Category: Transformation

Osprey love 💗

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My buddy

I hadn’t been to my old neighborhood hangout for a while: Lake Murray. Today I had the opportunity to see my very favorite osprey kind. I felt honored that when I asked for showing some wings, I was indulged. 💗

I’m in ceremony for the next couple of days joining in with two different local and online communities to celebrate the vernal equinox, while I’m also having my own inner celebration and communing opportunities with nature and my core world 🌎☘️🍃

Beannacht ☘️

From O’Donohue’s Echoes of Memory

On the day when
the weight deadens
on your shoulders
and you stumble,
may the clay dance
to balance you.

And when your eyes
freeze behind
the grey window
and the ghost of loss
gets in to you,
may a flock of colours,
indigo, red, green,
and azure blue
come to awaken in you
a meadow of delight.

When the canvas frays
in the currach of thought
and a stain of ocean
blackens beneath you,
may there come across the waters
a path of yellow moonlight
to bring you safely home.

May the nourishment of the earth be yours,
may the clarity of light be yours,
may the fluency of the ocean be yours,
may the protection of the ancestors be yours.
And so may a slow
wind work these words
of love around you,
an invisible cloak
to mind your life.

☘️

Turn of Season

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The beautiful card I got today is Kuan Yin! What did you get when you click to stop the video?

This season, this month, is bringing major changes and openings for all of us. The astrology is thick with sign changes: Sun going into Aries, Venus moving into Taurus, and Pluto will be moving into Aquarius. Saturn just shifted into Pisces. Please share! What are you feeling. How are you experiencing this new energy moving through your lives?

The Vernal equinox comes with unique bird song and green shoots and tendrils erupting from the earth. The earth here is moist and ready for worms and motion. The birds have found more baths due to the recent rain. I reflected back on my poetry book project for this year. I look forward to collating more and writing more. The inspiration I’m arising with is like velvet, soft like bunny’s fur, also gossamer linkages of quickly growing energetic networks of inner mycelium. My own ecosystem matches that of the Earth and the Cosmos. I’m flying through the dimension of space, but traveling easy, calming, with deep breath and purpose. I have a couple of links I want to share down below.

Pick you Goddess ❤ Click on the picture to stop it.

Bumble bees have been shown to unlock a puzzle box when one of the bees on the “bee team” is instructed on how to do it. These educated bees transfer their knowledge to the other bees in their group, showing social collaboration and the transmission of learning from one bee to another. Read more about it here.

I’ve been learning a bit more about the 5th dimension. It’s slightly elusive to me although I might actually be aware of my living out of it, from it–on it? Here is a really neat scientific article about how the future can influence the past. After all, I use this skill in my daily work all the time. More and more evidence points to the realness of my work as I practice what I call the pragmatics of shamanism, journeying, and other soul work that works through multiple dimensions. Many people don’t actually realize that heaps and heaps of scientific articles that show that acupuncture works, let alone shamanistic style healing work. Here’s an interesting article (albeit a small cohort in the study) where TMD was improved through shamanic healing, and those improvements persisted past 9 months after (which was the conclusion of the study’s measure–and doesn’t necessarily mean the improvements didn’t persist further afterward).

I could write more and more on all of this. I suppose I will. 🙂

Happy Easter/Ostara/St. Patrick’s day and all the holidays! Happy Spring!

Wide open

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Ka Malana Photography ©2022

my heart is full of sunsets

the ocean, 

and the sound of your name.

it beats like a drum pulsing steadily

upon our bone throne.

my bones amplify the frequency

and house our spirits’ timbre

which transduces across my abdomen

as my lungs rise.

with each breath,

a vacuum is reclaimed.

your mind is full of ponderous wonder

like the craters on the moon, you sink

deep into thought shadows,

your feet and shoes disappearing

altogether 

as you try to weight yourself down to

“sink in.”

my eyes are confidants; 

as I listen to the stories of lonely

ghosts, I watch their energy quiver.

https://www.thenakedscientists.com/articles/interviews/listening-heartbeat-ocean

the beginning

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in the beginning

i’m rising like a landmass

uncarved like Pangea

unbridled like a dragon 🐉

whose fire finds the hero by

skimming along the craggy coastal line

overlooking colors, scanning its domain

yellow warm lay the grasses

pleasant in the sun, combed by the wind

deep green rise the forests

protected humus layered depths

tangling tree fingers spread with skies

fractals finding spaces to replicate

nature’s expanse

this Earth’s anchor is a morphic reminder

that nothing is solid

we are in the center as awareness, golden

flowing molten iron swirling,

balancing aurora flashing green tones

while the amethyst crystal horizon line

guides us into the dusk of

our true and formal beginning: the end.

All that comes with the setting Sun.

Commitment is strength inspiring — Fiesta Estrellas (Bonus post: ReBLOGathon)

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In an age of fast development: technology, tv screens, constant-upgrades, new designs, “better,” “more connected,” webbed, and “seamless” living, I am amazed, and I Am inspired by those who commit to their goals. Now, life will throw us off track, time and time again – especially if you have a very strong relationship – for […]

Commitment is strength inspiring — Fiesta Estrellas

This ReBLOG came up on its own on another social media feed. It’s so cool to read these old posts—> I’m still going strong and living my truth. I know that for a fact. The evidence is here. 🙂 I’m also posting this because we have some strong Mars transits coming up. A message like this can be handy.

Unafraid to Stand Alone — Fiesta Estrellas – ReBLOGathon Day28

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In this life, we might be terrified. we might feel alone, though we are not. we must work every day to give ourselves enough space, to be who we are. however we are, “dark” or “light” or the huge gamut spanning between even if not one single person feels that what we offer is valuable, […]

unafraid to stand alone — Fiesta Estrellas
Unsplash photographer: Yuriy Bogdanov

Today’s reblog links back to a poem I wrote, about not being afraid to stand alone. I think this is a good reminder for all of us while the season is all about “coming together.” For so many this season bring a lot of pressure, loneliness, and oftentimes tremendous grief. However for others it’s a time to really express our happiness and our love with our friends, families and everyone in our lives. Truly the holidays are days when most people have off work–even though not all do.

Yesterday I took time for myself to really appreciate the moments in my life. There’s this beautiful quiet descending upon me. It’s far from depression and it feels like inner peace. I’m not even chasing after it either. It’s there when all the chasing runs its course. 🙂

Happy Peppering!

Your Attention, Please?

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What size am I?

How big is my heart?

What’s the right fit for me, where should

I put my attention?

When you have a lot to give,

isn’t it best to focus on where you

make the greatest contribution?

Don’t waste that precious energy.

I like to ask myself questions out loud.

I’m not afraid of you.

This question asking isn’t just an activity for the young.

I can be open like this, I can be vulnerable: I choose it.

I’m not afraid of the public, nor of sounding less

than brilliant.

I am not here to impress you.

I just want to know where I fit–how to stop wasting my time.

How to make this life 1000000% useful, the biggest impact,

I am the greatest force, leveraged with the right attention.

Attention is everything.

So is relaxing and asking questions

to redirect myself.

So here I am.

Image Credit: Nick Fewings: Unsplash

Art, poetry and dudes, with Ka Malana — Fiesta Estrellas (reBLOGaton Day15)

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The dudes interviewed me!!!!!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤

Art, poetry and dudes, with Ka Malana — Fiesta Estrellas

Hello Friends! I don’t know what happened to the original post, but I was so so so happy to be interviewed by those snarky little dudes at Shehanne Moore’s Smexy historical romance domain. Honestly, I can’t think of a better honor. I didn’t really have any time to promote my 2017 debut poetry book, Art for Art, at the time when I wrote it. In fact, I don’t think I ever really did get around to promoting it. Promotion is something that a person has to learn to do. It’s an art in and of itself. You know who is an incredible authoress and human, though?! Shehanne Moore

Her dudes have been making me laugh since about 2016-2017 when I started reading her blog. She hosts very interesting authors and artists. She hosts a perfect variety of intriguing and talented authors, and she always supports her clan. Sheyis top-notch for supporting her clan. Reading about her adventures in Dundee has been really fun over the years. There’s always a lot to learn from her because she’s very knowledgeable. She and her husband, Mr. Shey ;), have put on some spectacular plays which she has also shared and written about on her blog throughout the years. She even helped me try out a new genre called historical romance (which she writes well, I might add). For one, I never really read romance, nor history.. but The Unraveling of Lady Fury had me pleasantly surprised. Her heroines aren’t typical–that’s why they are definitely worth the read. Did you hear that Lady Fury went Manga!? My, my my that was all the way back in 2019!!! How cool is that?! Who writes a historical romance and has it go Manga? Shey. The post includes holiday pictures (and it’s almost that time of year again!).

Anyways, thank you for visiting my reBLOGathon celebration month’s daily post. Half-way there! At the end, I will link them all up in one post so that you don’t miss anything–then I will be running around December visiting everyone’s blog like a quick & focused ghost, phantoming my comments upon your page. I will be the ghost of Christmas past, present and future… LOL–and I’ll write in real letters and not just “haunt” you nicely… but comment nicely 😉 Because I love reading your blogs! ❤ I love blogging, and I am celebrating so much, so much, my friends ❤ Until we meet again, tomorrow, I bid thee, good day ::tips hat::

Each year (for a while, maybe since 2019?) I have teamed up with the Cheer Peppers to blog every day of the month in November. Click the link below for their posts. I chose the theme of ReBLOGathon, but they might be posting their own themes or randoms 🙂 Enjoy

November 17, 2013, Taurus Full Moon, Relationships, Art — Fiesta Estrellas (ReBLOGathon_CHEERPEPPERS DAY8)

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Image credits:  Candlelight and Wine, by Ralph Hocker, Acrylic ― 11″ x 14″ www.sevenlivelyartists.com/hocker.html ARIADNE, VENUS AND BACCHUS BY TINTORETTO (1518-1594) “Beautiful colors can be bought in the shops on the Riato, but good drawing can only be bought from the casket of the artist’s talent with patient study and nights without sleep.”   ~ Tintoretto   (such is the […]

November 17, 2013, Taurus Full Moon, Relationships, Art — Fiesta Estrellas

This is another earlier blog post of my mine. I reached into my archives where I wrote about astrology; this was before I branched out and wrote poetry, and shared my art, and got more social about my life and my journey. I published a book since I was blogged, yay! I like to blog about ALL THE THINGS! New material is coming in 2023–but right now, this is my blog celebration. I teamed up with Cheer Peppers because I wanted to blog for the whole month with a team. I like to share space with people and I’m so glad that you have decided to read my writing, and truly: I am glad you decided to be part of my world. You matter, and I appreciate you!!! ❤ Please enjoy! Another busy back-to-back day today 🙂 I’ll be around to visit you again very soon!

A little bonus today that I’m excited about is that I linked all my Taurus posts to celebrate this Full Moon Eclipse in Taurus we are currently experiencing.

This first one below—> This was my life-changing Kauai experience when I got my spiritual name Ka Malana. It was a short post. I was very busy experiencing it all. I remember the most beautiful New Moon in Taurus ceremony on the beach… just amazing. The order of the blog posts is from oldest to most recent.

Aloha, Mahalo, New Moon in Taurus
The ‘Slow Down’ on Sun in Taurus: Protecting Personal Space
This one I didn’t even get to re-read, but I’m in need of re-reading it, *and* slowing down. Whatever that means! Felicia, our aloe, passed away when we moved South to San Diego…. Felicia never recovered. 😦
New Moon in Taurus: Tap roots run deep
Lost the photo on this one that was originally linked. This is the down-side of using the internet to store our memories…
Taurus moon burst, touching, new
You can really see here where I started to write poetry (in place of astrology?) in addition to astrology 🙂
Rooted Tree Of Taurus Full Moon
Click this for the photo–I also have blogged “some” of my photography in the past. Long time readers of this blog will remember my photography periods. I’m not sure why this link isn’t showing a preview picture of my post.
That full moon was craze balls!
Taste of freedom
This one isn’t about the moon in Taurus. It’s Sun Conjunct Uranus in Taurus.

I hope you are enjoying this celebration!!

Geminizing something New — Fiesta Estrellas (ReBLOGathon Day 6)>>CheerPeppers

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perhaps only a butterfly lifting lightly moving slightly, touches the edges of the sea… meeting your pulse ((((((( Once divided, no longer unguided all thoughts provided from duality… ))))))) hearing your song rhymes, rhythmically, rapidly randomly, ripplingly figuratively, linkingly mouth moving, easily… ] hearing your name [ word siblings are scattered in new families created, […]

Geminizing something New — Fiesta Estrellas

You have to read my poem at the link above. It turns out it was definitely a foreshadowing. I gave birth to a little Gemini two years later. Well, thanks astrology. 🙂 Happy Peppering 🙂 I will add this to the cauldron of posts I’m stewing here in the month of November.

offering myself

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exploring inertia

while watching myself take pause

maybe just another hour longer

to reduce this feeling

maybe the motivation i’ve pushed for years long now

will eventually grow its own legs, but it still needs pressing…

forward

getting praise for being happy is silly

when the joy fades,

I’m sitting in silence, taking the world in, and it’s sharp

Do you know what people are going through?

where is the talent to express these hard things?

where is the wisdom in my soul to trust THIS expression?

I am not made of roses.

but I do have thorns, little prickly places I don’t want to be touched.

I want to go into THIS challenge

I want to meet THIS darkness.

It is okay.

Guiding back the love into myself,

I trust this space, this time, this darkness.

I can be “outside” in it.

You don’t need to reassure me to hide away to do self care.

This IS self care.

My art is not about explaining myself.

I paint myself in black, and walk into the darkness,

because I want to blend in.

Shining is not for me.

I want to be different, black

but we are all in this together… so I am not alone

and you are different, too. We all are.

**I don’t want to be in the practice of explaining my poems. But, each piece I share is very real for me. Walking into the territory of discomfort is sometimes unexpected, but it happens. We live through our sadness, and pain. Joys can speckle the days with highlights. It’s just something we get used to, trying to live a life of meaning. This is how to put one foot in front of the other. The work we create need not be brilliant or good, and it doesn’t matter how much attention it gets. We all think we ought to find our sparkle and “stay there.” But that is not growth. Growth is in the trenches. It’s in recognizing our inertia. Today I have had a heck of a time with procrastination. And, I’m still there. And, that is okay.

Pain drives us

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Sometimes pain drives us to hide

from experiences that present possibilities for more pain

And other times, it helps steel our will

Stake a claim on creating a new vessel to

Live in.

Like a hermit crab, maybe it’s time to climb into a

New shell

Maybe forge one from fire;

My shell is changing

My flesh has reduced and my muscles are rising

Some of this is the consequence of sadness or

feelings of worry and despair, combined with work and determination after long pauses

I plan on making feelings of worry, fear, and despair my allies.

Even if empathic, they can be useful.

It occurred to me today that I don’t need to be useful to the world.

But that I would stake my claim of my place in this world by virtue of the fact that I AM living.

I will let pain drive me to new discoveries,

Relationships, and acceptance.

I will allow this transformation.

Growth dreams

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Resiliency powerhouse

Soft lover

Open channel

Guided, Effective, Capable

Living off the fuel of my challenges

Facing the fears and being gentle with myself

Loving compassion

Showing up!

Clearing the illusions

Being present

Sharp focus

Strength & opportunity

Seeing the wisdom in the wounds

Building paths and making possibilities

Transcending my perceived limits

And working it, never giving up.

*I’m picturing myself sailing on a ship, being deeply in tune with the ocean, and yielding to the power of the storm while the storm inside me grows to match the might of that storm outside of me. I am ready to build this new way of being in the world. I am ready to see the new ways forward. I am ready to be gentle and yielding in the truth of how mighty we all are. 💖 We can overcome our difficulties. I want to be on that path! I am on that path! I will keep going. Growth dreams, to become more than I am now, I am ready.

Cheers to this full moon 🌕

Feeling authentically with chronic pain

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In the beginning of the year I wrote a blog post titled the beginning of healing. In a personal sense, this was more prophetic than I knew. I sensed a deep river running through me ready to perhaps “cleanse me” and wash over me on a more subterranean level. Yet I’m not ready to define “what this is” on that deeper level, spiritual level. Maybe I sensed that quite a bit had been stirred up inside of me during the insanity of the pandemic and politics and thus readying me for more healing and feeling. Maybe I had just been through so much just having a baby and transforming into a mother.

Three months after having her, I completed most of my National Board exams before graduating.

I then finished my Master’s Program by December and the remaining National Board exam, but now have been stopped short of my goal to get licensed in my own state because of the need to sit for a 5 hour exam when I cannot due to pain and further causing injury to my spine. I put so much effort into my program and made much progress with my own health (so it seemed) only to be stopped short for a time. I can eventually take my state’s board exam, maybe, if I get well enough to. Sure I could move to a different state but we have other roots here as a family, and so I feel attached. Better to stick with the career roots my husband has built. Also, it’s home to my alma mater and I’d prefer to stay close by hoping for more opportunities that way. But not if I’m not well!!

I can barely take care of my family, and it being “just us” and literally no one else living in the same state, there’s no one to really turn to for a helping hand. We need to hire help.

Plus, my health has been the worst money pit.

Friends, I’m still in the thick of it, having some better days mixed with suffering days. However what seems to be emerging is this sense of connectedness with my closest friends, who still happen to live far. I don’t feel as lonely as I did a month or two ago, at least, not today.

I also really want to be in touch with people who have had or are experiencing chronic pain, and making the best of it. I absolutely know I am not alone. The whole reason I am walking my path is because I am authentically me. I am free to be myself, and learning every day how to show up for myself and love and bring healing to all the aspects of my consciousness. Some part of me does trust that this is a process unfolding within me, that I will get past it, and my life will move on! But for now, I’m in a really challenging & painful holding pattern.

Authentically yours,

Ka