I played the middle

As one of many,
I played the middle.
Do you know how delicate it is
to have no opinion?

To be voiceless.
To suppress the ‘within’ in order
to not get smacked by the
‘without’ ?

Getting smacked hurts.
Maybe I deserved it.

Who is this ‘I’ ?
It does not matter. It is just
another story.

Who is this victim,
it does matter. In a totally
non-personalized sense: It matters, doesn’t it?
We care most about the people we don’t know!
Inter-family love is gorgeous. We learn to see eye-to eye.
Intra-family love does not go away. It’s impossible.

The victim is everyone.

Even when the little ‘i’ gets suppressed
Everyone suffers.
There is no way to ‘right’ a wrong.

There’s only to love.
There’s only to voice.
There’s only ho’pono’pono.

The middle is a fiddle
and once all the stagnation gets
broken up, once… then… oh, we’ll see.

Then we’ll re-arrange words
and hang up “Beauty” and “Love” Signs,
again. For now,
we’ve got bleeding.

The middle has blood.
Playing the middle is not the path.
Buddha suggests the center.

No one said, “don’t have an opinion”
They only implied it.

Tough Shit.I have blood, and skin. a beating heart.
I will use it ALL to say:

I Love you.
I’m sorry
Please forgive me.
Thank you.

This mission

When one chooses
to heal the wounds of their
family (themselves) by adopting 4 (all at once!)

They may be multiplying
issues.

When one chooses to heal
the work within
and not project it outside

they are not a martyr
They are doing the honest
work.

When one receives the invitation
to give more to the adopted
18 year old: in essence, “PAY attention to
the PARENT, and the PARENT’s choices”
We feel that
18 year old better not be sculpted into a pawn

as this youngest sister felt, was she.

A pawn to play the authorities with.
A pawn to acquire attention of the broken tree.
That hobbles along, being a family. Striking instead of
embracing. Using pictures as commodity.
Who does that?!

A voice can be lost in the masses
not wishing to cause further hurt,
but looking for an outlet. A way to honor
that pain can be turned into healing.

A way to heal..
The mission is only and ever has only
been, and to be “Healer Heal THYSELF.”

Please don’t make politics of your children. Who am I to judge?

The🍃Wisdom Tree

Excellent!

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By Gwenevere

Come my friend and follow me
Sit beneath the wisdom tree
Feel its bark so rough to touch
Tell it what you need so much

Feel thebranches shade you now
Whispering to tell you how
Telling you just where and when
You can hope and dream again

Wisdom tree will tell you all
You won’t stumble less you fall
He will grant a wish or two
So that you can see this through

Life’s been hard and so unkind
Now it’s time to free your mind
Good times coming, they are due
And they wait right now for you

Wave the wisdom tree goodbye
He has told you not to cry
Dreams and wishes come your way
Go and face a brand new day

💚

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Puppy Love

Hi Michael,
Beautiful poem. Interesting story that I’ve (we’ve) been thinking about getting a puppy. Of course, it’s just that desire to continue filling the space with love, I guess. Met my first neighbor-friend yesterday and it seems with some of the newest friends I’ve made lately; we just talk about dogs. I don’t know if this really happened to you or is just creative expression of all the happenings; but your poem reminds me of all the dogs I’ve ever loved; and that it’s very much in my thought-process, even when it’s least likely to happen. Love the new blog layout.
Love, Ka

Michael's avatarEmbracing Forever

Hafiz picked me up
and drove me out into the countryside,
aiming the right front tire
for every mud puddle he could find,
and filling the rearview mirror
with volley after volley of clay starbursts.

Then, much to the relief
of both my kidneys and
the vehicle’s suspension,
we came across a dog breeder
and popped in to say hello.
After a cup of tea
and a profound discussion
of canine nutrition,
she invited us to see the stock.
We stepped outside
and she whistled like an old school
basketball coach.
All the little pups came running.
They lined up in a row
and plopped down on their
well-trained haunches,
head up, chest out, and eyes wide.
As we went down the line
they smiled ear to ear
like they couldn’t stand it anymore
and made puppy growls and yips
and bounced in place or fell over sideways
and licked our…

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Billiard Balls and Astrology

Dear friends,

My mind is not on studying, and this makes me sad. Usually I like studying. I enjoy it. Not right now… right now I just want to be inspired, every single moment. I want to create something – or I get thoughts about things. For instance, this past weekend my husband and I went to go shoot some pool. You know, billiards!?  I always think of the planets when I am shooting pool.

I hadn’t played pool in a long time, but for some reason – including my mystery beer: Fat tire, helped. Actually, I only had one beer. That’s all I needed to have a really good game. All the “long-shots” that I ended up taking were really good. I am sort of teaching my husband how to play pool. Luckily, he’s a quick study.

So, astrology and billiard balls…. It’s all about geometry, angles, and putting “English” on the ball!

So, no… I’ve never played in a pool league. But, I still do have some divine moments 😉 It’s pretty fun to have a witness! Can I have a witness?!

Have fun today Happy Full Moon in Sagittarius…

Also, I think now I can get to studying.

Full Moon in Sagittarius

Full Moon in Sagittarius.

Please click on the link above and read Gray Crawford’s take on Full Moon in Sagittarius. It’s the best I’ve seen right now. Absolutely spot on.

Great Jean-Michel Basquiat images, too. When I used to live in Pittsburgh I would visit the Andy Warhol museum and view their collaborative work.

What a fantastic post delivering the astrological themes at work/play at the moment.

My original blog intention & Full Moon in Sagittarius

My original intention when starting this blog was to write about the new/full moon phases. I also was originally interested in educating people about astrology, as I have known it and studied it for… as long as I can remember. I think this inspiration sprung up from my work tutoring kids, and a group of refugee high-school students from Burma a few years ago (2011).

I was nudged and guided to begin this blog when Uranus moved into Aries – Many of us here know how guidance does this… Also, I was in a sangha for a number of years and decided to make a longer-term meditation based on astrological themes (as I had been noticing that despite a million fluctuations in my life and a million different jobs/hats (a non-specific number for now – i am most-certainly using hyperbole), astrology was always there to some degree in my life, leading me by the hand, when no other hand would do).

Now, I must tell you: astrology requires study; and not just study of astrology itself. It’s a subject that tends to require a long-term work: on self. To me, the definition of astrologer is “one who studies astrology.”  I don’t believe that you are ever done studying. That’s why an astrologer is, in many ways, a lifetime study (and probably going beyond that via lifetimes) in either direction.  Mine just happened to start before I knew anything else. It started with Rosicrucianism. That’s all I am permitted to say, directly – at this time.

Back to the blog, I originally started opening up my astrological services to the public, but that quickly became, for me, too challenging to balance with school. I needed to be the student, again, completely. However, a graduate student is a different kind of student; it’s a student who also practices. Still, I am in the beginning of my graduate student studies, and ever so quickly transitioning yet again.

Back to the basics and the original intention

When I was a young child, I was taught some very sacred things that I do not remember mostly. Maybe it’s for the best, okay? I’m sure that we were all taught, or understand/understood very sacred things. After all, at that time, we were able to see things best through the eyes of a child. We saw through everything, easily – and without effort. Also, children often don’t realize the effort that they are exerting, because they experience everything as play.

For children, their performance is easily rewarded by those who wish to encourage and support the budding life. We all want to see blooms!

Well, we also need roots! To me, those roots are study and meditation.

I committed myself to doing the lunation posts because (and if you look back, they are there in some capacity), because my natal moon is in the sign of Cancer, as are my natal Mercury, and Venus. To say that I am an empath, IS an understatement.

I felt the solar energy of my sun sign in Leo was shining pretty comfortably in my life, and I wanted to “work on this facet of my life,” my ‘feminine aspect.’ I felt that the SUN was there, everyday, already. But now, Leo’s coming back, and doesn’t want to be a king. Leo just wants to be accepted for being.

So, I may be bringing you daily posts, but I haven’t worked out the details yet. I am also excited about the prospects of continued re-blogging, and the tree project that I’ve been working on. It actually has to do with my Jupiter placement’s sabian symbol. Definitely that one is for another post. But, as you know, everything changes and shifts. So, everything is technically “up in the air.” I’m revisiting old poetry, old songs. I’m singing at the top of my lungs in the car again!!! YES!

There is always a vision. I have my own, but there’s also one that I am not fully aware of 24/7.  So, that being said. I just wanted to share this with you, too link, and get back to my studying:

children studying

I will be re-blogging more, and posting more… I’m sorry. I just gotta have more cowbell. Please don’t feel obligated in anyway to comment. Just know that I will be around to visit you all, because we are family.

Happy Near Full Moon in Sagittarius. Contemplating the stars… and ‘BEING’ me… in full.

Mandala~ in Retro.

Truly, if I can find a way to ‘step away’ slowly, and hurry back, I will!
I think a Mandala is kind of like a tree, too… Regardless: friendship 🙂 xoxo Ka.

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This Post is via invitation of Sindy over at https://bluebutterfliesandme.wordpress.com/   to go Retro In honour of Mercury Retrograde, Sindy has invited me to re-blog or re-fresh, or re-fresh a post from my archives .. I spent a while choosing which I should share and chose this.. one below.. Why? because I am into my own ‘Creative’ mood again, but I also realise that everything is only on loan..  As we learn to let things Go, and the Monks show us several of the traits I have posted on recently.. Patience, And Balance  as they show us all is in ‘transit’ as we merge and flow within the Universe.. 

Blessings Sue

The Original post can  be found HERE 

Completed Mandala

So what is a Mandala?

The word Mandala (pronunciation mon- dah- lah) means “circle”.  A Mandala represents wholeness, a cosmic diagram reminding us of our relation to infinity, extending…

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To be….

K.L.Laettner author(InfiniteZip)'s avatarPeace, Love and Patchouli

Alive through ages
I’ve stood the tests of time
As hurricane winds blew
Roots planted and grasping
The core of earth.
Smooth skin surrounds me,
I feel your heart beat
As you wrap your arms around
And laugh as you couldn’t quite touch
Your hand to hand.
I shelter you from the harshest sun
My adornments in shades of seasons,
The gentle spring the best
Yet amazing in the autumn sun,
So very strong I would stand
As you lean your back against me
Maybe you dream perhaps?
Or you watch the stars twinkle at night
And I reach so high above
And pluck you the moon
If I could of course
But I cannot.
But I can send you a sign
I can show you the power
The magic of might,
If you only notice
For what it is,
My message of strength
For you to feel within yourself.

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Gemini New Moon Partial Solar Eclipse

As a participant in my blogging friend, Sindy’s, “Let’s Go Retro Challenge” over at https://bluebutterfliesandme.wordpress.com/2015/05/18/lets-go-retro/ and while being additionally nudged by dear O and OM at eyesofodysseus.wordpress.com yesterday, and in honor of Mercury having gone retrograde, I chose an old post I wrote for the theme of Gemini. This Mercury retrograde occurs in the sign of Gemini, so it’s valid. This was written during my second month of blogging. Wishing everyone a smooth retrograde… 🙂 Or at least, a comfortably mercurial one! xoxo Ka

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The Twins, Duality and Consciousness

New Moon Partial Eclipse in Gemini @ 11-12 degrees

Credit from http://ascendinghearts.net/2010/12/twin-flames-1/ Please see, great write up!

June 2nd (depending on where you are) will be the new moon partial eclipse event that activates and refreshes the Gemini part of our charts. Gemini rules communications, thought processes, and short-trips. Gemini rules our siblings and the duality of the mind, ever-fluctuating between the positive and negative poles. Gemini is the sign that rules the activities of the mind, categorizes things, and distinguishes them into patterns. Gemini represents how we filter information from our environment, and could be described as a mental “net.” It’s our subjective lens for viewing our neighborhood and our neighbors, and shows even how we obtain our information about the world. Gemini is the also the mouthpiece of the astrological chart, showing us how we speak our truth using either chosen symbols…

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Relaxing in the neighborhood

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Wandering around my favorite oak grove loop….

I savored every single moment. The shapes the tree’s shadows (below) mark my favorite spot in the tiny wooded area. Above, there’s a bee that dusts its legs on the pink pollen of the California buckwheat.

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The natural designs on the sand walls are like etchings left by elder sands.

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I wonder what you see in the rock-face. I see spirals and all sorts of unexpected shapes that seem like a coded message.

Below is a circle of light, inside this Kumayaay house made of grasses.

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On the right is the remnant of our heavy, 2-day rainfall.

Fresh banks of flattened grass, framing this small, ephemeral stream.

Finally, here’s the beautifully yellow, but invasive,black mustard.

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Image reference: Ka Malana

New Moon in Taurus: Tap roots run deep

Artist at http://www.candicetripp.com

Tap roots run deep.

Ease and grace flow,
Into the sanctuary of Self

Deep, dark red, deep.

All senses return to the Source.

Not a sound or noise in the universe.

The red velvet of this private
Interior provides warmth,
And humble retreat.

There’s no asking. No needs.
No one to see.

Ka Malana

Note: This afternoon, the experience of presence reminded me of Suzuki Roshi (1904-1971)

To my delight, I discovered that today is his birthday.

http://www.sfzc.org

“The world is its own magic.”

“Each one of us must make his own true way, and when we do, that way will express the universal way.”

“We do not exist for the sake of something else. We exist for the sake of ourselves.”
Shunryu Suzuki, Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind: Informal Talks on Zen Meditation and Practice

Mars♂ in Gemini; May 11th – June 24th, 2015 ♊

Excellent astrological post on Mars in Gemini…. especially since Mercury has gone retrograde, and this aspect of our busy minds and our extensive communications is up for “review.” I’ve been illustrating this with many posts – increasing my frequency (literally). Keep the body moving! Keep the mind free from feisty, but when it’s feisty… enjoy it! Keep it spirited. Focus on the positive – on agreement!