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Construction 🚧 and art 🖼️, design and building. Here we make things from the “brick and mortar” of our imaginations. Putting out fires 🔥 and riding on trains. The city is always bustling just like the movement in our brains.
If you are new to my blog you will find many different displays. What I do know is that you will not be dismayed. Creativity is fuel for the soul!
This space is being constructed as we think and speak! 🗣️ Come, come, and join us!
don’t want to dance on the ashes
of 2022!
It’s too soon to discard what was then and
now just celebrate the new!
But it’s coming fast, and as I hold on tight
Not relenting just isn’t quite right.
So I will take my time up until the very end
And delicately hold my 2022 as my passing friend,
For it brought me more joy and delight
Than my hopes from 2021 could ignite
And wishes granted than the former trend.
I have come home to truly mend
My vision and my mind,
and now the sights on what’s behind
has been a pause and a trigger
For what could 2023 deliver
upon what’s already been given and kind?
I will open my hand and say goodbye
Just not before, not too soon, 2022, is behind.
in the beginning
i’m rising like a landmass
uncarved like Pangea
unbridled like a dragon 🐉
whose fire finds the hero by
skimming along the craggy coastal line
overlooking colors, scanning its domain
yellow warm lay the grasses
pleasant in the sun, combed by the wind
deep green rise the forests
protected humus layered depths
tangling tree fingers spread with skies
fractals finding spaces to replicate
nature’s expanse
this Earth’s anchor is a morphic reminder
that nothing is solid
we are in the center as awareness, golden
flowing molten iron swirling,
balancing aurora flashing green tones
while the amethyst crystal horizon line
guides us into the dusk of
our true and formal beginning: the end.
All that comes with the setting Sun.
I don’t know how many of us have been even unconsciously/consciously planning for the Mercury retrograde set to start moving backwards on December 22 to January 18, 2023. I know for me, I’ve had to slow way down–take my time getting through being sick, and nurse myself into health. But also I’ve needed to feel into some more challenging emotions and allow them to move though me gently. It’s a Capricornian retrograde during the Capricornian season. I’ve got Capricorn in my 11th and 12th houses, and it’s never been my favorite sign. Career path and career recognition as well as earning enough income to live has always been a challenge for me. I think it’s because of this, I never felt like I self-actualized. I’ve never been fired from a job. I always excelled at all the jobs I did. However, I was always left longing for something more. I was looking for my purpose. There was a period of time when I was working in IT for a very well known company, and I thought that all I wanted to do was work up the line and gain experience through this career. The job benefits were great. I was always winning awards and making a decent income while working special shift hours. Then my boss was demoted due to his on-going health problems. It was then that I decided I need to do something radically different. I needed to work for an organization that cared about their employees. Even more than that, I wanted to go into business for myself, and sell something I actually cared about. So I started learning massage in 2008. However, it wasn’t until a couple of months ago that I actually started my own business.
Are you someone who is successful at business? If so, what do you think made the difference in your success?
Do you struggle with business?
Are you in a family of entrepreneurs?
Have any of you realized that business and growing business can be a an act of service?
Share you experiences here.
The incredible changes to my life since last year have been so positive; it is wonderfully baffling.
Last year I was struggling with depression because of what felt like a never-ending severe back pain problem. What I did was I put so much energy, effort and investment into my wellness, and it worked! Where I used to have to lay in bed hours a day for physical pain, I’m now able to function normally, since about November of last year. This has been my longest period of living ‘normally’ again since 2012.
I prayed, worked on myself, did so many therapies like targeted spinal decompression and PRP including additional shamanic work. This was all in addition to the chiropractic and the acupuncture, exercises, stretching and diet changes. It all helped, but now I can even add very wonderful 1 hr cardio great sweating workouts twice a week in addition to my weekly martial arts training with my trainer. On the other days I still make time for working out and meditating.
Now my entire life as a whole is so fulfilling and well rounded. This December I will be graduating with my doctorate degree in Acupuncture. Right now with my Master’s degree and license, I work on athletes at the nearby university. I work with children at the nearby hospital, and I have a private practice with my own office.
This afternoon, I took a good nap, and when I awoke I started reflecting on the work I’ve been doing, the healing, and also the many challenges I have overcome. We live in a new house that I am in love with,too. My energy has expanded so much! What I also do see is that my healing is going to keep going deeper. I am able to work with people so beautifully. I can see how much I help them, and the feedback I get often astonishes me. This is incredibly motivating and rewarding.
At this point in my life, I wonder: what else is possible?! I’ve run out of particular wishes or desires. I have all that I need. I am beyond grateful for this life I get to live, and for being able to get out of that hole I was in while processing all that I needed to process. Spiritual growth is a real thing. These bodies we inhabit can help us transcend the body. Once again, this feels like the beginning of a new chapter in my life—into the depth of my core. The power I am generating from my center is a gift that I am motivated to share with others as I continue to expand. My birthday is coming around again in August, and I face it with this deep peace, pleasure, and knowingness. I am settled. I am dynamic, and I am ready for more.
We have family visiting this week, and next month as well. It will be another dynamic time. The excitement and drive I feel to be an ever-increasing positive influence is real.
I know I haven’t been on the blog much. I miss so many of you. But, I do know that this is just a season, and I’m always here. Blogging is not temporary. I love you all so much to connect to you all is such a gift. When I reached out last year, I received so much grace and love from you. You all really helped me get through that challenging time. I want us to stay in touch with each other, here and on your blogs, and continue to be in each others’ lives. Thank you for reading! 💗
We have a solar eclipse coming up here on December 14, a Jupiter/Saturn conjunction in Aquarius shortly after that and then a Full Moon in Cancer on the 29th. There’s been a lot of astrology to talk about during all these crazy months but these newer developments feel more liberating than we’ve seen in a while.
The solar eclipse on the 14th is in the sign of Sagittarius. It’s a good opportunity to take stock of beliefs and how beliefs affect and color emotions to create mental filter through which we determine our realities. There’s a lot of social movements and many small groups that have communications around beliefs and translating those into visions for how to live in the world. However I’m more interested on the individual level and how the astrology can be used to help liberate us.
For one, this solar eclipse which translates into a Sun and Moon conjunction in the sign of Sagittarius at 23 degrees and 8 min, at at 11:16 a.m. ET/8:16 a.m. PT. is within a 3 degree orb conjunction with Mercury. The stories we tell ourselves are so important, and they are important at any time. However when we are on the cusp of a new adventure or journey, as at this eclipse, we are even more guided to the star ⭐️ we hitch our wagons to. That wagon is the energy or the wheels we give to our personal stories. When we seek liberation, we often try to overcome personal stories but then miss out on the richness of a life of non-attachment within those stories that decorate and frame our lives.
For me, this eclipse takes place in my 11th house of hopes and dreams and this week I’m finishing up a long term goal to complete my Masters program in Acupuncture and Chinese Medicine and fulfill my last requirements. I’ve had a long journey 6+ years with this endeavor and I’ve really struggled a lot through many personal challenges. There’s also been many graces along the way; but overall, I wanted to quit many times. At this point, I’m looking forward to integrating and spending some time in a place where I can be on the other end of this milestone. I put in a tremendous amount of energy, work, and slayed so many personal demons, but I’ve got more effort and work ahead of me, no doubt. For now, I’m enjoying the energy of this solar eclipse to highlight for me how my life is in many ways “scheduled and on-time” regardless of how my ego sometimes prefers.
This Jupiter/Saturn conjunction in my 12th house will further light up areas where my self-undoing has short-changed me but best of all these openings will finally be in the same sign as my ascendant in Aquarius. I’m ready to be moving into my Aquarian energy again, into my 1st house eventually, which is a little while away, but will be an additional boost to how I experience myself interfacing and interacting with deepest hopes and dreams, as a whole and refreshed person on the new horizon of my new consciousness.
It’ll be interesting to see where we all land on the full Moon in Cancer on December 29, as this virus continues to challenge individuals, families and cultural and financial systems.
January 2020 began, after all, with a moon in Cancer, on January 10. Reflecting back on this time is full-circle, where will we be? Where will you be? Come January 28, 2021 the first full moon of the year will be in Leo. So let’s think on it. Let’s call in Sagittarian wisdom from experience that we have special access to during this eclipse and look at this Cancerian (stay at home) year, in bookends.
Let’s figure out how we translate into the New Year 2021, as the year that brings our strengths into the equation in a new way. We have in so many ways been vulnerable in 2020 (Cancer), some have fought against what might have been perceived as authoritarian and rules from governance, and now it’s time to think about the ways within we’ve grown as we continue to walk into a more Leonine head-still-held-up, in a “how we survived,” call to grace. It’s those sprouts 🌱 which will come up in the new year, 2021. We will be dusting off the ashes, so to speak.
I hope you all have a peaceful and healthy holiday transition this December as many have already begun celebrating Hanukkah and this month is rich in energy for hope and magic. May you be well, May you be happy.
7.12.14
Moon loosely conjunct Pluto ~8 degree orb
Sun loosely conjunct Jupiter ~9 degree orb
Jupiter @ 29 degrees Cancer and about to ingress (enter) Leo.
Active grand cross in Cardinal signs
Discipline
My contemplation lately, my personal journal, and my astrological reading for the ‘Full Moon’ in Capricorn has been centered around this idea of “discipline.”
What is discipline other than to “show up” for what you signed up for? Stick-to-it-iveness. I mean to be really ‘present’ with your goals, devoted. I’m sure this thought of mine evokes some of your own thoughts. I do hope you will share them below.
I think discipline is also based on the word “disciple.” One acts as a devotee to something, even if nothing but to the process itself – the inner development. In other words, I think of discipline as being devoted to the process of self-development, relationship development, and/or community development. I’m sure I left out some other possible scenarios.
Often a disciple is devoted to God, Spirit, whatever source a person chooses to recognize as the provider of all there is. I’ve seen references to Self with a capital ‘S,’ to set it apart from the ephemeral-natured self of persona/ego. I’ve also seen people choose to be atheist while offering their services to humanity with the deepest respect and reverence for life.
Interestingly, this particular full moon is known to many Hindus and Buddhists as Guru Purnima, the full moon of Guru. It is a time to honor the removers of ignorance, the teachers. Historically it was a celebration for Guru Vyasa, writer of the Vedas, the 4 sacred Indian texts. It is the idea that it is the Guru’s job to bring us to God. That is, the guru (teacher) removes the obstacles from recognizing God, and/or obstacles along the path to Buddha/Bodhisattva/Enlightenment.
In popular American culture, Gurus of certain things are experienced persons that help people get past the “entry stage” or newbie-hood of a particular Tao/Dao Way or ArtScience. Say, it’s the Love Guru!
You can also work on the development of other internal/externals: your garden, your art, the health of your animals, building your dream house, writing your book, building your audience. What are you currently developing?
Really, there’s no limit to potential options – unless you make one. Which is where Saturn comes in – the ruler of Capricorn. Limiter of all things: Chronos, time. Slicing the pie into bite-size pieces. The astrological pie is made up of approximately 2 hours per astrological slice/sign, or 30 degrees!
When is setting limits a good idea? ……It can create more choice.
I feel like people have a lot of opinions about discipline and responsibility. I find that beliefs and values around religion and spirituality are also cultural values expressed around the ideas of responsibility. Often people say “I can’t” based on perceived or real obligations and limiting factors. But what about the limiters that you can choose that result in more choice for you?
Time is the natural limiter
We only have so many resources, a certain amount of time. What do you want to do with your piece of the pie? What if you chose to sell it so you could raise the funds to make more pie and offer it to more people? There’s no judgment here, it’s just a metaphor, and I’m just curious. Please tell me. Some would give away their pie, and then the pie would be eaten, and enjoyed by another. Some would eat their own pie, joyfully. Why not? Some people don’t even like pie, and would rather see no one eat it. Maybe others could trade pies – in a scenario where that was possible of course! What scenarios have I missed?
You get the point, we all get the choice of what to do with our lives; and, it’s probably a good idea not to choose for others what they ought to do with theirs. But, how about providing choice? Capricorn is known as the sign of “business,” and a certain doggedness, a loyalty is evident with this sign. Capricorn wants to see concrete results. Think of the very visible rings on Saturn – the planet that rules Capricorn.
Thoughts about Failure
How well am I performing? If I’m trying as hard as ever, and I’m still not getting results, what do I have to change or modify? Usually, this is when we may or may not realize we reached our very non-specific goals. We were successful at being vague!
It’s having specific goals that brings up the possibility for failure.
Making certain, definite goals is actually quite terrifying because it always means that failure lurks. But why should failure lurk? Even failure is information, and a possible chance at success once unpacked and understood.
Allow me to illustrate: in an attempt to save my draft as a draft and not to publish my post immediately, I ended up setting up a password. The thing I didn’t realize is that a “password protected” post would get published. But, I’m glad that I didn’t publish it outright, because I wasn’t ready. Whoops! I’m not actually trying to limit people from reading my posts! Ever since Mercury went retrograde and then stationed direct but is still in retrograde shadow, well, I have been trying new things. They don’t always work out! But, in the end, I’m just glad that I made it to the writing table.
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Full Moon in Capricorn: Driven for concrete results
Moon loosely conjunct Pluto ~8 degree orbSun loosely conjunct Jupiter ~9 degree orb (Jupiter on final degree of Cancer and about to ingress (enter) Leo.
Discipline
My contemplation lately, my personal journal, and my astrological reading for the ‘Full Moon’ in Capricorn has been centered around this idea of “discipline.”
What is discipline other than to “show up” for what you signed up for? Stick-to-it-iveness. I mean to be really ‘present’ with your goals. I’m sure this thought of mine evokes some of your own thoughts. I do hope you share them below.
I think discipline is also based on the word “disciple.” One acts as a devotee to something, even if nothing but to the process itself – the inner development. In other words, I think of discipline as being devoted to the process of self-development, relationship development, and/or community development. To God, Spirit, the source a person chooses to recognize.
You can also work on the development of your garden, your art, the health of your animals, building your dream house. What are you currently developing?
Really, there’s no limit to the focus – unless you make one. Which is where Saturn comes in – the ruler of Capricorn. Limiter of all things: Chronos, time. Slicing the pie into bite-size pieces – actually approximately 2 hours per sign!
When is setting-limits a good idea?
I feel like people have a lot of opinions about discipline and responsibility. In fact, it’s an area of life where I find that many people tend to express or cast the most judgment – for good and/or for bad–especially about others. It’s also an area where we internally tend to be the hardest on ourselves, especially in terms of living up to the expectation that we perceive that others are placing on us.
Thoughts about Failure
How well am I performing? If I’m trying as hard as ever, and I’m still not getting results, what do I have to change or modify? Usually, this is when we may or may not realize we reached our very non-specific goals. It’s the specific goals that bring up the possibility for failure, after-all.
Making certain goals is actually quite terrifying because it always means that failure lurks. Why should failure lurk though? When failure is merely a perception, and it is merely feedback. If failure is feedback, then you’ve got yourself progress-in-the-making!
All-in-all, I find that devotion is a private matter, spiritual even, especially because you may or may not see its effects externally. This is precisely why you are devoted, you appreciate the outside support – but you have found something beyond the eyes of others, yourself even…that calls you further into deeper stretches, beyond knowingness.
Sometimes you can see that someone is working very hard and expressing themselves diligently toward great tasks. Sometimes, in my experience, this work cannot be seen by another! It goes on behind the scenes. Behind the scenes, behind the actor is the Self, there, directing. It takes grace and kindness and compassion to experience the Self. That’s how I perceive God/Guru/Source as grace.
Noses to our work
Most of us have our noses to our work. We are working away at our goals, and/or admire others for how well they focus at their own goals. We can inspire one another by sharing our process. We can help one another when they lose direction, or simply, just be there in your own Self with them, and in oneness.
One of the opportunities of WordPress is share this process with others. For example, I have been visiting Susanwithpearls blog on a regular basis to share in with her contemplations and daily guiding thoughts. I recognize myself in her process of deep-diving. I also decided to visit her blog regularly because she provided a schedule that was easy enough to follow, and didn’t require a lot from me – only as much as I was willing to put into it for myself.
Whether good or bad/right or wrong about particular aspects of scheduling and planning, ultimately there’s a challenge, I think, when working on projects to find the balance between “pushing the wheel” and getting the ball rolling. Ultimately, if we have to keep pushing the wheel, we are going to get tired. So, we have to plan for that.
Ideally the process of life and living could be less fixed (as in the fixed signs of Leo, Scorpio, Aquarius and Taurus) and more mutable or flexible with the mutable signs (Virgo, Pisces, Sagittarius, Gemini). Finally, the best recipe (at least in my world) is a balanced one – so let’s remember the cardinal signs for giving us a sense for direction and trajectory (Capricorn, Cancer, Aries and Libra).
Capricorn 22: Accepting defeat gracefully I wish you a Happy Full Moon with a sly-ish grin and a touch of challenge because this full moon can be touchy—-Yet, it’s for the best, really; it is. The eclipse hit earlier this month and that was at 9 degrees of Cancer. This full moon is in Capricorn, no more eclipses until November. But this is Cancer’s opposite sign (see previous post). It is of no surprise that this full moon @ 22 degree Capricorn is the same degree touched by the Sun, back on January 13, 2010, as Saturn stationed retrograde in Libra, while the Sun, Venus, and the N.Node were all huddled together discussing destiny @ 22 Capricorn. Now Saturn features eminently in this full moon chart due to a T-Square formed with both Venus and Lilith. Although the full moon itself doesn’t make aspect. This could still be felt.
Transiting Venus (the faster moving planet) squares the now, forward-moving planet Saturn hosted in Libra (harmony/beauty). Saturn stationed direct last month on June 13. Sure, the square aspect aggravates stuff, true… but does it have to get sort-of, well, ugly at times?
Ugliness is something that the idealistic Libran hates even more than hate itself. Enter Lilith: fierce archetypal female badass (http://www.straightdope.com/columns/read/1513/whats-the-story-on-lilith-adams-first-wife.) Lilith opposes Venus (the planet of Love & beauty) in Libra, and just when you thought you were being good, patient, not-judging, unbiased and generally a good-natured person (Libran-stuff), you may have realized that something ugly’s been hanging out in the room with you. That ugly thing, however, ain’t so ugly after all—it’s just kind of, well, repressed. It’s greatest characteristic perhaps is its darkness.
The astrological Lilith “describes deep and primal issues, repressed feelings of rejection, even rage, and the refusal to give in.” Why should you notice it? It’s powerful, very, very powerful. Powerful things need to be noticed. If you chain it up in the back room of your mind or being, especially your auric field, look out! Yep, that sounds right, even though it doesn’t. Inclined Librans may deny their war-identities, but still feel their battle scars.
With some gentle demon-exorcising, I have come to see this precious and dark demon lay down and purr once it gets noticed. But I most certainly would not feed it, nor pet it! According to astrotherapy.eu/blackmoon.htm, Lilith in Aries begs for body-movement to release. Do it. Move it. This burst of powerful energy is nothing to fear, just beware, and be aware. Draw your circle, and call for protection.
Lilith in astrological chart ultimately wants you to embark on new ways of managing your anger and grief by finding your capacity to constructively release anger and resolve conflict. Face the demon of restriction and sublimated powerlessness to uncover the love. Balance (Libra) the chores and duties of Capricorn with the nurturing and unconditional love of Cancer. Use any developing friction to exercise your inner demons, but please, don’t make a martyr out of love in the process. Patience is all, add courage. One more thing, the darker the dark, the brighter the bright can be realized. Clean, clean, clean.
Not everyone will experience this “Lilith effect”—depends on your natal chart. Technically this pattern doesn’t involve the full moon at all since the full moon makes too wide of an orb of aspect to other major planets. Nevertheless, there is something to be said about tracing back the movements of Saturn as they correlate to former Solar passages, specifically at the 22 degree of Capricorn, the same exact degree of our current full moon. Never hurts to reflect. Think back to January 13, 2010 and what you may have experienced at that time for clues about what was repressed, rejected, and sublimated–Lilith Style.
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