Being an observer, I’ve noted something important that I want to talk about. Absolutely essential to our long term well-being is living in ‘right’ relationship with authority. Here’s the catch: the authority begins outside of ourselves, projected out until we become self-actualized; and then eventually, if we are lucky, while growing up and taking on responsibility, authority begins to become mirrored as part of a system–which then is to blame for any problems or challenges, until ultimately one has to come up to the realization that one’s inner authority is thee check-point. Best to visit it throughout the day, and even in the beginning and the end of the day. One can even consider their own authority as a sobriety-check. Give yourself a breathalyzer test. Am I acting out of habit? Is there a lot of reactionary behavior? How am I contributing to the good of those around me? Do I consider the needs of others?

We often associate things like authority with other words like discipline. In the context of astrology, these words are very “Saturnine.” That means “no fun.” However, if one really looks more deeply into the way the reward system of the brain works, you can get to ironic HEART of the matter: your brain needs you to be a good horse-back rider. That’s right. You need to tame your brain, your sensory system, your self-regulation, or self-governance.

Isn’t interesting how this is a major societal problem right now? I read a study that found that the thing that parents are most worried about for their child, now-a-days, is their “mental health.” How interesting that mental health is something that can really, when properly channeled, and even disciplined, bolster a person into a position of making a positive impact in the world. Why? Because we don’t live only for ourselves. We are here for each other. That is the purpose of life.

Here’s another catch. There’s no real thing as external discipline. That’s authority! However, there is self-discipline. All our lives we must learn to negotiate the needs of the system, the external, with the needs of the inner, internal. One of the reasons I found buddhism and other spiritual ‘practices’ so appealing in my later 20s is that the spirituality is based on building an internal locus of control. That’s fancy-speak for self-determination.

Now, I’m not talking about manifestation here. I’m also not talking about magic. By the way, I love those two things. I believe in them wholly. But I have found that manifestation and magic does indeed involve right relationship with authority. Think on this. I want you to really examine it and see what is true for yourself. Can you trust yourself? Do you have a good enough relationship with yourself that you even give yourself responsibilities? Or, do you block your growth with fear? Be aware of what comes up for you when you consider these aspects of yourself. Is there a way that you can have a better relationship with authority? It might help to journal on this topic. You will learn very much from yourself if you let the words flow.

Butterflies don’t pee or poop

After caterpillar, they turn to goop

Keen on flutter,

They build a chrysalis within a shutter

Then break the mold

With colors bold

They pump their wings, and dry those things!

It’s a new year soon, for me. I will be 43 years old.

Perhaps it’s this year where I realize it the most, that it is only myself who has the key to my heart. It’s not out there; it’s not even in nature. I’ve found myself ruminating a bit more this year, drawing myself inside–wanting more alone time. Is this my celebration? I ask myself quietly.

Leave it to Venus retrograding in my Solar sign of Leo…

What is the most important to me? This is a most pertinent question to me this year. I’m the only one with the answer to it.

My solar return chart.

This SR chart has my ascendant at 22 Gemini-which correlates back with my 5th house cusp on my natal chart. So, I’m expecting visual art to play a larger role in my year to come 2023-2024. I have a lot of 3rd house energy here, in addition: so mercurial with the Gemini ASC and the 3rd house SR sun. So, this is likely to be a highly communicative year. I wouldn’t be surprised if I have a lot of mental growth, networking, etc. Thanks to Mercury and Mars in Virgo (sigh) and I mean thanks, I can extend my organizational skills out into my house and home and my business/life generally, and specifically. Having the conjunction of Mercury and Mars in a trine aspect with Moon conjunct Jupiter in the last section of my 11th house of hopes, dreams, aspirations and group gatherings re-emphasizes that I will not be having a very “quiet” year. Taurus Moon/Jupiter, and loosely Uranus, squares my natal Sun, so there’s some friction there and enough to catalyze the many changes and mutability of what this 3rd house Sun year is asking of me. Saturn will be coming into conjunction with Neptune all the way in 2026, but the themes for how I relate to this big transit is already in the set-up or ‘wind-up’ stage. I like Saturn and Neptune to help me work more closely with the “essence of form.” Words are forms and working with them as containers and packets of light is a starter for me.

When I look over at the notes that I jotted down for myself on my Dreambook + Planner, I see that I wrote down “more reading and writing.” Also, considering this blog post: I am fast to get to work! What I love is that, even though Venus is retrograde, she is still conjunct my natal sun. I’m ready for a revamp. Leading up to my birthday, i found myself spending a week or two saying “my soul is tired.”

There’s this strong desire to redistribute my work so that I’m not wasting my time or energy. More energy in exercise and strengthening my body and mind to support my spirit is called for, this year.

When I was apprenticing under Franchelle Ofsoske-Wyber with the Medicine Woman studies, I did a really deep dive with each of the celestial bodies. I got to know them all in a very personal way, especially Venus! This was in addition to working with them for years and years on my own. I specifically learned how to “Draw down the powers of the heavens to ‘purpose good.’”

I’ll be working a lot this year with Venus, Virgo, and Gemini and using my 3rd and 5th houses to build my natal soul Sun in a more deliberate expression of that light. I do also expect to be driving a lot starting in September, so short trips and travel of 3rd house is already showing. While my SR chart has an empty 5th house, it’s current domicile is Libra which is ruled by Venus and my natal 5th house is being emphasized through the extra attention to Gemini themes.

My core values

• Friendship
• Honesty
• Trust
• Leadership through example
• Community
• Leaving places better than when I arrived: fixing them, enlivening them, cleaning them
• Business as a sacred path
• Abdunance as a reality
• Compassion and Empathy
• Spiritual Journey as the Spiral life path that ascends while descending into deeper levels of alignment and walking with the true way as guide.
• Integrity
• Kindness
• Cultivating calmness and equanimity as a refined soul state

Being a Leo ♌️ Sun/N.Node gal with an Aquarius ♒️ rising and S. Node, I’m familiar with bringing balance through duality and embracing opposites. Opposites are quite often two sides of the same coin, with emphasis on the same coin. The people vs. the individual. Aquarius/Leo The collective helps form the individual, and the individual transcends the collective.

I have a really deep love for people. We are all so beautiful and vulnerable. I love how we hide 🙈 and I love how we seek. We are always reaching out and into the horizon of our dreams, seeking answers, comfort, company, adventure, novelty, love and answers, community and belonging. Part of the fun in life is reaching beyond where we are now, and who we are now. it’s about becoming more by gathering with one another.

A few weeks ago I volunteered my acupuncture services for a group at Camp Widow. I joined my alma mater and participated. I can’t even tell you how amazing it was to feel the spouses lingering nearby those whom I was serving. The previous mediumship courses I took really helped me to accept the messages I receive and the talents I already have for being receptive to those who have passed on. The love was so palpable. I consider it a privilege to bring comfort and lend an ear. This is the stuff that truly fills my cup, and I really always wished I could make a living by volunteering. Nevertheless, I try to offer my services if and whenever possible.

The continuum of being of service and living a life of service is a gift that keeps on giving. In my case, it doesn’t pay the bills yet. However, I keep giving and I keep loving. I have full faith.

In the light of this full moon, I feel the joy of reflecting on my good fortune to get to live a life of service, even if it doesn’t earn enough to pay the bills. I fully believe in my heart and my offerings. I know I will find my way and that Spirit will always provide for me. I know that we belong to one another.

Lately I have been taking the longest stretches in blog writing. It’s not really because I want to be away. I don’t. I want to be writing beyond my journal. releasing, rewiring, and sharing my journey.

Deeply connecting with myself this morning, I am revived.

I’ve been examining all the different styles I’ve lived in my life. Times of being virtually a meditating cloistered person to being a busy mother and family person, running my own private practice and volunteering.

Each week I still do my Hatha Yoga, Qi gong, Pilates and more. I meditate daily. However, it’s still nowhere near the previous amounts of meditation and contemplation. However, I am adding more resistance weight in my exercises, and my muscles have truly grown. Life has been giving me its own resistance measures and given me a run for my money—literally. The house work had increased exponentially last winter. Parenting is a process.

My capacity has been growing as well. Energetic capacity. Mental capacity. Emotional capacity.

I miss you all. I miss art the most. But my work is also one form of my art—so I am deeply fulfilled. I’m also very aware of writing as one of my pieces of self care. It’s really nourishing to traverse the spectrum of the inner world, or consolidate outwardly the awareness that is growing.

For now, I am happy with this.

The nodes change into new signs as well and we can start new journeys in relationships between self and other. Aries/Libra

May grace be with you.

It’s already been an eventful and busy season for me. Working in my home clinic fills my heart with purpose and meaning. Parenting presents challenges and also immense joy and self-development. To say I have been embracing the “fire” element would be an understatement. My transformation has been deep and penetrating. It’s on-going and who knows where this life is being led to—

Wishing you all a fantastic summer! I’m not sure when I will be back to blogging. I’m not sure if I ever officially stepped away for a break, but maybe unofficially took my time writing and used it elsewhere. This warrior training I have been doing is one of the things that sustains me to my core. Maybe I’ll always just be here. A break is just what happens, and then I’m back!

My heart captured this picture in June 2021. The elegance of the subtle soft pink fading into the edges guides the eye around the center to a royal, protected crown. Variable textures of soft and fading pinks transition to dotted, bouncy orange-browns, balancing rhythm and flow, enveloping while opening, to present this artistic sight for your viewing delight 😃🔆🌱

I just learned about this process. The ovaries of the plants are where the seeds develop and it never seemed so personal to me as to be involved in this very process. The deadheading helps the plant focus the energy and not waste it on developing seeds.

Calling in more focus for me in my life. I have vital energy and I want to use it with promise. I want to explore and trial and error, but I want to be fruitful in my efforts.

Nature requires us to have many lessons in our development. I received 3 gifted plants that have died simply because they were overwatered when I got them and the timing was bad—we have not had much blazing sunlight to match that water supply and the plants drowned and rotted at their roots. I seriously grieve the loses of the Zinnia, the Sunflower, and my transplanted fig tree. I’m still hoping that the fig can miraculously wake up!

Deadheading is supposed to make way for more blooms! Let’s see what happens. Meanwhile I have an orchid that I cannot kill. It has so much mana, so much vital energy, that it inspires me to be like it.

Recently I have been doing my daily meditations that I got from Briana Borten. Her husband Peter Borten is an acupuncturist and she is a spiritual entrepreneur. She’s amazing! She’s inspiring. They are both the owners of The DragonTree Spa. She also has her own businesses where she leads spiritual processes, coaching, energy work, and many other super successful offerings for her mentees. I have to grow to be in her sphere because she’s super expensive. Anyways, she’s amazing.

I’ve also been working with Joe Dispenza’s meditations on a daily basis. My goal for this lifetime is to achieve true and full emotional balance and to build a network and community of individuals I can live and love with. I have been trying to build a community for years, but I’ve struggled just the same. This is the trial and error I speak of. In the meantime, I work on myself every. Single. Day.

Here’s to the FULL MOON in Sagittarius ♐️ at 14 degrees! The Sabian Symbol is “Reclaiming old teachings that pass the test of time.”

Well, you see, it all goes together? We are planting the seeds of our future every day, with hope and faith. Know that I sense your life and your glow. I am aware of how ALIVE you are, and I’ll never let you go! Rise and Bloom and let the energy begin from deep in your roots first. Raise your hands up! You are divine!

I must add this Dane Rudhyar video that goes exactly with this lunation: