The stars have aligned,
in a way,
that shows me-
back into the past
and into the present…

all those carrots i was chasing

were different from the one i’m walking in-step with now,

because all those other carrots,

🥕they are already in the bag.

i can see them now, the veil removed,
a re-newed sense of freedom.

those other carrots were old versions of me.

While farmer’s might be thinking this moon is a strawberry,

for me it’s the hardy, sweet root of purpose, restored.

afterwards, i added some hearts (for motherhood) and a small feather that was in my collection. I’m not sure where I’m going with it, but it feels so good to let my right hand lead the way in small progressive circles.

Thanks to Janet, from her blog and my virtual 5 min travels there, I soaked up the inspiration to give myself another 5 min to do a quick sketch. It’s inspired by the Shaman divination card I pulled for this 5 min drawing. What happens if you live in 5 min increments?

Also, I had more time, and I spent it on a call with the poet David Whyte. I’m keeping my inspiration alive in the shadows of others. This has been a long time strategy. I hope to offer support as I have received it. I hope my blog post inspires you to consider how meditatively or intentionally you can live in 5 minutes. I hope one day my work will achieve a worthiness for the attention it needs.

I’m not in the business of putting out polished work right now, but one day I would certainly like to be able to do that. In the meantime, I’m keeping that pilot light lit 🔥

I’ll be visiting everyone in those same 5 min increments, as I don’t have a lot of “free” time, even with the world-wide lockdowns. I just have all the stuff I’ve been procrastinating, waiting for me to give it my 5 minutes. So much of my time is given freely, as is yours….

Thank you 🙏🏽

Hello 👋! I hope everyone is staying healthy and or moving in that direction. I know it’s a hard time for all of us.

I recorded a 5 minute meditation for you. It’s at this link:

https://fiestaestrellas.com/2015/03/18/mindfulness-meditation-track-5-minutes/

I wanted to offer what I can to help bring some grounding and centering into your day with this recording. I’m feeling inspired today to do more meditations in the future but not sure when I will get to them. It’s something I would enjoy doing, just not sure about some logistics.

Would you be interested in listening? Would this be helpful for you at this time?

Looking forward to connecting again,

Love, Ka

Everything around me slowed down,

But I had not.

I could tell because I wasn’t absorbing

The sounds and smells and textures

Of the day.

I know because, on some level,

There’s a part of me who has been it all

And done it all, before.

I know there’s truly no hurrying to go anywhere,

Because there’s no where to go.

There’s still this animal part of me

That’s itching to be in a hurry

That’s anxious about tomorrow.

I can see it all. I can accept this part of me,

And I don’t even have to worry about it.

Beautiful awareness.

Pictures Herbarium, 2011, Gunilla Lagerhem Ullberg (b 1955), shown at the Slow Art Exhibit in Stockholm 2012.

How much more slowly can I go? I am teasing myself with this idea, out of curiosity. It’s too tempting to speed ahead, but now is the perfect time to breathe deep, take a moment longer reading. Take a moment for myself.

Please take a look at this, per Demetra George and Brenda Wilson, mainly Brenda Wilson’s observation and recording of the Wuhan asteroid discovered in 1980. Here are the well-orchestrated and outlined moments of the Wuhan asteroid with its plays against the greatly discussed Saturn/Pluto conjunction, the Mars/Jupiter square and the markets fall.

In this analysis, the Sibley chart is used for the U.S., the timeline is further outlined with Wuhan’s retrograde point at the end of May.

This is an analysis that astrologer’s do not want to miss! We are talking about and leading up to the Saturn/Pluto conjunction at 0 degree Aquarius ♒️ which gives way to eventually 2023-2024 Pluto ingress into Aquarius. You can’t make this stuff up!!

https://demetra-george.com/blog/asteroid-wuhan/?fbclid=IwAR2gamc-ef1LG-I2L-YawOsqOkHc-NQPEQRu4k5LqlOMjp9WIq2Rquz5kls

In brief, the asteroid Wuhan (discovered in 1980 at the Purple Mountain Observatory) entered into Capricorn in early January shortly before the Saturn Pluto conjunction. The average rate of speed for asteroids is about 1 degree every four days. Since then, it has been progressively passing over the South Node, Jupiter, Mars, Pluto and Saturn. It enters Aquarius mid-April, but by the end of May turns retrograde around 4 Aquarius and passes back over Saturn, Pluto and Jupiter. It turns direct at the end of August, once again contacting Jupiter, Pluto and Saturn until mid-November when it enters Aquarius for about the next four months. There it will prepare the way for the historic Jupiter Saturn conjunction near Winter Solstice.

I picked this phrase as my title because it can be read in two different ways: One is mulling it over and trying to understand it all, and the second is relinquishing everything — surrendering “it all” to whatever happens.

Being in the place of the latter, I found some comfort in Matt Kahn’s video:

It’s been a while now since I haven’t been writing or sharing my own astrological interpretations. This aspect of my life has gone quiet for reasons of me being flooded out, I think, by so many of them out there. I think I need now to find “my own thing” again. I’m not sure what that is, but I lost my voice in this. It makes me kind of sad because it’s why I built this blog. On the other hand, I’m willing to go with the flow and accept that maybe it’s just not for me right now, and that’s okay.

That said, I enjoy the freshness of Wondergirl. I’m calling her that instead of her pedestrian name because why else would she choose that moniker? It’s fabulous. I have been occasionally catching her monthly videos and watching her grow and grow on YouTube and now her own special paid subscribers, etc. I think her take on this full moon is pretty good. Maybe later I will dig up some of my old Virgo blog posts and repost it just for the heck of it. It’s nice to know that no one is relying on me to keep the output.

I did one of those wine drinking and art event nights. I was supposed to go with a friend who cancelled last minute because her household is sick, and she didn’t want to spread germs. This was a good move on her part; so I went alone.

The painting environment was a bit cramped, even with the vacant seat on my left. The man to my right was dangerously close to my paintbrush 🖌 and he fortunately was wearing glasses to protect him in case he wasn’t paying attention while I was working on the right side of my canvas at his eye level. He didn’t seem concerned but I had to keep apologizing for tapping him with my brush. This was mildly amusing, overall.

I preferred to drink my very tasty Bloody Mary and forwent the wine. There was music playing that was more like a dance party. This was no regular daytime painting class. The process was formulaic and fast paced. I had to work as fast as possible on the trees. The paint didn’t blend well and my brush had lumps from the previous uses. Suffice it to say that the paint wasn’t the best quality. I’ve worked with better acrylics, ones that don’t dry as fast or get as runny when you add water. But this was a fun challenge.

Even though I went by myself, I had a really good time, and I’d do it again. The more I reflect on it (no pun intended) the more I realize how much I enjoyed myself.

I rarely, rarely draw random characters. This was a surprising character that came out maybe a year ago. I haven’t heard from him since. In my life, so much is whizzing by all the time. It’s neat to see if there are developments, or if someone is here to stay. It’s often a surprise…when they do.

Every day I’ve been diligently doing my Og Mandino book 📖 scroll reading (3x a day). It’s a bit tedious, but I’ve never tried to reread the same text over and over again for 30 days (as the book requires). See previous post where I mention the book.

Will we see Jack again? What do you think Jack was up to? Where was he going? Your guess will be as good as mine.

Today I could not find my sketch pencils ✏️. I have a lot of organizing I need to do, but currently my schedule is at maximum. As I become more efficient, I will have a new maximum. Let me remember today. Also, I am including drawings from the year 2016 when I was making an effort to be more diligent with my drawing. I am working on a number of skills simultaneously…

I am truly only seeking within, with gratitude, with freedom, with awareness.

It’s true, I believe, when I say: I love you all 💗

takes a lot of energy
to maintain the light
under the hood

to keep the engine ready
for that moment it gets
more gas,

finally?

all might come and go so quickly
synching things up
is more of an exploration
in the tangled woodsy mix
of the dead and new leaves and
branches twisted
than a showcase for display
at an art venue where art
tries to be nature,
but is human-filtered,

anyways

in this gallery,
you can hunt and peck for
what you like–
please, find ‘something’
that you like.

does it sparkle?
or do you prefer the neglected?

we have both for sale!

wait don’t walk away
we are just getting warmed up
one minute at a time,
a couple of minutes a day,

potentially more often
than i signed up for.

who are you? but me…
waiting to be set free,
knowing you already are free
so just be.

don’t go.
don’t hide.

the best is always yet to come!