Saint Francis and World Animal Day.

Dear Friends,

Please click on the link above and visit Julianne Victoria, for those of you who don’t already know her 🙂  She was the first person to have given me an award as a blogger; and, at the time, I was much too shy to receive an award – as I wasn’t sure I knew what it meant. I know what it meant now, coming from her. I’ve never really been interested in awards. I just want to do a good job at being myself. At the time, I had much on my plate. In fact, I still do have a lot on my plate which makes it ever more important to me to acknowledge those who have really touched me and made me feel recognized. THANK YOU!

I asked my heart, what can I do to honor Julianne Victoria as one of my first WordPress friends, because I didn’t realize that I never followed up with her acknowledgement, either that or I am extremely slow to respond. (January 2014). This post that I re-blogged feels like the essence of what Julie is about.

Thank you, Julie, and please forgive me,

Love Ka xoxo

P.S. Here’s the post she gave me the award on https://fiestaestrella.wordpress.com/2014/01/19/moon-trine-pluto-in-the-earth-signs-dig-how-deep/

Hello!!!

My ‘voice’ has returned; and, I am about to embark on another inward journey. I’ve begun receiving some information, so I thought I’d write early about the solar eclipse- as it has arrived within me.  I have that feeling of excitement. There’s newness unfolding. There’s a question of what’s around the bend. There’s faith (Neptune) and patience (Saturn) in the process of Chiron’s wound-healing (Saturn trine Neptune conjunct Chiron). Eclipses happen because of the moon’s lunar nodes. See previous post and google whatever you need to supplement the information provided here. The North Node is the head of the Dragon, and the South Node is the tail of the dragon. I’ve been following the nodes since I was in my early twenties because I was born during a balsamic moon phase, 3 days before a solar eclipse. I will not describe what that means here. Let’s just say it’s unstable energy (eclipse) and relates to my old soul (moon).

“What cannot be said will get wept.” -Sappho

This solar eclipse is cast for Pacific Time. I did all the charts in the beginning of the year, and I believe in local resonance. In fact, I believe in long-range resonance too.  I can only speak from where I am. I am both personality and higher consciousness – indivisible.

May only those who would receive and experience this message as a gift read these words. The words are carriers for the divine seed. They are sealed with love and open to many who would receive by grace.

The message I received is… use no force... just drift through this process with as little resistance as possible. keep your faith. There are many gifts on the other side of this passage.

I’ve come to see that these eclipses and transits are really ‘passages’ or liminal states. Walking through an eclipse is like leaving one universe for another one. Choose wisely while moving gracefully, for time is of the essence and the Goddess is with you. You are the night being born again and again in the light of consummate Divine.  Hidden messages will open to an open heart.

Namaste

“Anything will give up its’ Secrets if you Love it Enough”

~George Washington Carver

Neptune and Venus are featured very strongly in this new moon solar eclipse on the 23rd. Neptune and Venus are expressions of the same energy. Neptune is referred to as the “higher octave” of Venus (love) and taken together they certainly reveal unconditional love.

WOW this is an interesting and heart opening compare and contrast of a photograph I took when I was in Cambodia of a woman with no hands and a huge-enormous smile on her face. I’ve been contemplating it… Haunted by it, in the best way. Thank you!!

I saw a beautiful peacock on Friday.

It is also my beautiful mother’s birthday today – I am honored to be her daughter. I am grateful that she brought me into this life to learn, and to develop; in all honesty, she always encouraged me to be myself. She wanted me to become whatever it is that I wanted to become–nevertheless–I always still wanted to please her, and everyone. I thought by making other people happy, it would make me happy -maybe because this often does work out that way.

I also learned it’s much easier now. When I’m happy, other people are happy because they love me, too. They can share it with me. This was a big lesson for me. I can be bright, and it doesn’t ‘make’ anyone else feel bad or unloved. It’s my choice. It’s their choice to be happy, and to go for what makes them happy, too. I believe there is enough to go around. I choose to believe this.

This is not always possible. It’s good to have compassion and faith, and especially to hold a candle, a prayer, and a vigil for the highest manifestation of any and all beings; have love in our hearts, and let wisdom lead the way.

We have a special connection my mother and I; and, I suppose it’s a past life connection. I feel this deeply about it – and always have. I’m sure I’m not unique in this, but for just this moment, I want to honor and cherish how special my mother is to me, and let this be her day (my day for her).  Deep blue is her color – and, I still remember the velvet navy blue chair I sat in as a child – that she later painted a portrait of me in it, with my father’s army hat on my 4 year old head. Recently she painted a happy portrait of me and husband, from a happy photograph of us I sent her as an instant message to her phone.  You know, I know my happiness has helped her to be happy. That’s a gift that only a child could give; yet, I’m an adult. So… let it be NOW.

On Friday…

Both my husband, myself, and a small gathering met with a very special female healer, and star-connected being. She channels light language, and I’ve always felt a special connection with her, too. Our host was receptive enough to trust the call – to accept her visit. What a lovely thing – acceptance, recognition, and the presence of a gift.

My weekend was both mundane and magical. What is provided along the way is evidence in the possibility to be part of All-There-Is. We are working through the goddess transmissions, and being part of cosmic unfolding. I didn’t start the spark, but I will help it along…if I can…since I keep finding feathers… I may as well build wings.

Happy Autumnal Equinox!

Hello!

Here’s the Sabian Symbol for Libra 2: “A new symphony is played by the orchestra; the music dramatizes racial progress from aspiration to realization.”

This New Moon in Libra is approx within a 7 degree orb of conjunction with Venus (Feminine, Sensory, Value system, Resources, Relationship) in Virgo (Health & Service, Analysis, Purity). Also, approximately within a 7 degree orb is a grand trine: Mars in Sagittarius, Uranus in Aries, and Jupiter in Leo.  Holy smokes, folks! That’s fiery!

New Moon in Libra:

Let’s look at what Venus says (since it is within 7-8 degree orb conjunction of the New Moon, and it rules Libra)…and, I am actually reading ‘this’ from Venus’s opposition with Chiron in Pisces: It’s about psychic wounds, being a sponge, and the wounds we receive from the collective unconscious regarding femininity, and our inherent role as healers and nurturers (Moon square Pluto). It’s about healing racial, gender, and class divisions – seeing the spiritual (Pisces) in the material (Taurus) and the authentic balancing of the scales (Libra).

In Western astrology, Venus represents the feminine aspect as receptive. It appears that we are re-writing what ‘feminine’ is in this era, as women liberate themselves all over the world. As young women like Malala Yousafzai show us the way to be fearless in the face of real terror. As the divine feminine makes its WAY through the collective unconscious in a NEW and yet *very ancient* way.

From the mouth of Wikipedia, “In Chinese astrology, Venus is associated with the element metal, which is unyielding, strong and persistent.”

In honor of the strength of life itself, here’s a poem I love by Frédéric:

http://poemsandpoemes.wordpress.com/2014/08/17/free/

Here is Francene Hart’s revelation about the HEART WOMAN from Sacred Geometry Cards: For the Visionary Path

“This ‘Heart Woman’ is filled to bursting with the radiance of universal love and light from within. She holds in her arms three waterlilies, which represent our potential for enlightenment, and she is surrounded by vibrant, featherlike geometry borrowed from a 2006 crop formation. She stands firm in heart essence and here represents the highest and best of all.

This card requests that you, man or woman, connect with this woman of heart and your own inner knowing and core integrity. How might you more fully embrace life’s potential and live wholly from your heart? What must come to the surface in order for you to live your personal truth?

Be not afraid. Release feelings of inadequacy and realize that by the original integrity of your soul, you are a powerful being of manifestation. You are the beloved child of God, perfect and whole, nurtured and loved. Resolve today to connect with your inner knowing and the reality of your divinity.

This brilliance is fundamental to all beings. As you let your gifts shine, you also give other people permission to do the same. As you are liberated from the worry of not being good enough, your presence will without doubt liberate others. Allowing your light to be a beacon of support and encouragement in someone’s darkness may aid in liberating them from the shadow and dullness that holds many in doubt.

Stand fully in your own inner knowing and trust in the integrity of your heart.”

~Aloha~

P.S. Here’s more about my story:

My Story

Cards: Back in 1998, I had laboriously cut out all these cards to make my own tarot card set.

Digression: At the time, I had just started as an undergraduate at university in anthropology (all of sub-disciplines interested me: linguistics, physical anthropology, cultural anthropology, medical anthropology). I took classes in each as well as astronomy. I also took very few studio arts classes, and garnered a film studies certificate with a dual degree in history of art and architecture. Global interests, I’d say, YES.

Cards: I guess I was thinking that I would create the images in that tiny little space I cut out for myself rather than make bigger paintings, and THEN scale them down to card sizes. I see now, years later, when there are lots of different types of cards on the market – that many people did this – and it was a smarter approach to make a painting first, and then to scale it down. I guess I was hoping that I could start these cards right when I had the idea, because I was really making them for myself, just me. The cards never happened. Luckily, many other people received similar inspirations, and we have so many beautiful cards on the market, and by purchasing them, I feel like I’m “housing” an artist. It takes one to know one.

Van Gogh, Temporal Lobe Epilepsy, Self-tortured

Back then, I was more into “making art” at the time, and surviving minimally. I was a tortured soul, a heavy smoker – then alcohol helped me loosen up. Luckily, again, they were temporary friends. That is, I would paint and feel artsy (angst-y for me), and mostly tortured. I had taken two classes on Van Gogh at this time, and read Van Gogh’s journals (I wasn’t even a big fan of Van Gogh), and I was like… wow… he’s really had a “hard go of it.” I remember asking, how much of this self-torture did he “create”? I also learned of the suspicion of his temporal lobe epilepsy, along with his brother Theo’s medical conditions and how those issues affected the quality of their lives, and close relationship.

NLP Thoughts

At that time, even while taking big drags of my cigarettes, I remember thinking NLP thoughts (I didn’t know it was NLP at the time).  I thought, what is it that ‘i believe’ that is causing me to experience my own pain and suffering. I wonder if I can change my beliefs and have a different outcome. I remember WHERE I had this thought. I was literally ‘at an intersection’ at the corner of Forbes Ave and Bigelow Blvd, right next to Hillman Library. I was probably on my way to work there shelving books or taking slide photos of paintings in books. I also worked as an ad clerk, and as an assistant to the graphics editor for the school news paper my freshman year.

I had struggled so much in my life, just trying to find love, sanity, and a peace within myself to love.  Well, the effort was worth it. I found it. It’s not a permanent condition of being invincible or enlightened; it’s just that I feel really nice in my own skin, most of the time – i also say this comparatively to older version of me – the sad heavy smoker with “so much to get over,” including those ancestral wounds that our whole family carried due to deep and tragic loss.

Hawaii ~ Aloha Forever ~

Fast forward to 2011, When on Kauai, receiving guidance to conduct ceremonies, and receiving the name ‘KA MALANA,’ meeting Kahuna’s at the most interesting of moments, and putting on the rainbow shield.  One friend who I met along the way tried to name me Pukalani, and I remember giving him shit about it. I didn’t want to be “heaven’s hole” – talk about missing the point.

Fast forward again to the wedding of me and my husband on the big island, and all the amazing miracles that led up to that and continue from that. Sure, I still had struggle lots of it – but these struggles could no longer consume me. I learned the magic of “YES *and* look how beautiful nevertheless.” A story of vulnerability can be about taking your power back (from yourself – ego, whatever you want to call it), and living in your true light. Authenticity can look just like that. I quit smoking many, many years ago now. I barely remember how long it’s been. That’s how good it feels to “not look back” for anyone who wants to be where they are, still. I’ve left “old her” behind and I love her just as much as *if* I were with her. She is still me, but she need not leave me confined. For even in my dreams then, this rebirthed vision of myself was ever present. I could even see it in the natural growth at Angkor Wat, and I’m thinking back to the Dandelions in Frédéric’s beautiful post.

Here is the second part of my re-blogging of her two posts: Olokun & Neptune

I’m hoping this blogger shares more with us. I love her work here with Olokun. I also agree very much with what she writes.