Today an image I drew from when I was a teenager came to my mind. The picture isn’t in focus; and it’s stained by time. The image still enchants me. Just a single candle’s light, is still quite profound to me.
Author: Ka Malana - Fiestaestrellas.com
Building my altar to existence, designing the playhouse of my environment, and just bringing more presence and awareness into my life with every breath.
*Welcome*
Having an ego
is like having an elbow,
or pair of bifocals
and it’s just natural
to make comparisons
with illusionary perception
illusionism in art is to
make the appearance of a
2D item, look 3D real
this type of illusion is
a skill development
having an ego
while seeing beyond it
is like eating food
it’s becoming something
alchemical
every 7 years they say the body
has entirely different cells
and maybe this blog is now made
up of new cells
Easy Inspiration
Ka Malana Photography presents…
One of the things I value so much – is time – and timelessness. When we communicate with each other, and within the spacious dimensions… even without words.
The dragonfly in this image is hugging the antenna – we ARE ALL CONNECTED.
“Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says, ‘I’ll try again tomorrow’. ~Mary Anne Radmacher
A gentle reminder that my first poetry book is for sale: here. A big thank you to all who bought and read it, and for those who have left a review on Amazon. Your words continue to reassure me that there’s hope, as I try to keep providing that hope to others. It’s all a group effort, on this planet. Aloha ~
I found these pictures, and they wanted to be left out of the bag o’ magic…..
Strong Book Recommendation (SBR)- my new acronym:
Hello all,
I’m in the thick of a great book – i read a lot of great books, all of the time… (as do you, I’m sure!) but this one made me want to get to word out very quickly to everyone in reach. It’s perfect for Zone living or flow living (several authors have been writing about flow) – anyways being involved in a number of paradigms (and fields of influence), while having been in the cross-roads of many of them, and weaving together my own tapestry of wholistic thought and practice, well; it has taken a lot of investment on my part to acquire, open my mind, and then to integrate and share my sources in the networked brain language way that is uniquely me. This book I am bringing forward in mid-stream, haven’t integrated any of it yet (okay, maybe some) – when I took my first leap in 2007.
Anyways, without further ado: I strongly recommend those who are wishing to expand – to read: The Big Leap, by Gay Hendricks
When I first encountered Gay and Katie Hendricks, it was in one of those emails I signed up for several years ago – when my consciousness expansion was rounding a new corner. I probably listened to one of the free web-conferences when they were just budding into a field of opportunity that many are still capitalizing on.
Anyways,
I’m still working on photographs (in my mind), astrology updates (in the ethereal, too), and going back into my deep dive – pulling a swan dive for this one, so I have to really work on my physical body to get that grace and elegance flowing and ready to be channeled….
Love you all!
Ka
P.S. I’d like to add that this book is a good recommendation for the Mars/Pluto conjunction that is currently taking place in Capricorn. I have (Mars/Pluto) natally in Libra (a nice square for me – even ‘extra’ pressure to ‘transform’) and for me is works well with this book – that 12th house is all about the unconscious…. this book is all about (the rest of the title): “Conquer your hidden fear and take life to the next level.” Anyways, I believe that no matter where in your chart is the Mars/Pluto conjunction that we are all experiencing… this book will help you get past what Gay call’s your (ULP) – Upper Limit Problem.
Participating and playing vs. Observing quietly
My title is a spin on my natal nodes and the current transiting nodes (at this point I’m looking forward to the Cancer N./Capricorn S. nodal transit).
The images above show the blur of engagement and activity, while the reflective, observant images are clear and crisp.
Having my 2nd nodal return in the set of approx. 18 year cycles, it reminds me – again – of the “ping pong” and “intense” nature of the opposition (180Degrees) aspect generally, and then how the one in my natal chart Sun – Leo/ opposite Ascendant – Aquarius, gets emphasized, with nodes like this. Certainly this form/body cannot be everywhere and doing everything – so observing one thing at a time, has been the respite, saving-grace! Staying out of drama, hype, comparison… I’ve completely been scaling back my social media to its virtual non-existence. Not saying that it is permanent, but I am not eager to return to social media anytime soon. Self/Other was never a dichotomy for me, but boundaries are a necessity.
But this blog is a unique form of social media – it’s reflective and meaningful. It’s second only to reading books – which is what I try to do in my non-existent “free time.” I’ve only barely completed a few books, while I have consumed multiple tv show series, no doubt – just anything to be a little bit easier. I enjoy reading a book, far more, since social media.
These photographs that I’ve taken and shown here are several months old now, and as I continue to work on my photography skills, appreciating my subjects, more recently I’ve not had much energy to return to my blog to feature these marvelous faces, nor to embrace my writing publicly and with others, nor to discuss the ‘here and now.’ Part of that reason, is that I, have been on vacation after a *very busy and eventful trimester working with others and on myself* and maybe, I will return, from that vacation/ spiritual “retreat” – ‘one day’ in blog world, but I’ll start to return to the day-to-day offline world, first, and I have.
I feel deeply connected, so I’m not worried. So many pujas later…and time spent in the woods of the great green earth…
A lot has been simmering for me, and while it may seem like I am not experiencing a dynamic time here via Fiestaestrellas.com – if you are aware of some of the current transits – Western astrological version…
- Mercury station direct and all the airplane news &
- New Moon on April 15th at 26 Aries
- Saturn SR on April 17th
- Chiron ingress Aries
- Sun ingress Taurus, form, matter
- Pluto SR on April 22
- Venus ingress Gemini
- Mercury Square Saturn
- Mars/Pluto Conjunction
- Full Moon on April 29 at 10 Scorpio
…. you’d know that I’m undergoing quite a bit of transformation, and that process looks different all the time. It shifts quickly to and fro, and while the ‘3D’ appears to be fluctuating, the eternal experiencing is ever-present, calm, enjoying the show, and embracing all the moments. I remain ‘undecided’ about most things and am mostly enjoying that ride, despite certain times of definite and specific discomfort, which fortunately leaves quickly. I am cultivating what Napolean Hill has coined, “a definite and specific purpose.”
There’s a lot of energy in the collective field.
I’ll be taking, potentially more time away from blogging, and dedicating myself more to my day-to-day offline activities, but I do hope to resurface here and there from time to time with greater purpose, and with more clarity at some sort of ‘one-day’ stabilizing point. I eagerly await Uranus’s move into Taurus, and as I pull into my center… I enjoy uncovering more from my core. In my Ascendant chart, Uranus will be linking to my 3rd house of neighbors, siblings, and closer networking – opening up the mind – which it has begun to do! With my ascendant ruler in Scorpio and all my Cancer planets – you might imagine: I like my privacy, and my transformational cave.
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Thank you to all who have been a part of this blog, and who continue to be the celebrating shining lights of sparkle and joy in this world, bringing passion and compassion into your every-day, and in the blog world where I can see you. I look forward to providing another update or two before I take another dive into the deep…
Aloha, Ka
For those who have actually read this blog post in its entirety, I am so grateful that YOU are here. Most of my blog posts are very short and don’t require a lot of time and attention, but that may change in the future. In this post, I am rambling, but right now… it’s enough to pass.
You are not your body
Janine Shepherd is like no one who I have ever even known to exist! She continues to add to the “Roger Bannister effect”…. for all of us.
Sprouts
sprouted hummus, oh my goodness
3 main flavors: ☀️ dried 🍅
regular is amazing-regular,
and curry turmeric, broccoli 🥦
sprouts…
celery and cucumber 🥒 juice,
the color of Spring –
awakening from holidays,
turns of the season, a
full-blue-moon weekend,
is deeply refreshing
with those blueberries
consumed
jive is alive
and ready to return
with playfulness imbibed,
integration witnessed
release comes with
a spring blessing,
sourced from
accessing deep wells
reached deep from
long-time unaccessed waters
💦
peaceful contacts continue
with the ground,
embracing the process,
enjoying the subterranean
tunnels that supply the 🌏
earth.
spring has sprung
and sprouts 🌱 begun
darkness has been celebrated!
This moon is for us 🙂🍀💗
🍀Chiron and Pisces
don’t need an address,
Just touch the pain –
It has no point,
it’s everywhere that
you’ve felt misunderstood.
but it loves you,
nonetheless
Unconditionally teaches
2:22 balancing you
links us together
as we learn how to
appropriately disconnect
as permission is not
needed for when we seek
safety, we are allowed to
care for ourselves too,
as we do with each other
when it is appropriate.
just know that I will
be here.
all empathetic Storms
have a “pause button,”
for however long you want to float
On that buoy.
Remember to follow the light shining
On the water. Sometimes you can see me more clearly in my reflection.
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**it is really difficult to compose posts using my phone but this “poem” wanted to be share, so we do what we can 🍀
How do i serve?
you might find me whimsical
or wanderlust
or fractured and a bust
forcing a rhyme on a dime
or taking the easy peasy street
that is not me.
you might read a description i wrote
with a lengthy, dated timeline,
but i am not in those steps, nor in those
actions of my past.
i am here.
you might wander in the dark
tracing the light’s reflection on the
water.
here, you will find me, choppy and mobile
but as clear as the shine of light.
And, i am partly caught in the crabbers net
some fishing line in my hair,
because i’ve been swimming so long, long
in this selfdom, kingdom sea
still, i am here.
a mashup of experiences
a true, live human
living in the flicker of light
called a dream.
still, i serve.
lost, imperfect, easily disagreeable
still, i serve.
long ago, i wanted to be pretty and respectable, and now,
i’m rushing about the house, trying to figure out
how to show you that i have all the same
parts as you, hidden in the folds of my
awareness.
how i am outside and naked and clueless,
and still worthy of you.
Ka Malana©2018
Has it really been 7 years, already?
via New Moon Awareness from Head to Toe
Above is the link to my first ‘ever’ WP blog post. I wasn’t able to re-blog it since I already re-blogged it once – and the button didn’t work. The post I wrote is about astrology and consciousness, meditation, etc…
Since then, so much has changed, and then again, so much hasn’t. Meeting wonderfully kind and talented people has been the best part of the experience.
Sometimes I think I am standing still because I watch so many people in the blog world develop in leaps and bounds – so much talent and with increasing expertise and sophistication. Many people come to visit and introduce me to all the wonderful things they are doing on their blogs. I’m better for it. My world is not small and self-contained. It is ever expanding outward – while I work to keep the base at home.
I’ve found that I’ve sort of lost my impulse and reason for blogging, but that didn’t stop me. Every time I’ve been motivated or inspired to blog, I do it. I didn’t set out to be a writer, or a poet. I never planned on sharing my sporadic artistic creations. It just sort of happened. I didn’t actually know that I was going to write a book and publish it in 2017: Art for Art.
I never anticipated that I was going to be sharing so much of myself, and experiencing whatever resulted from that. It was a big thing for me last year, and it’s strange that my book is now in the past. For all my life, my book was in my future.
An aside, at a Gangaji retreat I met another poet and took his suggestion to slightly adjust the name of my book’s title. The original was “Art for Art’s Sake.” Not to be confused with the Japanese beverage. 🙂
So many times, I wonder why I still blog – except for the satisfaction in knowing that I’ve made a home here. I’m not marketing or selling anything, and so that makes it strange to blog (never been good at presentation). I haven’t created a show, or a series or drummed up interest in my cause, or a common cause. The part of me that was inspired to “get myself out there” left long ago. Replaced has been the inspiration to find what’s going on inside, get through my days, and rebuild the part of me that is exuberant and ready – the part that is always here.
So that’s that. That’s my anniversary message. It’s not all shiny and flashy, it’s just what it is ~ another day, and not another dollar. I’m not going to force the celebration, but I am going to acknowledge.
The good that we do/are. – dedicated to a friend. (I am always here.)
A friend sent me a message today,
returning to me a message I had sent to her
(about 7 years ago now).
This is good, so I could send more love to her,
as she transitions in a hurry, during what is
an emotional and necessary move,
due to Earth changes, and catastrophic messages
about house and home.
Landslide: TIME TO MOVE!
May her next foundation be built sound and strong
and the family: herself, her daughter, her husband, pets,
be safe.
We, sometimes, our gifts, might show up
in the little articles of ‘things’ in the rubble.
It made my day, to know that she felt my presence
in something that I left behind. That she knows,
I am always here.
***the image above I took to show that my white roses turned pink, likely due to the colder weather we’ve had locally.
grow with me 🌙
words change like days
and moons pass as events
as moments uplift and letdown
the witnessing awareness
sees it all as a playground
or museum, or like a trailer park of
ideas “gone somewhere,” then stopped,
and decided to live.
we clear out our systems on cleaning
days or on days assigned for other
maintence activities, or just whenever
cleaning finds time for itself.
the fun of doing anything
is living in the unknown
is speculating
is just facing the unexpected,
and embracing it.
i can definitely find security in this:
everything changes
Belonging
not long after finding
my belonging ~
i have to let it go,
trust that wherever i am,
is meant to be
i let the sense of community
form around me,
even while i miss being
with my friends,
and going to them,
the people who i care for –
going to the places i know
bring me joy and
help form me
those places must be all around
and inside me, too.
knowing recovery
is an act of self love
that sometimes requires giving up
certain medicines for others
and uncertainty nurtures me, too.
How can it be any other way? As I practice, so I pave the way.
Traversing the Wheel
I’ve been recovering as I’ve been in the hospital this last week. This is what ‘unexpected’ experience the eclipse brought me. My own patients were doing very well the last I saw them, and I missed seeing them last week as I was in the hospital for myself. It made me happy when my “team” let me know that I was missed, and I felt all the love from family and friends, and strangers. Now, I am catching up on school work/work and making decisions that are best for me, so I have no further complications. I appreciate all your love.
Wishing everyone a Happy belated Year of the Dog!
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