– pulled into the rocks.
We cannot distinguish who we are,
and why would we want to?
We have a solar eclipse coming up here on December 14, a Jupiter/Saturn conjunction in Aquarius shortly after that and then a Full Moon in Cancer on the 29th. There’s been a lot of astrology to talk about during all these crazy months but these newer developments feel more liberating than we’ve seen in a while.
The solar eclipse on the 14th is in the sign of Sagittarius. It’s a good opportunity to take stock of beliefs and how beliefs affect and color emotions to create mental filter through which we determine our realities. There’s a lot of social movements and many small groups that have communications around beliefs and translating those into visions for how to live in the world. However I’m more interested on the individual level and how the astrology can be used to help liberate us.
For one, this solar eclipse which translates into a Sun and Moon conjunction in the sign of Sagittarius at 23 degrees and 8 min, at at 11:16 a.m. ET/8:16 a.m. PT. is within a 3 degree orb conjunction with Mercury. The stories we tell ourselves are so important, and they are important at any time. However when we are on the cusp of a new adventure or journey, as at this eclipse, we are even more guided to the star ⭐️ we hitch our wagons to. That wagon is the energy or the wheels we give to our personal stories. When we seek liberation, we often try to overcome personal stories but then miss out on the richness of a life of non-attachment within those stories that decorate and frame our lives.
For me, this eclipse takes place in my 11th house of hopes and dreams and this week I’m finishing up a long term goal to complete my Masters program in Acupuncture and Chinese Medicine and fulfill my last requirements. I’ve had a long journey 6+ years with this endeavor and I’ve really struggled a lot through many personal challenges. There’s also been many graces along the way; but overall, I wanted to quit many times. At this point, I’m looking forward to integrating and spending some time in a place where I can be on the other end of this milestone. I put in a tremendous amount of energy, work, and slayed so many personal demons, but I’ve got more effort and work ahead of me, no doubt. For now, I’m enjoying the energy of this solar eclipse to highlight for me how my life is in many ways “scheduled and on-time” regardless of how my ego sometimes prefers.
This Jupiter/Saturn conjunction in my 12th house will further light up areas where my self-undoing has short-changed me but best of all these openings will finally be in the same sign as my ascendant in Aquarius. I’m ready to be moving into my Aquarian energy again, into my 1st house eventually, which is a little while away, but will be an additional boost to how I experience myself interfacing and interacting with deepest hopes and dreams, as a whole and refreshed person on the new horizon of my new consciousness.
It’ll be interesting to see where we all land on the full Moon in Cancer on December 29, as this virus continues to challenge individuals, families and cultural and financial systems.
January 2020 began, after all, with a moon in Cancer, on January 10. Reflecting back on this time is full-circle, where will we be? Where will you be? Come January 28, 2021 the first full moon of the year will be in Leo. So let’s think on it. Let’s call in Sagittarian wisdom from experience that we have special access to during this eclipse and look at this Cancerian (stay at home) year, in bookends.
Let’s figure out how we translate into the New Year 2021, as the year that brings our strengths into the equation in a new way. We have in so many ways been vulnerable in 2020 (Cancer), some have fought against what might have been perceived as authoritarian and rules from governance, and now it’s time to think about the ways within we’ve grown as we continue to walk into a more Leonine head-still-held-up, in a “how we survived,” call to grace. It’s those sprouts 🌱 which will come up in the new year, 2021. We will be dusting off the ashes, so to speak.
I hope you all have a peaceful and healthy holiday transition this December as many have already begun celebrating Hanukkah and this month is rich in energy for hope and magic. May you be well, May you be happy.
the sun is delicious with its orange yum glow
it dangles the edge of the horizon,
painting with wet colors
as it slips into the brown earth layers,
implants like a vibrant seed into the
cool, jazzy earth.
then with a wink, the earth slurps up
the sun’s last light.
connected in the rudraksha forest
i meditated and traced back into my blood lines
the joys and sorrows of all who came before me
drawn full into my body.
navigating along a nano-sized boat along these channels
I explored my arteries, arterioles, and capillaries;
when I reached my heart, I leapt out of the boat
and dove deep into my left ventricle, swam for an hour.
now, I don’t exist as the meat and flesh of walking
human-normal.
Yay! Today is Pepper day! It’s the 22nd of each month. This month is especially peppery since we are doing the November Nano Poblano 2020 blogging challenge.
This weekend at my NCGR meeting, I learned that a woman who was a very kind and loving friend, and astrologer, passed away. I hadn’t known. I looked back at the last text message she sent to me in January 2020 after meeting my daughter, and I felt very glad that I had the chance to meet her. I’m sad that I didn’t get to know her more, or work with her more. I had only been to her house a couple of times for her classes. She was an amazing mentor to so many. I missed out in a lot of ways. One year she told me that she added us (my family) to her special New Year wishes and ritual. I felt so touched. I saw her at over a dozen meetings these past few years before I had my baby, and before the pandemic.
It’s not easy to get my photography converted from a shiny print into a photograph with glare; and even though I saved the negatives, there are projects that I never got around to, like making new prints or digital images from the negatives, or scanning in photos, etc etc.
However I enjoyed these compositions of people in their natural element, and really feel these images express the beauty in the spirit, and the community liveliness I witnessed.
Each twist and turn
in the story of life
is but a flutter of light
glinting off a butterfly’s wings.
each moment is a whisper of
soft spoken messages fleshed with meaning
during our telling of it
who and what, where and which way when
is not as important as how we felt
when we quieted the inner din
and stared dark into the silence
feeling the holy fragility of the moments
that are too few to give us any true picture
of where we are going…
Like this.
This is the life—
The satisfaction of a statue,
expressing timeless surrender.
We can travel to a memory,
even tarnished, it will shine.
You can dream about what’s possible,
and re-imagine what already happened.
May we all live and grow old
and smile, contentedly.
Like this.
Hello Folks!
I wanted to re-blog my older post in honor of the 29th degree of Aquarius, during our upcoming New Moon on February 18. It “took place” at the same degree as Venus Conjunct Neptune (@ Aquarius 29) in 2011 (03-25-11, date of my orig. post). I am wrapping up some themes here in my life as we embrace this “Nth” degrees of these signs (Next month Pisces 29). I’m happy to say that this is the second post I’ve written here at Fiesta Estrella, and I really wouldn’t change too much. I’d also like to dedicate this post to your celebrations of Valentine’s Day &/or MahaShivaratri ❤ (in our case) The marriage of Shiva & Shakti, with my sweetheart. We’ve had a wonderful journey, and I’m happy to see how far this blog has come, as have I. [I took 2012 off completely as part of my own transformation.] I am so grateful for my readers and commenters who have just shown how AWESOME they are on their own blogs – and who have taken the time to comment, engage, celebrate, and just Be with me here. I Love you All. ~Ka Malana
Wishing for you all kinds of Lovin’ this New Moon in Aquarius! LOVE-EQUALITY
When are Ideas about Love Ideals and not entirely realistic?
I was discussing with a friend the ideals we have about love and relationships and how, over time, our ideals have both informed and misinformed us about true relating in our relationships. It’s occurred to me a good reason that he and I are having this conversation is because of this transit. I’d like to examine this aspect here in my blog today: Neptune conjunct Venus
A conjunction is an astrological aspect described as two planets or cosmic bodies co-existing side-by-side in an astrological chart. The planetary energies fuse together, combining archetypes. Two archetypes are at play in the sign of Aquarius (detachment, and humanistic /impersonal love). The archetypes are Neptune: the submerged, sea-god Poseidon, who represents sacrifice and transcendence; and, Venus: representing Eros, personal love, and relationships.
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Hello Everybody 🙂
Today I am being held up by the Apple store! UPDATE: Problem solved by determination/patience, deduction, and luck!
I need to do all these things to fix my phone – and having the situation of a forced upgrade because the operating system updates are getting too large; and, I have too many pictures on my phone; and, the prong contacts are old and corroded, so my phone is not charging nor transferring files. (resolved).
Having previously worked in the cell phone industry as a “back end” systems, Credit/Order and Operations Specialist, I helped people get through the nasty, long-winded, endlessly riddled struggle of doing simple things: making a purchase. I had to do the equivalent of putting out technological fires, and making small operational miracles out of issues resulting from transitioning and non-communicating systems. My department, of course, was phased out. (good for me because I got the universe’s message, beforehand).
I still do like technology. It is, however, a love/hate relationship; and I quickly learned, not my number #1 thing I wanted to be adept at – or have to do. Somebody’s gotta do it, sometimes. (Done)
Here’s something fun I dug up: old TV shows that influenced my sometimes obvious, other-times-not-obvious, Aquarian persona. They are short clips (the first one – at 27 secs), merely for enticing, if you have the time for this kind of entertainment.
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